x'mas gift xchange 2005 in office...

x'mas gifts fr colics...

x'mas sledge...=)

resolution 4 2006...

e 1st thing tis morning tt i 1 2 do 4 2006 is 2 learn how 2 drive...i dunno y i suddenly feel e urge 2 1 2 learn how 2 drive...i've never 1ed 2 learn driving at all...not ever...but surprisingly, e 1st thing i tot o tis morning while i was in e showers was 2 learn 2 drive...mayb cos he's up in penang now, & i tot tt if i knew how 2 drive, it cld 've been so much easier 2 c him...hmmm...i shld really sign myself up 2 learn else i fan hui again... e 2nd thing tt i'm proud of is tt i finally took e effort 2 clear my cupboard ytd nite...& i took e effort 2 look @ all e banks...2 really save up 4 us...i hope e energy i've dun wither out 2 fast... i've decided 2 go 4 pilates again 2...=) juz signed up...starting tmr....

actually...

actually 2005 i did quite a lot o stuff even though i stopped many many things...i got my 1st double in tkd...i went on e longest cycling trip o my life...i made my 1st cheesecake...i toured fort canning...i went 4 my 1st aikido lesson (although i only went 4 it once...)...i was part o e organising committee 4 "row for a cause" (i was in charge o finance...although i suck at accounting...)...i played a role in WMD...my bro got married...i had fun @ flag day after yrs not having 2 do it...i had my share in e successful ISPCAN asian regional conference...esp proud o my pre-conference workshop...i had my 1st stay in Pan Pac...my 1st road trip 2 KL...my 1st biathlon...my 1st dive...my 1st nite dive...my 1st deep dive...my 1st encounter wif so many diff sea creatures...my 1st time visiting m'sia so many times in a yr...my 1st time really hating sme1 so much...e 1st time i cried in office...e many many times tt i've laughed...e many many time tt i cried...e many many times i got stepped on...e 1st time i got backstabbed....e 1st time i went 4 walk for the children...my 3rd dragonboat race...my 1st time climbing @ yishun safra...e 1st time i went 2 kent ridge park...e 1st time i ate @ mt faber...e 1st time i played cluedo...e 1st time i took so many pics 4 e entire yr...e 1st time i actually touched a puffer fish...e 1st time i touched a blue spotted sting ray...e 1st time i had so many bbqs & steamboats in a yr...e 1st time i got so many gifts throughout e yr, not juz @ x'mas or bday...e 1st time tt i realised tt i eat really v healthily...e 1st time i had so many heart attacks in m'sia...e many many restaurants tt i went 2 4 e 1st time...

so many things....i guessed i've learnt a lot...i've experienced a lot 2...

penang???

ur penang trip had been postponed 4 so long....fr late nov to now still have not gone up...i dunno if it's gd tt ur trip was postponed....at least i got 2 celebrate so many holidays & special days wif u....my bday, ur bday, x'mas & mayb new yr 2....

dun kp worrying abt me k? i'll b ok! i promise!

dun get 2 stressed out....dun neglect ur body!

jia u dear!

it's e end o e yr...

last wk e ed came down 2 have mtg wif us...an annual event...we usu start off wif e latest news (which o cos was abt nkf) den an "ice-breaking" session den on wat nx yr was gg 2 b....

tis yr, ice-breaking qn was wat was1 thing which u've learnt in tis yr and how it affect u...

i was quite caught cos i haven really tot abt it....tis yr i stopped a lot o my activities cos o a strained ligament...i didnt do much things...

when it was my turn 2 share, e 1st thing tt came 2 my mind was diving...tt was e 1 thing which i learnt tis yr...it brought me into another world, & it brought sme1 special into my life 2....

actually i 1ed 2 write much much more but now no mood 2 really blog...in office, only me, G & boss in...every1 else on leave....

no1 on msn also...all on leave except 4 nee, who also took 1/2 day....

bored....

gift xchange...

2005.12.26 Nee's place i gave puzzle to tcc, tcc gave XXX to nee, nee gave music box to chris, chris gave lip gloss to juan, juan gave soap & bookmark to me. swing gave earrings to zhen, zhen gave slippers to swing.

x'mas gift xchange...

