how do u move on.....

ST Nov 13 2004

Life after death
Huang Na is dead. But the nightmare will stay forever with her family as well as that of Took Leng How, the man charged with her murder

By Ong Soh Chin

IN THE last month or so, the country stood still as a nationwide search went on for Huang Na, the eight-year-old girl who went missing.

I, too, was riveted. And when her body was eventually found, I felt sick to my stomach.
Apart from the obvious heartbreak element of a missing child found dead, Singaporeans also bonded over the shared sense of horror that there could be a child killer among us.

One can barely imagine the horrifying sequence of events that led to Huang Na's body being discovered naked and decomposed in a cardboard box thrown into the undergrowth at Telok Blangah Hill.

My heart goes out to her mother. I can't even begin to comprehend her grief.

But at the same time, my heart also goes out to the parents of Took Leng How, the 22-year-old vegetable packer who has been arrested and charged with the crime.

While it is devastating to lose a child to horrible circumstances, it must be just as unbearable to realise that one's own child could have inflicted such a horror.

While watching the Huang Na case unfold, I have been moved by the reactions of Took's parents.

Simple folk who run a fried kway teow stall in Simpang Ampat in Penang, they have seen their business suffer as a result of the incident.

Said Mr Took, 52, in a press report: 'Some customers even point and whisper, but it's just something we have to bear.'

He also said he is not sure if he will be able to afford a good lawyer for his son.

The Tooks have two other sons, aged 23 and 20, and a daughter, 19.

When he and his wife came to Singapore by bus from Penang to attend the hearing, they had to apply for passports, indicating that they had probably never stepped out of Malaysia before, not even to neighbouring Singapore.

Mr Took wanted to go to Huang Na's wake at Clementi to talk to the girl's parents, but was advised against it by a relative.

Instead he went to the Singapore Buddhist Lodge and prayed at Huang Na's altar, asking for her forgiveness and for her to rest in peace.

He said: 'I know there are many reporters and many people at Clementi. We're from a small town. Our knowledge isn't wide. We won't know how to respond to that sort of spectacle.'

Indeed, how does one respond?

The monumental reevaluation and consolidation that Took's family must now face reminds me of Mikal Gilmore's book, Shot In The Heart.

Gilmore, a music journalist with Rolling Stone, is the youngest brother of Gary Gilmore, the infamous American killer who murdered two men and who was subsequently sentenced to death in 1977.

In 1979, he became the subject of Norman Mailer's Pulitzer Prize-winning The Executioner's Song.

But it is Mikal's 1994 book which is the more compelling of the two, simply because it is written from an insider's point of view.

As much as it is about his brother, it is also about the author's attempt to make sense of his own life - how he managed to escape his brother's horrible fate, even though they are flesh and blood.

It is a brave book, heart-rending at some parts, chilling at others, in which Mikal painfully peels off the layers of his troubled family history to reveal the awful truth at the centre.

When something this horrible happens, it is all too easy to blame ourselves. No doubt Huang Na's mother will find it hard to forgive herself for leaving her daughter alone here while she left for China.

But, really, many of us leave our kids in the care of trusted friends and family members, without a second thought.

If he is found guilty, Took's parents, too, must be wondering if somewhere along the line, they had done something wrong to their child, something that could have triggered off his actions.

They must also be wondering if they really knew their son.

And his wife, who now has to look after their young son alone, must agonise over whether she really knew her husband and whether their son, who is 14 months old, has inherited his father's secret genes.

These are private hells that every individual prays he or she will never have to go through.

The dead die, and they are gone.

But it is those who are alive that must make sense of the devastation.

Mr Took told the press he wanted to speak to his son again: 'I just wish to ask him two questions to dispel the doubt in my heart - 'Did you do harm to people?' No matter what his answer is, I will also ask him, 'Is it true or false?'.'

I don't know if he ever got his answer. But I want to tell him that maybe the answer is not so important.

When reviewing Shot In The Heart, New York Times reviewer Kathryn Harrison wrote: 'Mikal Gilmore's triumph is that he pushes his readers beyond being helplessly enthralled witnesses to the point where, with him, we might consider not only that violence and evil do exist within the limits of predictable human behaviour, but that there is evidence of another equally mysterious force, which some of us would call grace.'

Sifting truth from lie is only part of the dark journey. Indeed it was Mikal's. But at the end of the day, there will be questions that will forever remain unanswered. And circumstances can only be blamed to a certain extent.

As Mikal so poignantly showed in his book, the end of the tunnel can only be reached through acceptance and the belief that there is hope still in humanity and in one's soul.

I cannot pretend to understand the suffering of the families of Huang Na and Took Leng How.

But I hope that in this dark period, they can eventually find in their hearts the grace to move on with their lives, and the ability to not only forgive others, but also themselves.


(totally agree wif e following article....hehehe...)
ST Nov 15, 2004

Women are more generous than men
Sorry to say this, guys, but I realised that when I went fund-raising in the business district recently

By Pradeep Paul

AS BEFITTING the name of this column, here is another take on the gender divide.

Only, instead of pointing out yet another female quirk or oddity - yes, I'm brave, and yes, I'm not very bright - I'm doffing my hat to the women of Singapore.

They are definitely more charitable and generous than their male counterparts.

The reason for this stroke of revelation? No, it's not my kindly colleague who threatens to poison me with her cooking.

It was a couple of hours of pan-handling in the business district.

Last month, my editor led a team of Straits Times employees to Raffles Place on a mission.
Armed with nothing more than uniform T-shirts and our smiles, we were there to raise funds for The Straits Times Pocket Money Fund.

And we were to do it by accosting strangers as they scurried about on their lunch break and sticking a collection tin in their faces.

Accompanied by some employees of Caltex, which threw in cute soft toys and sweets as a form of rewarding the generous, we fanned out.

Some headed for the MRT exits. After all, a steady stream of commuters would yield some donations.

Others swarmed around the foot of Caltex House.

Some used their charm.

The pretty women just had to stand with the tin in their hand and smile. Men walked up to them with money in their hand.

One of us - she threatened me with bodily harm if I named her - used psychology.

Zeroing in on office workers who looked like they had just had a hearty meal, she asked if they'd had a good lunch. She asked them what they had eaten. And then sucker-punched them with an emotionally charged line about how some schoolchildren do not have lunch because their parents cannot afford to give them pocket money.

Seeing the competition, I decided to wander down Change Alley and try my luck there.

Flashing my biggest smile and holding up the tin that was labelled with the name of the charity, I walked up to people and asked if they'd like to donate some money.

And it was a revealing experience.

Some people stopped as I approached them, even if they were deep in conversation with friends.

They looked at the tin. They listened as I spouted: 'Good afternoon, I'm from The Straits Times and we're collecting money for children whose parents can't afford to give them pocket money.'

And they dipped into their wallets readily.

Others would smile, hear me out, shake their head in a form of apology and carry on.

And then there were some - was it coincidence that all of them were in high-powered corporate gear and reeked of money? - who walked by me like I didn't exist.

There I was, smile on high and starting to say 'Good afternoon, I'm fro...' when I realised I was talking to myself. The person had sidestepped me like a rugby winger in full flight and kept going.

Now, I'm not saying these are stingy people. They probably give more to charity in other ways than what you and I earn in a month.

But what about the basic courtesy of acknowledging a fellow human being who approaches you on the street?

Hey, it was broad daylight and all I was packing was a smile, a tin and some cute soft toys.

p Sure, collection drives are a dime-a-dozen in these tough times. Sure, there are post-lunch meetings that beckon. But what about basic courtesy?

Guess they don't teach that in the school of big bucks.

Oh, did I mention that all these types that I met - however briefly - were men?

Most of the women I approached that day at least heard me out. They gave me a minute of their time, even smiled.

Some confessed they had never heard of the Pocket Money Fund but, when told that it was for school kids who could not afford to buy themselves a curry puff at recess, readily pulled out a couple of bucks.

Others said they knew about the Fund and slotted $10 notes into the tin. Some generous women even donated $50.

In fact, by the second hour, I had even mastered the art of spotting the 'donators'.

Too young, no point. They had limited allowances and too many things to buy.

Too old, not much point. They had their own survival on their minds.

It was the Mums and soon-to-be-Mums who seemed to be guided by maternal pangs when they pheard about hungry children. They gave willingly of their money, their time and their smiles.

By the time we got into the bus to head back to the office, I had learnt a lesson in human behaviour. And it didn't give my gender very high marks. Clothes may make the man, but they certainly don't complete him.

So, there you have it: I admit women are more generous and more courteous than men.

Although to this day I'm not sure if the women dug into their handbags because of their innate generosity or the cute soft toy that I traded for a donation.

beautiful 8.....

mayb we can have beautiful 8????? hope so......

suddenly i really feel like crying......i tink i need 2 go use e toilet......

beautiful 7.....

7 beautiful people, 7 beautiful yrs o sisterhood......

yes it's amazing how our friendship/sisterhood is still as strong as ever even though we hardly meet altogether.....once or twice in a yr although very little but it felt really nice.....

totally bushed ytd but was 1 o e most beautiful day/nite o tis yr!!!

yes thk u gals!!!! i almost cried reading nee's blog but m in office dun 1 2 b seen crying.....

feel so blessed suddenly.....beautiful life.......

i've tis odd habit o tinking abt tis qn whenever i'm walking home or when i'm alone.....wld i regret anything if i die at tis very moment.....up till now e ans is no.....i hope e ans will always b e same.....i've a very wonderful life up till now......i hope it'll b like tis all e time......i hope i haven jinxed it......

beautiful.........

beautiful 7.... 

2.5 million...(or is it 4 million)....

i tink u need 2 collect at least 2.5 million (or is it 4 million...can't remember but it's at least a few million dollars.....) 2 cover all e costs for staging a charity show on tv......heard it in 1 o e meetings in scs......wldn't tis amt b put 2 greater use????i dunno....mayb it'll create a greater awareness???? mass media is really powerful....so mayb e intention is not 2 raise e money but 2 create (montrous) awareness......

Look at these 2 aticles fr e straits times...... i've lotsa 2 comment but time constraints....i'll do my share o complaining some other time...post watever comments u 1 on these 2 articles.....

