penang???

ur penang trip had been postponed 4 so long....fr late nov to now still have not gone up...i dunno if it's gd tt ur trip was postponed....at least i got 2 celebrate so many holidays & special days wif u....my bday, ur bday, x'mas & mayb new yr 2....

dun kp worrying abt me k? i'll b ok! i promise!

dun get 2 stressed out....dun neglect ur body!

jia u dear!

it's e end o e yr...

last wk e ed came down 2 have mtg wif us...an annual event...we usu start off wif e latest news (which o cos was abt nkf) den an "ice-breaking" session den on wat nx yr was gg 2 b....

tis yr, ice-breaking qn was wat was1 thing which u've learnt in tis yr and how it affect u...

i was quite caught cos i haven really tot abt it....tis yr i stopped a lot o my activities cos o a strained ligament...i didnt do much things...

when it was my turn 2 share, e 1st thing tt came 2 my mind was diving...tt was e 1 thing which i learnt tis yr...it brought me into another world, & it brought sme1 special into my life 2....

actually i 1ed 2 write much much more but now no mood 2 really blog...in office, only me, G & boss in...every1 else on leave....

no1 on msn also...all on leave except 4 nee, who also took 1/2 day....

bored....

gift xchange...

2005.12.26 Nee's place i gave puzzle to tcc, tcc gave XXX to nee, nee gave music box to chris, chris gave lip gloss to juan, juan gave soap & bookmark to me. swing gave earrings to zhen, zhen gave slippers to swing.

x'mas gift xchange...

1st yr at NYDC HV swing gave x'mas stocking to chris, chris gave photo frame & chocolate to tcc, tcc gave socks to zhen, zhen gave HP strip to juan, juan gave towel to me, me gave pens & holder to swing. nee & ling exchange (ling didnt turn up) 2nd yr at Esplanade swing gave XXX to zhen, zhen gave lipbalm to me, me gave sushi candy & photo frame to nee, nee gave earring & water bottle to juan, juan gave XXX to swing. chris & tcc exchange wrist rest. 3rd yr at swing's place, swing gave nail polish to me, me gave cushion to tcc, tcc gave earrings to juan, juan gave XXX to chris, chris gave XXX to nee, nee gave pants to zhen, zhen gave XXX to swing.

pls fill in e XXX for me.....

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY...

i hoped u had a great bday....i had 2 heart attacks during my stay in ur home...=) pleasant suprises....i'm so glad we talked so much....=) thk u dear....

DYM...TTM...

i dunno if it's cos o DYM.....'ve been tinking or rather trying v hard hard not 2 tink....i dunno....i dun 1 2 tink....rite or wrong....m i doing wat i 1 2 do....or juz 4 e sake o things....haizzz....i dunno....i feel so bad smetimes....i dunno y i'm so irritated....i dunno y....i dun understd....i dun even know how 2 put it into words....i dun....haizzz....

2 free i guess....i dunno wat i'm doing....i'm never tinking abt wat i'm doing....

do i even 1 2 tink????i dun tink so....haizzz....

desaru....it was a gd memory.....

i've been 1ing 2 ask....& i've ask b4....r u e same as me....doing & tinking e way tt shld b.....not e way tt it is????

settling down????not wat i'm tinking o....definitely not in ur agenda....dun pacify me....dun say all these things....pls dun....pls.....

m i acting???m i juz trying 2 b on equal grds???

dun continue juz becos o all e words.....dun continue juz becos u've started.....

mayb i'm juz waiting 4 u 2 throw in e towel 1st....mayb i juz dun 1 2 b e 1....mayb.....

i'm so lousy....

grieve...take ur time...

she broke down e moment she spoke...i was a bit taken aback by e sudden death o her friend...i tot she was oredi in UK wif her bf...happily ever after...but....i didnt know how 2 console her...i'm bad at it...i juz listened & gently comforted her wif a pat on e bk, letting her know tt i'm listening...

dun blame urself 4 not spending enough time...dun blame urself 4 not treasuring ur loved 1s when they r ard...

b comforted tt she followed her dreams...b comforted tt he was there 4 her...b comforted tt she had probably left her pains behind...

take time 2 grieve...take time 2 comfort urself....

i dunno how 2 comfort u...but i'm glad 2 b a listening ear...