1st yr at NYDC HV swing gave x'mas stocking to chris, chris gave photo frame & chocolate to tcc, tcc gave socks to zhen, zhen gave HP strip to juan, juan gave towel to me, me gave pens & holder to swing. nee & ling exchange (ling didnt turn up) 2nd yr at Esplanade swing gave XXX to zhen, zhen gave lipbalm to me, me gave sushi candy & photo frame to nee, nee gave earring & water bottle to juan, juan gave XXX to swing. chris & tcc exchange wrist rest. 3rd yr at swing's place, swing gave nail polish to me, me gave cushion to tcc, tcc gave earrings to juan, juan gave XXX to chris, chris gave XXX to nee, nee gave pants to zhen, zhen gave XXX to swing.

pls fill in e XXX for me.....

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY...

i hoped u had a great bday....i had 2 heart attacks during my stay in ur home...=) pleasant suprises....i'm so glad we talked so much....=) thk u dear....

DYM...TTM...

i dunno if it's cos o DYM.....'ve been tinking or rather trying v hard hard not 2 tink....i dunno....i dun 1 2 tink....rite or wrong....m i doing wat i 1 2 do....or juz 4 e sake o things....haizzz....i dunno....i feel so bad smetimes....i dunno y i'm so irritated....i dunno y....i dun understd....i dun even know how 2 put it into words....i dun....haizzz....

2 free i guess....i dunno wat i'm doing....i'm never tinking abt wat i'm doing....

do i even 1 2 tink????i dun tink so....haizzz....

desaru....it was a gd memory.....

i've been 1ing 2 ask....& i've ask b4....r u e same as me....doing & tinking e way tt shld b.....not e way tt it is????

settling down????not wat i'm tinking o....definitely not in ur agenda....dun pacify me....dun say all these things....pls dun....pls.....

m i acting???m i juz trying 2 b on equal grds???

dun continue juz becos o all e words.....dun continue juz becos u've started.....

mayb i'm juz waiting 4 u 2 throw in e towel 1st....mayb i juz dun 1 2 b e 1....mayb.....

i'm so lousy....

grieve...take ur time...

she broke down e moment she spoke...i was a bit taken aback by e sudden death o her friend...i tot she was oredi in UK wif her bf...happily ever after...but....i didnt know how 2 console her...i'm bad at it...i juz listened & gently comforted her wif a pat on e bk, letting her know tt i'm listening...

dun blame urself 4 not spending enough time...dun blame urself 4 not treasuring ur loved 1s when they r ard...

b comforted tt she followed her dreams...b comforted tt he was there 4 her...b comforted tt she had probably left her pains behind...

take time 2 grieve...take time 2 comfort urself....

i dunno how 2 comfort u...but i'm glad 2 b a listening ear...

stupid, tt's e word...

wah lau dunno if she's really tt stupid or juz trying 2 waste time....she shld know tt e completed evaluation forms r wif me!!!!!she saw me sorting them....she's now sorting thro' those which i've discarded cos not completed.....wah lau....stupid....

jigsaw..how many do we have?? 20??

didnt get 2 fly, but we'll do it 2gather smeday! cheer up!

不要紧。。。加油。。。

重读了她的BLOG。。。每次读都会令我很害怕。。。很害怕会发生在自己身上。。。承诺就那么轻浮，那么易破。。。 如果你必须上PENANG，不能陪我过生日，不要紧。。。回来才庆祝LOH。。。不要那么介意。。。不用特别买礼物。。。真的。。。 我知道你在MDC 很不开心。。。我现在很有空了，你可以COMPLAIN ALL U 1！！！ I‘LL B A LISTENING EAR & LEANING SHOULDER 4 U！！！=) 我不知道该怎么解决，只能听你说。。。很多事我都帮不了你。。。听又听不懂。。。SORRY！！！ DEAR，加油 K？ U KNOW U CAN DO IT！

不要一直躲起来。。。

不知道她到底发生了什么事。。。希望她好。。。你以前一直问/责怪自己。。。现在你却一直怪别人。。。一直认为你的家人应该为你着想。。。你有没有为他们想想呢？？？他们也会疲惫，他们也希望能帮你。。。不过你得让大家帮你。。。不要一直躲起来。。。

psc scholar??? my foot...