Nov 6, 2004

THINKING ALOUD
Women have moved on but society's in time warp
By Zuraidah Ibrahim
Political Editor

EDUCATED women here have been getting the metaphorical black eye or two lately.
How's this for starters: This week, to snag some publicity for a birth control programme, a committee chided tertiary-educated women for going for abortions, citing how the number of abortions among this group had seen a three-fold rise since 1988.

Riding on this statistic, a committee member rued the sorry state of educated women, adding that some who went to his clinic for abortions told him they didn't want babies to block their career paths.

What these statements omitted to mention was the inconvenient fact that the total number of tertiary-educated women had also jumped - four-fold. In other words, the proportion of tertiary-educated women going for abortions has actually declined.

One wonders, too, if the doctor was too quick to suggest that married women were torn between child and ambition, as if these were the only factors at play.

The choice may not be so cut-and-dried. Even if work gets in the way, it is hardly fair to characterise all the women concerned as heartless climbers of the corporate ladder, the way some of these discussions are wont to do.

The woman may be driven more by fear than by ambition - the fear of companies not willing to hire pregnant women, or of juggling the bundle of joy and the burden of work with a husband who is not willing to share the load.

The main point that the committee was trying to make was a valid one: educated Singaporeans who are not ready for children should know better than to resort to abortions; they should avoid conception through birth control.

But, have you noticed how the onus is placed on the woman? The experts could have chosen to highlight the fact that a rising number of tertiary-educated men are making their wives pregnant before they are ready for it.

No, instead, the accusing looks are directed at the women. It is as if Singapore's men share no responsibility for birth control; as if they are innocents seduced into surrendering their seed by the predatory females of the species.

One doctor on the committee acknowledged that part of the problem could be that the gap between marriage registration and traditional ceremonies made it embarrassing for these women if they became pregnant.

This is revealing of the state of morality and men-women relationships here. But more of that later.

Next, witness the letters to the Forum page lamenting the Singapore woman's lack of womanliness, her 'barbed exterior' and her insistence on putting career above everything else.

The onslaught against the Singapore woman comes amid this vexing concern that more men here are marrying foreigners or keeping them as mistresses. The prevailing sentiment - if the letter-writers and these men who marry foreigners are to be believed - is that women here are too difficult and therefore deserve this fate of being passed over for foreign women.

The presumptuousness of these letters in assuming that every woman's desire is to be wedded is exceeded only by their sheer chauvinism.

What about the role men play? How do they contribute to keeping a relationship happy and healthy?

The discussions, while they may be passed off as just idle chatter, reveal much about the mindset that still govern all of our lives here.

Singapore women have made enormous leaps in education and many have become independent, strong-minded, driven people, no different from Singapore men bred on the same ideals.
But here's the rub: The men just have not kept up.

More of them seem to be caught in a time warp. A time when women stayed at home, cooked and took care of their men's needs or, in a slightly updated version, women went to work but still found themselves left with taking care of the house.

In the second version, the men want their women to be their economic equals. But in everything else, they want to be more equal than their women.

This mismatch between what Singapore women have become and what Singapore men still are is really the reason behind the recent letters berating women and why it's so convenient to place the blame on abortions by educated women - on only them.

Society has some catching up to do.

For some reason, a woman's advance is always measured in terms of trade-offs she must make - between career and family - whereas a man's is never that.

In politics too, women politicians are constantly being asked that question. Few of us journalists ever ask male politicians about the trade-offs they make.

This mindset seeps into many other decisions - including whether to have or keep the baby. The responsibility of keeping the baby as implied by the doctor rests with women.

And worse, for those women who have to get rid of their babies because they have not gone through their traditional vows, why the insistence on face? What is being transgressed here?

Society's expectations that a couple must not have copulated before marriage? Or, the veil of hypocrisy that it goes on but let's not tell the whole world?

If the marriage is legal, so should the baby-making be.
But no, for the sake of maintaining some myths about female virginity and tradition, abortion is the chosen way out.

The expectations on Singapore women are huge. At the workplace, they are supposed to be equal to men even though they earn less. At home, they contribute to the family income yet bear the larger burden of rearing children.

Yes, I know, there will be men who will say they are doing their fair share, they are as liberated as their women.

I have met these specimens too and some are very dear to me, but I would hazard a guess they are not the overwhelming majority of men.

For all that they have delivered, Singapore women have a right to be demanding and, yes, difficult even.

And if women decide not to have children, don't be quick to blame them. Men, and the rest of society, should also look at themselves in the mirror. -- E-mail stpol@sph.com.sg


Nov 7, 2004
First, China brides. Then, Vietnamese brides.
Now, Kalimantan Chinese brides
Matchmaking agency thinks they are a better fit here because they can speak Chinese dialects
By Tracy Quek

MOVE over, Vietnam brides, here come the girls from Kalimantan.

One matchmaking agency here is offering Singaporean men the chance to choose a Chinese bride from the Indonesian province on Borneo.

And although new in the matchmaking industry, Mr Simon Sim, 50, manager of Mayle Marriage Agency, reckons he already has an edge.

The Kalimantan brides-to-be are Indonesian Chinese, speak various Chinese dialects, can whip up Chinese meals and would find it easier to fit in here, he said.

They are aged between 20 and 30, and come from large farming families in rural villages.

Their parents, who get a dowry of between $1,000 and $2,000, agree to such matches because they want better lives for their daughters, he added.

While agencies offering Vietnamese brides charge more than $12,000, Mayle's wedding package costs an auspicious $9,888.

It includes return tickets to Kalimantan, a chance to pick a wife from among 20 young women, the dowry, a wedding banquet, suits and bridal gowns, and wedding photography.

The bride's Indonesian passport can be ready in about two days. In contrast, Vietnamese brides have to wait for over a month for their passports.

Mr Sim said he and a business partner started the agency about six months ago, after finding out about the communication problems their friends had with their Vietnamese wives.

'There's a language barrier, it can be a strain when they can't talk to their husbands,' he said.
'Matching our local men with girls of the same cultural background will ensure a higher chance of the marriage lasting.'

But agencies offering matchmaking tours to Vietnam say they are not worried about the competition.

Mr Martin Yong, managing director of Mr Cupid International Matchmakers, said: 'We have established ourselves in the industry, we do thorough background checks on the women and our customers trust us.'

Mr Sim says his agency also does its checks.

The women go for a medical check-up to ensure that they are healthy and virgins.

He interviews all his clients, to make sure that they have a steady income and a roof over their heads.

His clients are mostly Chinese-speaking blue-collar workers in their 40s and 50s.

Chinese men make up almost nine in 10 of the 67,000 bachelors in Singapore aged 35 to 49, according to the 2000 Census.

So far, Mr Sim has found wives for two Singaporean Chinese men in their 40s. One works as a driver, the other is a store keeper.

Two more men, in their 40s and 50s, will be making the six-day trip later this year, he said.

One of them, Mr Peter Chua, 41, who will be selecting his Kalimantan bride later this month, said: 'Singaporean women have very high expectations, they want the five Cs and I can't afford that.'

The security officer, who takes home less than $2,000 a month, is now hoping to meet a 'simple, pleasant girl, who is not too demanding'.

Contact Mayle Marriage Agency on 6219-5709

The $9,888 package

Choice of 20 Kalimantan brides-to- be who are Indonesian Chinese, speak various Chinese dialects, including Hakka and Hainanese, and can whip up Chinese meals.

Women are between 20 and 30 years of age.

Return tickets to Kalimantan.

Dowry of between $1,000 and $2,000 for bride's family.

Wedding banquet.

Suits and bridal gown.

Wedding photography.

The bride's Indonesian passport can be ready in about two days, and she can return home with her husband.

tai-chi: e fav pastime o ministries.....

In the Straits Times 2004.11.05
(Words in purple are my comments)

US sex offender jailed here for lying about his past
He hid criminal record to get employment pass to teach here

AN AMERICAN sex offender who lied about his criminal record in order to get an employment pass here was sentenced to seven months' jail and fined $8,000 on Wednesday.

Jack West, 58, had told the Ministry of Manpower (MOM) and Ministry of Education (MOE) he had never been convicted of a crime in any country.

In fact, he had a string of convictions in the United States dating back more than 30 years.

In May 1999 and July 2000, he lied to MOM about his record, first in an application for an employment pass, and later to renew it.

In November 2000 and July the following year, he lied about his criminal record to MOE in order to be allowed to work here as a teacher.

Deputy Public Prosecutor Ng Cheng Thiam told the court West would never have been granted an employment pass or be allowed to teach here if he had declared these past convictions in the US, especially since his crimes were serious ones.
(fei hua!!!! tt's y he didn't declare his past convictions......)

Among others, West was charged with raping his own son from his first marriage over a period of four years between 1984 and 1987.

The boy was only seven when he was first sexually assaulted by his father.

However, West fled the US before the trial could start. He returned in 1997 and pleaded guilty to four reduced charges of sexual battery and was sentenced to two years' jail.

He has also been in trouble with the law for drug trafficking, carrying an unlicensed gun and intimidation.

In Singapore, West started out working for a few private schools, including Orchard School of Arts and Commerce and Coleman Commercial and Language Centre, in 1999.

In October 2001, he set up JGW Consultancy, which provided English lessons to students, housewives and businessmen. As recently as three months ago, he was still giving tuition to three students in their homes.

West had a sideline as well: He ran a 'matchmaking' website selling information about Asian women to American men. The site featured pictures of women either in the nude or in provocative poses.

The two ministries began to investigate his background after The New Paper reported in early August that the convicted paedophile was now teaching young children in Singapore.
(The 2 ministries wld have never checked his bkgrd if there was no reporting by TNP?????)

West was then charged with eight counts of falsely declaring his criminal record to MOM and MOE.

MOM prosecutor Rosemary Chan called him a 'seasoned criminal' whose acts were premeditated and deceitful.
(E fact tt he cld slipped thro' so many different gates is not cos he was 'seasoned' but cos there's so many loopholes!!!!! tt's not a bloody gd excuse!!!!)

In response to queries about how West managed to slip through the net, an MOE spokesman said the onus of checking statements made by candidates who apply to be registered as teachers should fall on the schools, not the ministry.
(So schools shld b 1 doing all e checking???? So wat's e role o MOE???? a beautiful vase?????)

MOM would only say it 'takes into consideration the inputs of various government agencies when assessing the application for an employment pass'.
(MOE has no clue on e bkgrd o e applicants & they blindly pass e info 2 MOM who gladly lets criminals roam e s'pore grds???)

As for how West could enter Singapore when there was a warrant of arrest out for him in the US, the Immigration and Checkpoints Authority would only say: 'The movement records of individuals are not available for release as such information is private and confidential.'
(Now u r talking abt indv/human rites when there doesn't seem 2 b any in e 1st place anyway!!!!)

I was especially pissed at tis piece o news cos i c e different ministries doing tai-chi again!!!!

remember tt i wrote abt how a paper on child sexual abuse was banned fr presentation at e 11th hr????? anyway, tt matter has yet 2 b settled......e order was given by MOE tt e author o e paper, a phd student in NIE, cannot present her paper in n international conference. MOE cited tt they had "expert opinion" tt e paper cld present e teaching profession in a bad light.....e paper was on trainee teachers' personal experience of childhood sexual abuse.....& in tt paper, e % o these teachers reporting tt they had personal encounters of sexual abuse was a figure quite unlikely e offically reported figure of sexual abuse in singapore......after sme investigation/tracing by my boss , her boss & several other higher position members in s'pore children's society, they found tt e "expert opinion" tt was cited by MOE came fr MCYS.....So there was sme communication between SCS & MCYS, & MCYS said tt they never ordered MOE 2 ban e presentation.....MCYS "very casually" told MOE tt they are concerned abt e data tt was being presented in e paper, & hoped tt MOE wld look into e issue.....MCYS & MOE had never questioned e author on e data & had even approved her leave 2 go 4 e conference!!!!! WAT E FUCK!!!!

Now SCS 1s 2 hold a dialogue session wif MCYS & MOE, not 2 pursue who actually stopped e presentation but on e intellectual property rite o papers. When data r collected esp when it involves any1 fr any o e ministries, do e ministries automatically have e rite 2 censor e data......

Taking e case o e sex offender teaching in s'pore, c how e MOE, MOM & ICA r playing tai-chi???? no use playing tai-chi now!!! i dun 1 2 blame any1 4 e slip-up, i juz 1 2 know how we can prevent smething like tt fr happening again!!!! it looks 2 me tt there r bound 2 have more cases happening(or mayb there r juz tt we dunno...)......

can any1 in any o e ministries pls examine urselves 1st????? pls........

sponge bob square pants......

My friend sent me a test on wat cartoon character i m...& tis is the anlaysis i have:

Sponge Bob Square Pants - You are the classic person that everyone loves. You are the best friend that anyone could ever have and never want to loose. You never cause harm to anyone and they would never not understand your feelings. Life is a journey it's funny and calm for the most part. Stay away from traitors and jealous people then you will be stress-free.

MC.....

was on MC ytd.....woke up, e room was spinning rd & rd.....dunno wat happened...decided agst gg 2 office cos wasn't feeling well & had a bad cough, dun 1 2 spread 2 my colleagues......went 2 e je polyclinic 2 get MC & medicines......co. pay 90% if i go 2 their destinated clinics, but none was near my place other then e polyclinic.....so damned slow!!!! all in all i took 2hrs!!! waste o my time....thk gdness o brought a bk along else i wld 've been bored 2 death....e cough medication really knocked me out, after taking it i had 2 sleep....slept 4 2 hrs had dinner then watch tv......didn't get 2 do much.....took e medication again at nite & again i conk out almost immediately....

last sat 2 work...starting 5-days wk next wk......took e medication tis morning & again i conked out on e train....cld hardly keep my brain functioning properly.....so here i m blogging away.....my head feels funny.....like it's gg 2 b std by mode any time (it's like tt every time i work on sat anywayz....)

dunno if i shld go running tmr.....haven practise my sign lang 4 e exam on tue.....& i still haven sent my x-boss e data.....doing sme data cleaning b4 sending it 2 her but i've been dragging it since last sat....

i hate coughing.....hope i get well soon....river regatta race coming up soon....hardly train 4 it.......hope tmr's training wld b ok.....dunno y but my lower bk hurts......i hope it's not cos o my hamstring......e doc told me tt it's not my bones but e muscle, so gave me sme muscle relaxant 4 consumption & sme lotion 2 rub into e area......i really hope i can get well soon 4 my hamstring.....i really 1 2 know wat's wrong.....i'm scared......

sick2......

feeling my fever coming back.......shoot.....

INTP analysis continue.....

Introverted Thinking
Introverted Thinking strives to extract the essence of the Idea from various externals that express it. In the extreme, this conceptual essence wants no form or substance to verify its reality. Knowing the Truth is enough for INTPs; the knowledge that this truth can (or could) be demonstrated is sufficient to satisfy the knower. "Cogito, ergo sum" expresses this prime directive quite succinctly.

In seasons of low energy level, or moments of single-minded concentration, the INTP is aloof and detached in a way that might even offend more relational or extraverted individuals.

Extraverted iNtuition
Intuition softens and socializes Thinking, fleshing out the brittle bones of truths formed in the dominant inner world. That which is is not negotiable; yet actual application diffuses knowledge to the extent that knowledge needs qualification and context to be of any consequence in this foreign world of substance.

If Thinking can desist, the INTP is free to brainstorm, calling up the perceptions of the unconscious (i.e., intuition) which are mirrored in patterns in the realm of matter, time and space. These perceptions, in the form of theories or hunches, must ultimately defer to the inner principles, or at least they must not negate them.

Intuition unchained gives birth to play. INTPs enjoy games, formal or impromptu, which coax analogies, patterns and theories from the unseen into spontaneous expression in a way that defies their own comprehension.

Introverted Sensing
Sensing is of a subjective, inner nature similar to that of the SJs. It supplies awareness of the forms of senses rather than the raw, analogic stimuli. Facts and figures seek to be cleaned up for comparison with an ever growing range of previously experienced input. Sensing assists intuition in sorting out and arranging information into the building blocks for Thinking's elaborate systems.

The internalizing nature of the INTP's Sensing function leaves a relative absence of environmental awareness (i.e., Extraverted Sensing), except when the environment is the current focus. Consciousness of such conditions is at best a sometime thing.

Extraverted Feeling
Feeling tends to be all or none. When present, the INTP's concern for others is intense, albeit naive. In a crisis, this feeling judgement is often silenced by the emergence of Thinking, who rushes in to avert chaos and destruction. In the absence of a clear principle, however, INTPs have been known to defer judgement and to allow decisions about interpersonal matters to be left hanging lest someone be offended or somehow injured. INTPs are at risk of being swept away by the shadow in the form of their own strong emotional impulses.


Famous INTPs:
Socrates
Rene Descartes
Blaise Pascal
Sir Isaac Newton

U.S. Presidents:
James Madison
John Quincy Adams
John Tyler
Dwight D. Eisenhower
Gerald Ford


William Harvey (pioneer in human physiology)
C. G. Jung, (Freudian defector, author of Psychological Types, etc.)
William James
Albert Einstein
Tom Foley (Speaker of the House--U.S. House of Representatives)
Henri Mancini
Bob Newhart
Jeff Bingaman, U.S. Senator (D.--NM)
Rick Moranis (Honey, I Shrunk The Kids)
Midori Ito (ice skater, Olympic silver medalist)
Tiger Woods

Fictional INTPs
Tom and Fiona (Four Weddings and a Funeral)
Dr. Susan Lewis (ER)
Filburt(Rocko's Modern Life)


Quite accurate.....i tink...

i'm a INTP..... try out e jung typology test...
http://www.humanmetrics.com/cgi-win/JTypes2.asp

e analysis is as below....

http://typelogic.com/intp.html

INTPs are pensive, analytical folks. They may venture so deeply into thought as to seem detached, and often actually are oblivious to the world around them.

Precise about their descriptions, INTPs will often correct others (or be sorely tempted to) if the shade of meaning is a bit off. While annoying to the less concise, this fine discrimination ability gives INTPs so inclined a natural advantage as, for example, grammarians and linguists.

INTPs are relatively easy-going and amenable to most anything until their principles are violated, about which they may become outspoken and inflexible. They prefer to return, however, to a reserved albeit benign ambiance, not wishing to make spectacles of themselves.

A major concern for INTPs is the haunting sense of impending failure. They spend considerable time second-guessing themselves. The open-endedness (from Perceiving) conjoined with the need for competence (NT) is expressed in a sense that one's conclusion may well be met by an equally plausible alternative solution, and that, after all, one may very well have overlooked some critical bit of data. An INTP arguing a point may very well be trying to convince himself as much as his opposition. In this way INTPs are markedly different from INTJs, who are much more confident in their competence and willing to act on their convictions.

Mathematics is a system where many INTPs love to play, similarly languages, computer systems--potentially any complex system. INTPs thrive on systems. Understanding, exploring, mastering, and manipulating systems can overtake the INTP's conscious thought. This fascination for logical wholes and their inner workings is often expressed in a detachment from the environment, a concentration where time is forgotten and extraneous stimuli are held at bay. Accomplishing a task or goal with this knowledge is secondary.

INTPs and Logic -- One of the tipoffs that a person is an INTP is her obsession with logical correctness. Errors are not often due to poor logic -- apparent faux pas in reasoning are usually a result of overlooking details or of incorrect context.

Games NTs seem to especially enjoy include Risk, Bridge, Stratego, Chess, Go, and word games of all sorts.

children....

dunno if it's cos i'm working in scs now, i tend 2 keep a look out 4 kids & their parents whenever i'm outside.....i 1 2 observe how they interact, how parents discipline their kids.......it's really interesting & every1 has a different approach......i'll keep observing.......parents, a life long learning career.......1 tt i feel i'm not up 4......

sick....

fever last nite.....keep falling sick these days.......weather???? or juz poor diet.....must b both.....haven had home-cooked food 4 e longest time.......i shld make it a pt 2 eat........but i 1 2 go 4 more lessons after work........sign lang is finishing again......now i'll have mon, tue, fri n sat free.......must find sme thing 2 fill up......

unwell.....

feeling kind o sick......shoot......

m i tt scary???? can't b.....

You Are Scary

You even scare scary people sometimes!