每个人都叫我不要为了她那种人生气。。。可是她真的不让我喷血她是不会罢休。。。每次对她发脾气，她的REACTION & RATIONALE 是我们蛮不讲理。。。她永远都不觉得是她的问题。。。发完脾气，她还是讲不通。。。有没有人能教教我应该怎么做才好？？？

开始时会觉得不应该对她那么大声，可是不对她大声点她不会听到你的。。。现在我会尽量不要看到她，不要回答她永远那么无聊的问题。。。MY ONLY REPLY：“L， IT’S UNDER U RITE？ PLS DO WATEVER U TINK IS RITE。。。”

THE NX DOOR COLIC STILL SO SMART ASK HER 4 ADVICE ON DOING ANALYSIS！！！I‘VE HAD A LOOK AT E ANALYSIS SHE HAD DONE。。。1 WORD 2 DESCRIBE， NO STANDARD。。。HER ANALYSIS IS FLAWED。。。E BEST ANALYSIS THAT SHE CAN DO IS JUZ DO PERCENTAGES。。。WHICH A SEC SCH STUDENT CAN EASILY HAVE DONE。。。NOT A PSC SCHOLAR DRAWING A SALARY OF AT LEAST 3K。。。

I STILL DUN UNDERSTD Y MY BOSS IS KEEPING HER？？？HAIZZZ。。。PLS GOD， PLS DUN LET ME SUFFER ANYMORE。。。PLS PLS JUZ GET HER OUT O MY LIFE！！！

好久好久没有BLOG了。。。好忙好忙。。。CONFERENCE终于FINISHED了。。。& IT WAS QUITE A SUCESS。。。现在什么都不想做。。。读了其他人的BLOG。。。有很多东西要丢。。。可是我真的很没有心情。。。策划了那么久的CONFERENCE终于圆满结束。。。是又开心又伤心。。。在CLOSING时，看那个POWERPOINT PRESENTATION看到哭。。。不知道怎么形容当时的心情。。。要START ON MY PRIMARY STUDY 了。。。有>1MTH NEVER TOUCH IT。。。OK JUZ FINISHED STREADING ALL E ROUGH PAPER。。。FEELS GOOD。。。STILL A LOT O THINGS 2 CLEAR。。。BUT ALL E BOXES STILL INSIDE E ROOM。。。I CANT MOVE THEM。。。UNDERNEATH A LOT O THINGS。。。

一年就这样过了。。。真的不知道做了些什么。。。

听到她的声音真的令我很反感。。。我只想“SAI”她两巴掌。。。自己的东西不做好还要假厉害帮别人。。。还帮倒忙。。。她的工作已经是最“ENG”，还害大家要帮她做她的事。。。真的看得很不过眼。。。她可以那么逍遥，明天的DEBRIEF，我一定要她吃不了兜着走。。。我不会让她那么轻松。。。

她今天一进办公室就好像很忙。。。她都没有东西要做。。。她真的好厉害“假假”。。。

我最讨厌她每次假惺惺，明明是她份内的工作她却变成是她在帮你。。。她也很厉害把她的责任推给旁人。。。每次她的工作她会叫别人帮她VET，DEN 出事她就说是谁谁VET的，叫她那么做的。。。如果有功劳她就自己领。。。

这次我不让她死到很难看我不会罢休。。。

ACTUALLY A LOT O THINGS 2 COMPLAIN。。。BUT I 1 2 SAY A WORD O THANKS 2 MY OTHER COLICS。。。& TO MY DEAR DEAR。。。I KNOW U R V TIRED ALSO BUT THK U 4 MAKING E EFFORT 2 ACC ME BK HOME。。。=)

bug flying....

e bug's flying ard in my office again...& i'm falling sick....argh....