How scary are you?

tots....sorted????

true, i've not sorted out my tots yet......so i can't give u a convincing speech.......anywayzzz, i juz 1ed 2 make everything bk 2 normal but i guess i failed.......

u r not as weak as u sound so i tink i'll stop making any attempts.......u r not hurt but i m.......i m disappointed......

GID 2....

sorry tt i had 2 rush off even b4 we had started on anything.....sorry sorry sorry!!!!! when is hari raya btw???? i'm so caught up wif so many things tt i really m sorry tt i missed out on so many things!!! dun even have time 2 write a long blog article....got 2 go....

factor analysis...

finish reading e confirmatory/exploratory factor analysis??? do a summary 4 me or lend me e articles??? thks!!!! :)))

dunno if u shld know....

i've been contemplating if i shld let u know e reason......if u 1 2 know tell me......juz get everything straightened out???? i didn't know wat 2 say when u stun me wif all e revelation......i tot i shld tell u how i feel instead o saying, we r juz friends......if u 1 2 know, pls tell me.

nice quote....

got tis quote fr e newspaper, sme1 wrote in commenting on e super difficult science paper 4 PSLE & how parents shld not get 2 sucked into e education sys & 4get wat parenting shld b more abt....

"Who says winners can't fail? I can fall but I will get up again."

very true.....

my colleague juz passed me tis leaflet called "share a hope" a project by DBS 4 e community chest. juz trace ur hand on e leaflet then write a message, dropped it at ntuc outlets & DBS will donate $2 4 each leaflet. very meaning....

tis was wat i wrote 4 e special kids who will benefit fr e project:

"Dear jonathan & friends,

As long as you believe you can do it, nothing can stop you. Life is hard no doubt, but with faith, nothing is impossible. Just believe in yourself!"


check out e following web 4 more info:

www.comchest.org.sg

when u dunno how 2 describe....

ok, i've finished doing e stuff 4 tmr's meeting. dun feel like starting on a new piece o work cos in another 15mins i'm knocking off.so i'm bk 2 blogging again....

smetimes i feel tt i'm a really bad person.....not evil but not a gd person.....i do a lot o things wif intend.....not evil intend but at e very least doing things tt i can derive smething fr......derive happiness, satisfaction, a lot a lot o things which r selfish actually......i've not really considered how others really feel.....as long as i'm happy, tt's my bottom line.....i try 2 b as considerate as i can but i dun tink i'm willing 2 do tt everytime or anytime at all.....i'm juz 2 busy 2 consider wat others 1.....but i can't help feeling guilty when i know tt i shld b considering abt others......

anyway, i dun really intend 2 change myself cos i'm really 2 lazy & 2 bored 2 b considering abt other pple....so if i offend u in any way tt's juz 2 bad.....anywayz, i dunno wat i'm writing anymore....1ed 2 write abt smething else but tot otherwise cos e blog is becoming 2 transparent 4 my comfort....mayb i'll write in another blog wif another pseudo-name......


anyway, knocking off, need 2 go toilet 1st!

juz 1 word 2 describe......

juz 1 word 2 describe how i'm feeling rite now.....sleepy....very sleepy.....dunno y i'm feeling so sleepy....slept on e mrt, really dozed off, cam e into office, took 5 min naps every 2-3 hrs.....still sleepy....

GID.....

next sat GID, so where's e venue???? decide quick!!!! any1 preparing agenda???? wat's e theme o GID tis time rd??? any1 prepared e minutes fr e last GID????? chairperson???? secretariat???? advisor????

4more minute.....

3 more minutes......

i'm gg 2 switch off sandy's computer 1st.......give me 1 more minute 2 blog......

hungry......always seem 2 b hungry in office.....no wonder i gained 2kg ever since i started on my new job......never exercise & i keep piling on e food.....shoot.....

2 more minutes.....

quick quick quick......

1 more minute 2 packing up.....

6 more minutes till i leave.....

i know wat i can do in tis last few minutes.....check all my email accs.....

ok start packing.....

.......

i'm packing up at 1255 exactly.....counting down e second.....

time seem 2 pass so slow....

30minutes more 2 go.....every min seem like n hr......hurry up pls!!!!!

working on sat....

working on sat again....super boring & i tink it's totally unproductive!!!! pple come in, walked ard a bit, trying 2 get e motor started....make a cup o tea/coffee.....checked emails....go thro' wat was done 4 e past wk....it's past 11....2 more hrs 2 go......print a few things here & there, make another drink.....go toilet powder up, surf web...1pm offwork.....how productive can a sat b???

anywayz, went rockclimbing ytd!!! fun & i didn't strain myself 2 much, not aching & my neck's well again!!! didn't sleep well on thu, so woke up ytd with a stiff neck, cldn't turn 2 my rite, & had problems looking up, but after ytd's rockclimbing my neck went bk 2 normal again!!!! & i didn't have 2 many bruises fr e climbs.....i didn't do a lot o climbs ytd...only 5 climbs & they were easy.....but esther taught me a rather nice posture!!!! i'm gg 2 attempt 2 do sides next time.....& bouldering....so hard!!!!! victor taught us tt but my butt was 2 gravitational attracted 2 e mattress 2 even move.....thk u victor & esther 4 showing me so much abt rockclimbing!!! feel like climbing again.....

esther suggested tt we do it regularly as part o draggos....i tink shld b a lot o fun!!!! have 2 co-ordinate...now i tink have 2 concentrate on e upcoming river regatta race in nov.....only 1 more mth....tt means 4 more trainings only.....shoot.....i tink i'll need 2 do more arch ups, push-ups & crunches......gg 2 dig out my dumbbells 2.....tone up tt biceps & bk.....

ok enough o blogging...got 2 get bk 2 work...c how productive i've been so far!!!!

2046....

caught e premiere o 2046, courtesy o snow....was really tired after a whole day's work & was really struggling 2 keep myself awake after more than 1hr thro e show....i did have quite a bit o laughs here & there but i was in my screw-loose state o mind anyway.....there was quite a fair bit o mention o s'pore but absolutely no flavor o s'pore.....

abt e androids......2 stoned now 2 give an analysis o e show....been staring at e computer e whole morning....looking 4 journal articles.....

gg 4 lunch 1st....dun 1 2 tire my eyes anymore.....& my brain 2......not much brain cells left.....

feeling bad....

i felt really bad after complaining abt my colleague 2 jan & snow....who m i 2 judge her & her work? i know nuts abt event planning....& she has been a very nice person 2 me all these while!!!! i felt really really bad.....mayb i got a little jealous knowing tt she got into e job cos o some connections.....overall e event still went pretty well! at least every1 got 2 watch e drama.....

i really felt guilty....i'm sorry!!!!

where is it???

u said u posted it but i dun c it.....can u b more explicit???? i'm pretty dumb pls pardon me....

shld i react or m i over-reacting?

r ur words directed at me? u said i was over-sensitive. so i decided 2 4get abt everything. but when i dun react, u hinted tt i was avoiding.....i know i'm very insensitive most o e time so m i supposed 2 b more sensitive or continue 2 b myself?

working on sat at scs...

now in scs office.....have 2 work on alt sats.....sianzzzz....only 2 pple in office 2day, me & another colleague who came in 1 mth earlier than me.....super boring 2day....actually not in mood 2 work at all....juz had thosai...not very nice but smells really gd though.....

anyway, my new job here really sounds challenging.....i'm involved in research wif regards 2 child abuse & neglect, & my pri research wld b emotional & social well-being o children......i'm doing a lot o reading in e past wk tt i started work.....2 much reading....& there r a lot o formalities tt i need 2 follow......a lot o papaer work.....i know it's necessary but really troublesome......

got 2 know o n incident tt happened on my 3rd day o work......smething which i doubt i'm supposed discussed.....it's actually abt data, esp data which throws our c'try, e so called newly developed nation, into a bad light......1 researcher had data abt sexual abuse in s'pore & she was due 2 present e paper in an international conference but was called bk at e last min 2 sign a letter tt she's not supposed 2 say anything abt her data.....she's not a researcher in scs so scs cld not force her 2 present, even though scs paid 4 all her expenses 2 e international conference....& she got research grants fr scs.....it was really a last min thing cos she was due 2 fly on sat, we got e call fr her at 5.25pm (5mins b4 we knock off) on fri......i dun c e rationale o tis.....if we've data tt shows tt smething is happening, but it displays our c'try in a bad light, we've 2 sweep e data under e carpet??? every1 in my departmt & my boss was so angry & disappointed....& e nagging qn in every1's minds was do we always have 2 keep track o our research so we only present e gd side o everything??? my boss said we'll need 2 bring up e topic in e next meeting.....but she is certain tt as gd researchers, wat we need 2 do is 2 do a gd research, no matter wat e result might b....

another lesson i learn here is tt in work, we need 2 b very diplomatic.....we need 2 always powder up everything tt we say......e truth can only b uncovered by pple who happen 2 have gd make-up remover......

busy....

long long time never blog.....so busy.....new job at scs, & my tkd grading coming soon, so went 4 practise on every mon, wed & fri......i pulled my rite hamstring ytd....not very serious but i'm rather apprehensive....in my ntu office now actually...dl-ing e pow wow video into dvd....i tink i'll most prob have 2 stay till 10 2 finish everything.....dun tink i'll have any other times 2 do & HY needs it tis wk 2 claim all e money fr NYC....

i'm listening 2 perfect10 rite now....snow helped me burned a few cds & he 1ed 2 know if i 1ed all his other albums 2.....so i told him i actually prefer listening 2 e radio much more cos o e un-predictablity...u never know when u'll hear a song tt u love....or a song tt reminds u o so much past....i'll b so happy if i hear a song i love play on e radio.....


so bored & tired...i dunno how long i'm gg 2 stay here.....stupid me....my computer does not have dvd writer & i spent e last hr or more wasting my time....shit!!!


still stuck here in ntu.....i shld seriously go tak eup some IT classes...i'm totally IT ignorant....

shit...i'm cracking my brain 2 do something abt e video.....wat shld i do......

last day in ntu.....

2day's gg 2 b my last official day in ntu....tmr starting at s'pore children's society....dun feel excited or anything.....i still haven packed my office here.....i'll have 2 come bk every sat 2 clear e things....


i'm kind o scared now cos i'm gg 2 e chinese sinseh again.....e last time i went, i really cried....2 pain oredi.....feel so stupid & so pathetic....i was sick last fri....had a sore throat again & my whole body was aching....e kind o ache which u get when u r abt 2 fall sick......i was feeling so miserable but i still went 2 e sinseh cos i dun 1 2 drag my knee prob....i really cried.....i try 2 control but e tears juz flowed....thankfully i had waterproof mascara on else definitely look like panda....


a lot o things happened during e weekend....had e pow wow event on sat then dragonboating on sun where a few x-rowers came....then my nephew's 1st mth celebration.....

have tis charity event on tis coming sat.....i tink shld b along s'pore river.....but i'm also not sure cos there's no instructions at all...

haizzzz...sometimes i really hate it.....always having 2 get instructions fr other pple.....i dunno if i'm juz 2 impatient.....but i really cannot std it when pple keep delaying things....then i need 2 rush all e things like mad....hate it when i can't control things.....i'm not some control freak but at least dun leave me hanging in e air.....

anyways, if any o u free on sat, mayb can come down 2 s'pore river 2 support e event?

so painful!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wah lau, ytd went 2 e chinese sinseh 2 treat my knee.....super painful man!!!!!!!!!!! i almost cried!!!!! ytd was e 2nd time i went....e 1st time, last fri, as i was sitting outside e room, i cld hear e person inside screaming in pain....i was so terrified!!!! when it was my turn, i was so scared!!!!! but thankfully not 2 painfully, but still rather pain......e most scary part was when she twisted my knee here & there & there was a very lot cracking sound!!!! she said my bone was a little out o place....& there was a little inflammation.....cld bend my left knee beta after e treatment....then e sinseh asked me 2 go back ytd 2 have a follow-up......so i went loh cos haven really recovered.....wah lau......so painfully man....undescribable pain!!!!! she said e bone still not in rite place, & there was more inflammation inside, so used tis stick thing & started hitting e sides o e knee where she said it was inflamed.....wah lau super horrible looking bruise developed & i tell u 1 really 1 2 cry!!!! i keep telling myself tt it will b over soon but e hitting didn't cess......finally stopped then she started 2 do all e twisting & stuff!!!! so pain!!!!! finally end.....then when i went 2 get my medicine, she told me i'll hurt4 another 2 days!!!!! i was oredi hurting more then enough, 2 more days??????how 2 survive????? thank goodness, e pain was ok, it's juz a very frustrating numbing feeling on e bruises, like u r being attavhed 2 some electric devise, & it keeps buzzing on & off......a bit painful sometimes but other than tt still ok.....juz very ugly bruise & it hurts whenu rub it.....haizzzz i shld have been more careful when i did all my exercises....most prob cos i didn't do warm ups properly.....i didn't 1 e pain 2 continue so went 2 e sinseh.....e doc i went 2 at ntu, say there's nothing i can do abt it???????? stupid doc!!!!

anyway, i'm so bored at e sas...no ppts 4 e past 2 days....doing data entry so boring!!!!! i'm 2 lazy 2 go out manually 2 invite e ppts i tink i'll juz target 4 another 10 more 4 e next 3 days then i'll pack up & go....hopefully there'll b some......haizzz......

anyway sign lang test 2day....didn't really study tt well.....really tired......haven have lunch yet....actually i did, i had m&ms.....tt's wat i had lunch 4 most parts o e day when i'm at sas...... i tink i'll grab a bit here at causeway pt b4 i go 4 my sign lang.....

irritating pain in my knee............

special friendship.....

i was on my way 2 go 2 e chinese sinseh ytd (didn't make it in time though...) after i read e blog by snow & jancy on our intellect sparring on sat, & a lot o tots came 2 my mind....

it's a really special friendship among e 3 o us.....we got 2 know 1 another at gartner advisory last yr....i juz graduated then, so was jancy, snow i tink juz finished his job at cpf(???); & we all coincidentally got e part-time job at gartner.....my 1st impression o snow wasn't much....didn't tink he was much o a person, i.e. shallow.....jancy, friendly but looked kind o stern....we were sitted beside each other in a row during e job, jancy rite inside, snow then me.......there were many other friend i made at e job, jeri; allie; karen; LWK; jac; val; etc etc.....i got a long pretty well wif every1 there, & after i found e job at ntu, we dun really get 2 get in touch.....however, i dunno how but me & jancy always get a kick out o putting down snow.....all e tongue lashing.....intellectual debate.....snow's not as shallow as i tot initially!!!!

it's strange tt i can talk abt so many stuff wif these 2 persons who i've only known 4 barely a yr!!!! it's amazing e synergy tt transients among e 3 o us.....snow dun get offended by us putting him down, jancy has her own priciples & tots, but always willing 2 hear my tots.....i really had a gd time on sat, although i was sick.....i cld 've stayed longer, not 4 e fact tt it was late & i was really beated.....we shld do it again.....

another grp which i had tis amazing friendship wif is my jc friends....there used 2 b 8 o us, but now it's always juz 4 or 5 o us.....it's a even more "nan de" 4 tis friendship......we dun quarrel although we may have different opinions....i dun know how 2 describe e grp but i really appreciate every1 o them & they indeed enriched my life a lot more!!!! but now, every1's working & every1's schedule is so different tt we've not really met up as a grp & had a chat...really miss all those days in jc, uni, when we had talks/gossips.....everytime we talked, i always do a lot o reflection & it makes me get in touch wif my inner self......

now i hardly even have e time or energy 2 tink abt anything.....wat a pity......i really hope tt someday, this grp o 8 cld get 2gether & have a wonderful time.....i'll try 2 arrange it!!!! hope ling is doing fine now.....wonder how she is.....haven contacted her 4 very long......

i'm very tired & very cold in here.....i tink i've written enough o an essay 4 2day......

3 cheers 2 friendship!!!! hip hip hurray!!! hip hip hurray!!!! hip hip HURRAY!!!!!

how stupid can i get????

So very stupid o me.....i came back 2 office 2day, intending 2 check email cos i finish e sessions early at SAS. when i got 2 my office, then i remember tt i took my keyboard 2 SAS 4 e expts....shit...... so i'm here at e free access labs, checking mails & blogging....actually ytd managed 2 check mail 2...was at e woodlands lib, had 2 pay 2 use e internet....very cheap though, $1 4 approx 30mins.....was actually writing an entry 4 my blog when e screen juz went off cos there was no value left.....shit......

anyway, kind o boring collecting data at SAS.....although e pple there r really nice, esp e high sch principal, Mr Chmelik!!! thank you sir!!!! he was always looking out 4 me, asking me if i needed help, if i had my lunch, if i had problems recruiting ppts, asking if e students r giving me problems...etc etc....Boni, his secretary, always had 2 bother her abt e key....& e many others who had helped me!!!! but really boring cos no internet, e computers dun have any games or anything, so i'm basically stuck wif playing minesweeper & e likes....kind o nostaglic though.....

hopefully everything wld proceed faster, more ppts pls....then i can end tis faster.....i'm so sick.....really sick.....flu, nose stuck, now much beta, ytd can only breath thro' my mouth....hope i get well so, else i can't train 4 my race.....

2day very stupid day.....got caught in e rain.....was walking 2 e mrt station & i was trying my best 2 brisk walk there but i didn't make it in time, & e rain juz poured!!!! i had umbrella but it was no use, i was totally drenched, so i u-turned back home 2 get changed out.....getting sicker & sicker....haven studied 4 my sign lang test on e coming tue.....so tired & sick....

anyway, my usu complaining.....i'm gg 2 write another blog entry abt a very special friendship....

wldn't b blogging 4 sometime....

i wldn't b able 2 blog 4 some time cos my computer's down at home & i wldn't b in my office 4 e next 2 wks....i'm gg 2 miss blogging....

late nite....

haizzz....m in my office again.....tired....gg 2 do some blogging b4 i go off...last fri also stayed till so late....had 2 finish up everything so tt everything will run smoothly 4 e study at SAS....1 very much 2 blog abt sat's intellect battle wif snow & jancy, but i'll totally tired & not feeling 2 well....it's been a long long time since i've fallen ill.....but dun know y, but now i m....had a bad sore throat last fri, but continued wif my work till late, then woke up e next morning 2 go 4 cardio-mix, then i went swimming 2 train up 4 a race tt i promised i wld take part in....but i didn't do many laps....then as usu i accompanied my niece 2 her music class, then went 2 my sis' place, she gave birth 2 a baby boy, Ambrose, last last wed, 18/8.....then after tt went 2 meet snow & jancy....had a very gd time especially tongue-lashing at snow.....(snow i guess after a few more sessions o these wif me & jancy, u'll b a martial arts exponent!!! iron-ear kungfu!!!! haahaaa...) had a rather late nite, & e next morn, 1ed 2 go 2 east coast 2 cheer e dragonboat pple on 4 their osim triathlon but wasn't feeling 2 well....so rested e whole o sun & had tonnes o water....sore throat got better but now still having a cough & stuffy nose.....

had almost a whole packet o potato chips cos tt's e only food i had in my office.....i hope my sore throat dun come back......i tink i shld go...else 2 late, i still have tonnes o things 2 get ready....& tmr early session at SAS....i shld rest else if i fall sick, there'll b no1 2 run e study.... btw my boss is headed back 2 e usa tmr....wldn't b c-ing her 4 a whole yr.....hopefully can get all my things done properly & everything settled....dun 1 2 leave a mess 4 her....i beta go, my headache's coming back.....

micromouse vs william hung vs SJI boys.....

check out e link at e previous post on micromouse, there is a link at e site called SJI dancers, really funny footage!!!! there r 4 SJI boys doing "she bangs" & also 2 micromouse doing tt!!!! really funny!!!! which grp do u tink does it better????

micromouse.....

when i borrow e firewire cables fr e CED 4 my video, met tis guy, andrew, tot he looked very familiar but didn't remember at tt moment who he was....then after some searching thro' my limited braincells.....recall tt he was in e same micromouse competition as i, when i was still in secondary school, almost 10 yrs ago..... anywayzz, gotta start my next session soon. take a look at e following link as 2 wat a micromouse is, & e video 4 tis yr's micromouse competition.....

http://www.ced.ntu.edu.sg/staff/andrew

stupid ppts...

hate those ppts who dun show up!!!!! waste o my time & effort....currently running a study which needs 2 b done in grps o 4 or at least 3 but e stupid ppts always dun turn up....then i'll have 2 cancel e whole session....theni'll need 2 do more sessions...but 2day is e last day....i'll b starting another project in SAS (Singapore American School) hopefully.....& i'll b leaving my current job soon...i dun 1 2 've 2 do so much tidying-up....i 1 2 at least have a short break b4 i start my new job at SCS (Sinagpore Children's Society).... now i really doubt if i'll b able 2 take a breather....shit.....

stupid stupid stupid stupid........

finally got e cable fr e ced, & it worked!!!! was so happy!!!! so in my office rite now....but another stupid thing.....e computer next door where i had e program 4 dl-ing e video, has all e ports 4 e cable but dun have cd-writer, so i can't dl e video into cd.....so i 1ed 2 use my own pc in my office, but tis computer dun have e port 4 e cable.....has e cd-writere but no port.....stupid stupid stupid......any IT experts out there who can help me???? stupid stupid stupid......stupid 2 infinity......

fyp....stupid day.....

i'm helping e fyp pple again.....not much help though...i guess i'm juz e finance minister 4 them....

bad day 2day.....started 2 rain when i was juz out o e house on way 2 work....then i miss a bus but thank gdness it didn't take long 4 e next 2 come.....i was supposed 2 go change money but i left e money in my office e previous day, so 1ed 2 go draw $$$ but e machine was under maintainence.....shoot.....so i had 2 walk all e walk back 2 my office then go draw $$$ fr e machine in canteen b.....e key 2 1 o e rooms was wif another fyp grp, i tot dr ng wld put e key in my mailbox but cldn't find it....then had 2 go 2 dr ng's room 2 ask 4 e keys, then found out tt e fyp grp had e key...called thembut no1 answered (they had class).....finally when i tried again, 1 o them picked up & it was her break time, so she rushed over 2 pass me e key....i had 20mins 2 get fr my office 2 e ocbc bank.....when i got there, there was a queue....shoot.....& they were really slow...(mayb i was juz 2 anxious...)....4 e 1st session thank gdness i made it in time.....but again those stupid ppts didn't bother 2 turn up....tt means i've 2 schedule more sessions 2 meet my target......shoot.....

borrowed e cable fr CED, had 2 rush there & back 2 come help e fyp....hopefully e cable works.....else i really 1 2 slam myself in e wall....

juz found out tt 4 e Singapore American School, they 1 us 2 ggo down 2 collect e data....sianzzz man.....my boss was telling me 2 bring 2 laptops.....wah...i'm gg 2 develop really big biceps by e end o all these data collection.....& it's gg 2 take 4ever 2 collect 60....each ppt take ard 1hr 2 finish...tt means each day i can run at most 10ppts....need at least 6 days 2 complete....sianzzz....if conduct in ntu, can use 4 computers at any 1 time...tt will b twice as fast!!! but i juz found out fr e website tt they finish class at 3.....tt means i'll take even longer 2 collect e data.....i was hoping & praying tt i dun have 2 end my work on e 14th, e day b4 i start on my new job at scs.....looks like i dun have any breaks......worse, sept 11th have this pow wow event.....18th have a charity event 4 viraya......everything all packed 2gather....shoot......

wah lau tis batch o ppts very onz leh....more than 20mins oredi they still doing e items....they r solving some problems & e more they answer correctly e greater chance 2 earn additional $$$$......1 o e sessions, e ppt took less than 10mins & then she stopped.....wah lau still no 1 give up...30mins oredi leh.....pls dun work so long leh...i need 2 go back leh.......pls pls pls.....

ok, i'm preparing myself 4 e 40mins, then can ask them 2 stop, give them 1 last qnnaire then fill up form get $$$ then they can go!!!! hurry hurry!!!!!

i m green??????

Green You are a very calm and contemplative person. Others are drawn to your peaceful, nurturing nature. Find out your color at Quiz Me!

he was laughing but i was crying.....

tt's e 2nd time tis yr tt i felt tis way......they jokingly told me abt their sufferings, brushing it away like it was nothing, but i was crying inside4 them.....e 1st time was when my bs2 instructor told us abt how it wld take him a long long time 2 b able 2 get 2 e position o manager due mostly to his deafness, he was saying it so jokingly, but inside my heart was raining....ytd, he told me abt his mysterious disease, he jokingly told me how he cldn't close his eyes when he sleep....i was pouring inside......

everytime i'm enjoying myself or really trying 2 make my life more fulfilling (or juz plain wasting my time complaining abt every single thing), i come 2 know o some1 who was suffering as i was enjoying.......how i hate myself.....

e other time, I met up wif my gang & had a game o win, lose or draw; I had so much fun!!! But when I got home, I found out tt my nephew was in hospital……last yr, a very close friend sort o vanished fr planet earth…..i didn’t bother calling her or anything, I was busy trying 2 finish my thesis & looking 4 a job, then I found out she was in depression & doing all sorts o self-hurt…..

I know I’m very blessed & I’m really fortunate 4 e many things in my life…..i’m selfish & I dun 1 any1 I know 2 b suffering or anything…..i 1 everything in my life 2 b all smooth & beautiful……but life doesn’t work tt way…..

It takes really a lot o courage 2 b able 2 laugh off all e bad things tt happen 2 1self….i remember 2yrs ago, juz b4 CNY, I had a rash on e left side o my body……it really looked horrible!!!! I dun even know how 2 describe it…..it looked like a huge patch o birthmark in red….it was warm 2 e touch, it looked like some super gigantic mosquito bit on e left side o my body (probably e size o a A3 paper)….i was horrified!!!! I didn’t know wat was happening 2 myself…..no1 knew wat happened…I went 2 a GP, but e cream & medication was no help…..all e clinics were closed during e CNY…I was suffering, I cldn’t sleep cos I dun know wat was happening 2 myself…..i was tinking thro e things I touched, e things I ate, anything which cld give me a clue as 2 wat is happening…..nothing……then finally, I went 2 c a specialist (open 2 days after CNY)…..he really put my heart 2 rest!!!! He said it was nothing serious, but need 2 have a blood test 2 c wat is actually happening….he said tt it wasn’t a rash, he gave me a technical term (which I’ve clearly forgotten totally), & told me tt it was like having a bruise, my blood vessels had burst under e skin, so it looked like bruise but doesn’t hurt…..he kept re-assuring me (must b cos i had such a terror-stricken face) & tt really warmed my heart, & I remember tt was e day I finally slept……..e blood test slowed tt I had some viral infection which cause tt “rash” but how I got tt infection, e doc has no idea…..

i can imagine how he felt when he cldn’ taste anything…..when he cldn’t move his left face….but his experience is infinitely more dramatic than mine….he had a viral infection 2 but again e doc didn't know how it happened....there r 2 huge scars on both sides o his scalp where he had surgery....if he didn't go 4 surgery, he wld lose facial control o his left face totally....even if he went 4 e surgery there was no gurantee tt he'll recover....i cldn’t laugh off wat happened 2 me, how can he???? i juz can’t……..

how m i feeling now......

i dun know if i shld b happy or sad.....glad tt he called.....but really sad 2 know tt he's been thro' so much.......sort o glad tt e reason he was MIA 4 so long was not becos he was busy, it was cos o some much stuff happening......was really shocked when i saw him.....tot he had a stroke or something.....he had a viral infection in his 7th nerve or something like tt, thus half o his face is now motionless....he had a surgery & i guess e whole thing must have been rather dramatic, cos he said everything happened very fast......1st he cldn't taste anything, then he cldn't close his eyes, then half o his face cldn't moved......e worst period, he cldn't even close his eyes when he sleep.......i didn't really know how 2 react actually......i juz asked him wat happened, he told me wat i juz wrote.......then i started blabbling off abt wat i had been doing......saying how basically i was enjoying myself & complaining abt life when he was suffering......i feel so stupid........i really dun know wat i shld say or do......getting all confused rite now.....

m at e je lib rite now.....juz had my x-ray done, nothing else 2 do so i juz pop into tis super nice newly renovated lib 2 blog cos i really need 2 get my feelings into writing else i tink i might explode anytime......dun know how i'm feeling rite now......1ed 2 go chill at e pool but went 2 e chinese sinsei, & he told me 2 rest 4 a few days.......i'm gg 2 b a pig & not exercise or do anything tis wk...........

ok, i've another 13 mins 2 blog or surf e net 4 free at e lib.....after 30mins need 2 pay.....dun really mind paying cos it's juz 3cents per min & e connection is pretty fast.......but juz all e hassle cos i still need 2 top up e cash card & stuff but i seldom use e cash card, dun 1 2 waste money topping it up......i tink i'll juz go down 2 e cafe (yes, there's a cafe inside e lib) & read a book.....have HY's book called "gift from the sea", philosophical book......or i'll juz grab any booko later 2 read......

feeling really numb rite now......it is cos o e early morning or is it cos o e x-ray.........i tink i need 2 grab a coffee 2 calm my nerves & 2 warm myself up......

irresponsible.....

hate all those ppts who fail 2 turn up.....waste o my time & energy.....had 2 cancel another session 2day....gd in e sense tt i can have my lunch in peace but bad in tt i wasted time & energy in coordinating all e things, then i've 2 re-schedule....hopefully e session later will go well, then i'll need 2 do juz 1 more session on wed.....wed still have e fyp 1....not enough $$$, ask my boss 2 pass e $$$ 2 them directly, then i dun 've 2 bother changing e $$$$ 4 them.....

ytd went 2 my sis' place 2 look 4 e cable....she doesn't have it, tt means i've 2 borrow fr my boss.....ask her 2 help me borrow fr school....went 2 c e fireworks ytd....not as beautiful as e 1 i saw 2 weeks ago.....but in any case still charming in a sense.....

yeah!!!!tmr off day!!!! gg 2 sign my appt letter at scs, then 've 2 go 4 a medical.....tinking o gg 2 a chinese sinsei 2 have a look at my knees, but i tink it's only open till 12noon.....tt means i need 2 change my appt wif my insurance agent.....but i msg him he never reply......must b tinking wat a bother i m, keep changing time.....

1 2 go 4 a swim tmr cos haven exercise much last wk.....had a terrible stomach cramp on sat so didn't go 4 cardiomix......dun know wat happened....cramped 4 at least 2hrs.....then my mum was not home (she went 2 m'sia early in e morning), nobody else at home actually.....was contemplating gg 2 e doc but tot e cramp wld go away soon.....really bad cramp (not menstral cramp, e cramp was near e ribs.....) cldn't move my body cos every movement hurted.....till now still dun know wat happened.....must b cos o my bad eating habits.....

then sun no dragonboat, so last wk really no exercise....shld i go 4 kickboxing 2day......e instructor still owe me 1 lesson, so she say i can go anytime.....didn't bring my stuff 2day leh....c wat time i finish 2day, if early then i can go home change then go 4 e kb......tmr can go delta swimming then meet insurance agent 4 late tea/early dinner, else i can juz relax & read a book at any o e coffee joints.....then go 4 sign lang.....sms my insurance agent again.....wat happened 2 him so long never reply......haizzzz......

stupid 2....

finish watching e videos...gg 2 my sis' place 2 find e cable....hopefully they r at home...else i'll make another wasted trip again.....so stupid o me........

stupid.......

guess where i m rite now......i'm in my office on a sunday......i'm trying 2 do e video thing but everything juz doesn't cooperate wif me!!!!!!!!!! 1st, i cldn't get into my office cos need a pin, but my boss dun know e pin either....tot i made as wasted trip...but thank goodness, my boss called e security so they unlocked e door 4 me.....but i dun know how 2 use e pinnacle studio 8...i tink i need another cable.....& i didn't get e cd-rom fr my sis 4 tis other program, so i went on e web 2 search, & i did find e program but it was 4 capturing stills only.....i'm gg 2 explode soon!!!! juz sms my sis if she has another cable....hopefully she has......i'm watching e video now, very funny, brought back all e memories o e trip!!!!! it's barely 1 week & i miss e place......will concentrate on watching e video write more later....

bo liao 3...

guess wat.....yes, i'm helping the fyp grp again....really tiring day 2day.....3 sessions o my own expts then had 2 rush down 2 e IT labs 2 help e fyp...had 2 help them log-on cos they had 2 use e administrator's a/c, then my boss was not ard....had 2 run all e way here.....finished my session at 4.45 then rush over cos their session start at 5......haizzz...my calves r aching rite now......tired......haven had a chance 2 do e accounting 4 e tioman trip.....i'm in charge o finance 4 e trip....till now i haven settle e things....haizzzz......also haven convert e video into vcd form....will try 2 do it tmr......1ed 2 try it out 2day but my sis 4got 2 give me some cable thing....haizzz, wasted my effort in bring e camcorder here 2day....damned heavy......hopefully e session ends early then i can make it on time 4 my facial....my face is like e moon....lotsa craters oredi......long long time never do facial.......

i'll b signing e appt letter 4 my new job at SCS on tue, then have 2 go 4 e medical....so i decided 2 take e day off, then shun bian can go c e chinese doc at lavender 4 my knee...been giving me some problems lately....but when i went 2 e doc in ntu, he said it was juz e ligament problem, nothing 2 worry abt & there's nothing i can do.....but i still dun feel comforted....will b having lunch wif my insurance agent.....long long time never hear fr him.....another free meal.....mean o me but......tt's part o his job mah.... i tink i'll go catch a movie or something after lunch...dun know wat 2 do...dun 1 2 go home cos having sign lang on tue......wat shld i do.......

yes, i signed up 4 e intermediate class...didn't 1 2 do it in e 1st place cos i tink i really suck at it....i still dun know y i signed up 4 it.....mayb it has bec a routine 4 me somehow......if i dun go 4 sign lang...then i dun know wat i shld do on tues.....btw, jarn may a very gd instructor 2!!! she was my instructor 4 1 lesson when i was in BS1, n i tot tt i dun like her style o teaching then cos i can hardly catch wat she said, but now at IS1, i can catch her better, & i really enjoyed my 1st lesson!!!!

wed's tkd lesson very fun, had a sort o pte lesson, cos all e white belts didn't turn up, & e rest were all blue belts & higher.....got 2 practise my coordinations & i tink i'm slightly better at it rite now (i really hope so...).....then had a really pte/exclusive lesson by frank, taught me something new, but i 4got wat it's called....really fun, but e ever stupid & clumsy me, fell over!!! frank was so stunned but i was all laughing cos i was so stupid!!!!hahaha....tinking abt it now, makes me laugh overall again....hahaha.......my stiff calves must b cos o e tkd lesson....had 2 do rope-skipping & e new move also required e calves.....then ytd's pilates, i didn't really use calves so haven stretched it.....2day run here run there....calves really aching.....actually i'm very sleepy.....& i dun know wat i'm typing now.......juz typing away cos e session dun seem 2 b ending anytime soon........pls god, pls ask these ppts 2 end e session soon!!!!! i really 1 2 go 4 my facial!!!! pls pls pls!!!!!really sleepy....dun know y so sleepy........

juan asked me 2 go 2 CHC 2nite again...they r having some carnival or something but i really m not very interested......dun 1 2 talk abt religion rite now.....i tink i've have my religious talk wif snow & jancy on e 28th!!!! btw, i haven asked e rest abt 28th.....i dun know who i shld ask......jeri???shit......i dun know wat time they start e session supposed 2 give out e qnnaire after 35 mins.... ok she's back, not 35 mins yet.....anyway shld b ending soon!!! hurry up every1!!!!

bo liao 2.....

stupid fyp pple.....waste my time & energy......helping e fyp pple rite now.....how stupid can they get???? they didn't even prepare e money 4 e project!!!!! they expect me 2 know everything & do everything 4 them!!!!!! they shld have gotten e money fr my boss but they apparently didn't bother!!!! last fri also e same!!!!! but at e very least my boss told me 2 prepare earlier.....after they've started e session 2day then they tell me tt they only have e amt left over fr last fri.......i've expts in e morning tmr, now all e money i've prepared 4 my expt all used 4e fyp.....'ve 2 get up early 2 go change e money 4 my own expt......even have 2 help e fyp grp change e money.......stupid!!!!!! last semester's fyp grps were not as blur as tis grp!!!!!

stupid shit man.........i'm so pissed!!!! keep doing all these bo liao things!!!!! have 2 help my boss' friend do coding.....& after i finished coding them, tt stupid person (whose mouth really smells like shit, i've 2 hold my breadth....) said there was something wrong then i've 2 recode...duh......


've 2 help another prof also, cos using her rooms 2 run expts, then had 2 coordinate wif tt prof's fyp grp & her student assistant on using e rooms.....then tt prof went overseas 4 some conference & i had 2 babysit them 2....stupid!!!!! had 2 help them photocopy e surveys cos they can't go into e staff photocopying room......& e most stupid thing is tt they called me, but i was busy running expts so hung up my phone 2 prevent any disturbance, so they left over 5 messages in my mailbox..... n u know wat????? all these messages r o them speaking 2 1 another.....stupid shit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

last sem, my boss had 3 fyp grps......1 grp was super independent, didn't need my help at all. 1 needed some1 2 help wif e video (which was totally understandable), e last grp(who did a homosexual topic) was also like e current grp.....totally blur & irresponsible!!!!! then had 2 help another prof's fyp grp also....but they were much better cos i only need 2 help them upload an online survey, e rest they did it themselves. e homosexual fyp grp by my boss, i had 2 do almost everything 4 them!!!! & i had 2 even beg them 2 come down 2 my office 2 c if e things r correct!!!! after i told 2 out o e 3 o them on how 2 run e expt, they didn't even bother 2 teach e 3rd person how 2 run it.....very stupid grp.......i even had 2 do some research 4 them.....wat e fuck......

i hope tis fyp grp have more brains & is more responsible, else i'm gg 2 vomit blood.......was in such a gd mood after coming back fr e tioman trip now all spoilt by these super bo liao things.....haizzzzzzzzzzz...............

bo liao....

cancelled a session juz now cos there wasn't enough ppts...had a little time 2 rest & clear up the stuff....now overseeing the fyp...they've 1 extra ppt & she came late so she had 2 do another study instead...& i'm charged wif looking after her...so here i m bogging away while she's doing e survey....bored....have 2 remember 2 go change money later on....2 other friends o haiyen r joining us 4 e tioman trip...8 pple altogether...hopefully it'll b fun!!!


all o us r supposed 2 do/bring a surprise 4 e trip. i didn't know wat 2 do/bring so i mass-sms my friends asking them wat thing wld most surprise them when done/worn/etc by me.....guess wat, every1 asked me 2 wear a bikini there....or else they ask me 2 wear something feminine....m i tt un-feminine? a lot o them tot i was doing a survey again.....hahaha...i guess i'm shan ju bu li pen hang (tt means i also talk abt something related 2 wat i do, in tis case, doing surveys & expts....). but great opportunity 2 get pple's opinions on me.....1 o my friend even say if i were 2 get married she'll b very very surprised!! so i'm very certain tt pple always c me as some1 who's not even gg 2 get married.....

anywayz, i really excited abt e trip & totally tired 2....need 2 prepare everything by 2nite....& 1 stupid thing, i was supposed 2 b in charge o e video-cam, my sis' bf was holding on 2 it & when he brought it back, he 4got 2 bring e charger....i've 2 trouble swing & get it fr her place tmr.....haizzzz....tired....hopefully e fyp thing finish soon, then i can go back earlier, change e money cos i'm in charge o finance 4 e tioman trip (big mistake!!!! i totally suck at accounting!!!!)

anywayz, i'm waiting 4 e ppt 2 finish e survey...then i can get back 2 doing e coding 4 roy..supposed 2 get it done by 2day, i've finished but i'm gg thro' it again cos i tink a lot o e coding is pretty judgemental.....

busy....& tired...

after more than a mth o doing nothing, now back 2 conducting more expts....been standing/walking 4 e most part o 2day....my legs r gg 2 give way soon....another session 2 go 4 2day....hopefully ends well....

ytd equally busy...prepared things 4 e expt 4 2day, then had 2 supervise e fyp grp cos they were doing a pilot test o their expt ytd.....the fyp thing dragged 4 quite some time, then i had 2 do more last minute checking b4 i went 4 my tkd....

ytd's tkd, i feel so stupid! my coordination really sucks big time....i shld practise more at home....else i tink i'll end up wif my arms all twisted 2gather someday....

tmr's gg 2 b busy as well, other then e expts tt i'm conducting, i'll need 2 supervise e fyp, they r doing their expt formally 4 e 1st time tmr....shld b ok.....then got 2 go home & pack 4 e trip 2 tioman!!!! i can hardly wait.......but a pity, initially there was supposed 2 b 8 o us gg, but adrian said he was 2 poor, so didn't 1 2 go...then james came down wif appendicitis....left wif 6 o us.....but shld b equally fun!!! really really looking fwd!!!!

anyway, gg 2 prepare 4 e next session then i can relax 4 a short while....

pissed off......

i'm a littel pissed at tis person....4 e expts tt i conduct, i recruit participants (ppt) via a website called external ERSS under ntu. tis person, he registered himself as a ppt, & he has now graduated but emails r still sent 2 him cos e website somehow does not have a unsubscribing function....i've reflected tis 2 e administrator & an unsubscribing function has thus been put. however there still seem 2 b some problems wif e unsubscribing fn & tis person (i shall hencefore address him as M) wrote n email 2 complain. i'll place all e emails (may not b all cos i may 've deleted some o them) 2 let u all c....

Mail 1 after M receive notification tt there is n upcoming expt tt ppts can sign up 4...

Hi!

I would like to unsubscribe from this notification of experiments as I am graduating this semester and would probably not be participating in any experiments in the near future. Please do the necessary. Thanks.

M


My reply:

Dear M,

I'm afraid you'll have to go to the external ERSS website to delete your details. I can't delete your info for you. Hope you understand! The external erss website is as follows: http://XXXXXXXXXXXXX

Regards,
A

(Mail 2) His reply:

Hi A!

Thanks for the prompt reply. I tried to de-register myself but I can't because I can't remember my username and there is only the function to retrieve your password but not your username (which makes it redundant if I can't remember my username). Therefore, i require manual assistance to remove myself from the system.
Perhaps it would be better if the password retrieval prompts you for the email address rather than the username. Should someone wish to request for a deregistration due to repeated email, he would definitely remember his email rather than an obscure username that he used eons ago at his wish and fancy. My apologies for being the 1st culprit; )
Thanks once again for the prompt reply and seeking your assistance in this matter,

M


My reply:

Dear M,

I'll need to ask the administrator about this matter. Will get back to you asap.

Regards,
A


My email to the administrator:

Dear E,

Could you also help to delete the following student from the External ERSS?
Sxx Kxx Mxx Mxxxxx [XXXXXXX@hotmail.com]

Thank you!

Best of Regards,
A


Administrator's reply:

Hi A,

As for deleting, you need to ask the student to delete himself, which he is able to do it using the system.

Regards,
E


Mail 3 after M receive another notification tt there is n another upcoming expt tt ppts can sign up 4...

Hi!

I've graduated. Could you take me out of the mailing list? I tried to de-register myself but am unable to do so. Thanks.

M


My reply:

I've tried emailing the administrator but guess it didn't help much....i'll try emailing her again.


(Mail 4) His reply:

I can't remember the username and password. Please do the necessary. Thanks


After quite a few ppts 1ing 2 unsubscribe fr e external ERSS, a fn was added to the website for unsubscribing....

Subject: External ERSS Announcement - How to unsubscribe ERSS

To: ALL

Dear registrant,

Thanks for your support and participation since you joined ERSS! Some of you have graduated and asked how to unsubscribe ERSS. You can do either of the following:
1) Click ''Remove me as participant'' on our homepage and then key in your username and password.
2) Send an email to: XXXXX@ntu.edu.sg and put down ''unsubscribe'' on the subject line.

Should you have difficulty in unsubscribing, please email us at XXXXX@ntu.edu.sg

Regards,
ERSS administrator


Mail 5 after M receive another notification tt there is n another upcoming expt tt ppts can sign up 4...

Hi!

I have tried desperately but in vain to unsubscribe from this mailing group for the past semester (A total of 4 attempts). I have since graduated but am still unable to unsubscribe. (Previously, the unsubscribe function at the website required certain details like Login name and password, both of which I do not have the information, and which I highlighted in my email requests to unsubscribe)

Recently, I received an email from your good office offering the invaluable opportunity to unsubscribe from this mailing group (The instructions were to email to NBSAppl@ntu.edu.sg with the title heading "Unsubscribe". Below is the email I sent). I seized the chance like there's no tomorrow. Yet I'm still receiving the relentless "External ERSS Announcement" headings in my mailbox.

I really do not forsee myself partaking in any experimental sessions in the near future and most definitely do not wise to see another dreaded email with the "External ERSS Announcement" title heading. For your information, my personal email account (which I feel has been utterly violated) is a hotmail account and can only sustain 2 meagre megabytes of space.

I understand that this might not be under your jurisdiction and I apologise that you have to bear the brunt of this BUT I do kindly request that somebody (either A or the anonymous NBSAppl) show some pity on my plight and undertake immediate corrective action to remedy my distress.

Thank you.

M

(i wasn't really pissed until i saw the comic strip tt he attached!!!)
http://www.ofoto.com/PhotoView.jsp?US=0&UV=793942919829_
209610505105&collid=266110505105&photoid=166110505105



My reply:

Dear M,

I would appreciate it greatly if you could email to NBSAppl@ntu.edu.sg regarding the problems you face. I understand that you've cc the email to the ERSS administrator too, and I hope that they can help too. However, there is nothing I can do. I've already reflected your problem to them hence there is the new unsubscribing function. However the technical details behind it is totally beyond my comprehension.

I hope you'll understand that I too do not wish to see the ever dreaded email headed "remove me from external ERSS". The meager capacity of your email account is another technical aspect which I cannot render any help too. And I totally sympathize with you at been violated by the mails. I sincerely hope that corrective measures will be taken to relieve you of the distress soon.

Have a wonderful day ahead.

Best of Regards,
A


(Mail 6) His reply:

Dear A,

To conclude the matter, a certain XXXX has promptly replied that I have been unsubscribed (I hope!). I truly appreciate you highlighting this problem to the administrator and taking whatever limited actions you can on your part despite this not being in your jurisdiction. Thanks for going the extra mile & much apologies if I have antagonize you in any way.

Best regards,
M


My reply:

Dear M,

Hopefully everything has been resolved. Have a pleasant day!

Regards,
A

thank you

THANK YOU to all 4 ur well-wishes 4 my new job!!!! i've yet 2 know e exact details 4 e job, i still need 2 complete my work here in ntu b4 i start on e new 1. will most prob start my new job in mid-sept....

religion...2

i'm gg 2 write abt christianity again....& i tink it's gg 2 sound rather offensive 2 many....but it's my opinion & i guess i'm entitled 2 it as much as every1 else is...


last fri went 2 juan's church again...she invited my gang cos there was a visiting rev fr new zealand or something, & he specialises in deliverance...so, as e ever curious me went....initially it was e usu singing & e announcements...then e rev went up. he started talking & then he said tt he cld feel things & tt he 1ed 2 get rid o e spirits in pple or something like tt....then he put out his hand in 1 direction & said tt there is some1 (amongst e at least 100 pple) who had nightmares & can't sleep at nite...duh duh duh!!!!! then he stretched out his arm in another direction & said there is some1 (again amongst at least 100 pple) who had a bad past relationship & can't let go...duh duh duh...duh 2 infinite!!!!!i cld do tt 2!!!! i cld juz stretch out my arm now & go 2 e canteen & say tt i sense some1 in there who had a family quarrel last nite!!!! duh duh duh.....he said something else everytime he turned a different way....then he asked e pple who felt wat he described 2 step out, o cos pple did stepped out....all o them ard 5 or 6 o them were standing in a line in front. then e rev started 2 mumble something, then placing his rite hand on e person's forehead, e other hand like some wu xia pian, did some shen gong & yun qi on e person's tummy/chest area, then e person juz collapsed....duh duh duh.....he did these 4 all e rest, & then 1 o e lady amongst them when she collapsed, started screaming & crying terribly....e rev say she was fighting e spirit or something like tt....looking at all these, i wasn't in awe, all i was tinking o was how dumb tis whole thing was....i was waiting 2 c more entertainment.... i tot e chinese taoist performance (whenever they had all these qing shen thing..)was infinitely more realistic & more entertaining....

after tt mini-performance, e rev started 2 share e gospel, & talked abt some things fr e bible...i was pretty tired tt day after a whole day o survey, i did pay attention but sometimes i juz difted off.....then he talked abt how he tot god betrayed him when his daughter got raped....i was tinking 2 myself y do all these pple who preach & stuff always have such traumatic experiences....mayb it's god's way o making them stronger & 2 let them experience things so tt they can better relate 2 others.....but everytime i hear all these sad stories, i feel sorry 4 them but i also discount their stories somewhat....

i know i'm a real sceptic....but i can't help it sometimes.....

after a long long talk, e rev again asked pple who felt they needed deliverance 2 come 2 e front so tt he can help them....lotsa lotsa o pple came fwd!!!! then e rev went round 2 do his shen gong.....(swing a pity u went off early, u miss e highlight o e nite!!!) i was pretty amused by e whole thing but i didn't laugh out loud la....i dun 1 2 b like in e movies, get mobbed by e thousands o christians there....i 1ed very much 2 go 2 e front 2 've a 1st hand feel o wat e rev was doing but i tot it was a rather big disrespect 2 juan who brought me there...or mayb sub-consciously i was afraid tt e rev might really have e power???? anywayz, after e whole thing, juan said i shld go 2 e front 4 me 2 experience....she even suggested tt i go again on sun since she''ll b there.... i actually contemplated on it but i was 2 damned lazy 2 wake up so early on sun morning....

after tis deliverance experience, i really gave christianity a much much bigger discount.....i dun know if it's cos o e church tt i went 2....a lot o fellow christians also denounce e city harvest church...mayb it's really cos o e chuch....anywayz, i believe in wat i 1 2 believe in, mayb 1 day i c more clearly regarding christianity....

snow & jancy, i wld love 2 have a religious discussion some day!!! snow e christian expert & jancy e buddhist & me e sceptic!!! interesting!!!! i can almost c e mental sparring gg on.....any1 else interested 2 join our mini-forum???? let's make a date 4 tis exciting event!!!!

btw, christiana, thank you 4 sharing but i still dun get e accepting jesus....