ttm club revived...

i tot u said tt we shldnt ttm so much??? reading ur blogs...e 1 tot i have is tt u r ttming...

i dunno if i'm really tt fortunate...at least i tink i m la... or rather there can b many things tt i can choose 2 complain abt...but everytime i complain e words tt u said were tt we shld learn 2 take it or else change it...if tt is e advise u can give 2 others...y not use it 4 urself?

learning 2 b contented is not easy...but learning 2 appreciate things can start fr anywhere...if u r not happy...accept it or else change it...or juz complain abt it...things will resolve sooner or ltr...

ttm club members...things will turn out well...jia u...

Juvenile scorpionfish...

big bro...

i kpt tinking last wk if he cld 've avoided tt accident if certain things changed...

den i saw nee's blog on gg bk in time & changing things...i wldnt b who i m rite now if things had changed...

things happen 4 a reason...& smehow we've juz got 2 learn & appreciate wat we've now...

i wld miss him...a big bro...thk u...

i'm feeling much beta now...i tink i pretty much sorted out my thoughts & feelings...

i still feel sad tt he's gone...but like every1 says he's probably in a beta place rite now...

may u rest in peace...

he passsed away.. so sudden.. i dun even know how i felt when i rec e sms.. he's sme1 not unfamiliar.. but neither sme1 i'm v close wif... but i knew abt his family.. i rememb e words o encouragement.. i remembered him as a big bro 2 me.. i didnt attend his wake...partly cos i dunno any1 else...i only know him.. & also cos i know i wld not b able 2 hold bk tears... his funeral is 2day...

i had e urge 2 sms him...2 juz make sure tt all these were not dreams or juz sme mistakes...

he was part o my life during my 1st yr o work...

when he was not making any contacts i tot he was not doin his job & i had plans 2 change agent...den i found out tt he was actually down wif sme life-threatening illness during e time he went "missing"...

tis time...i haven even had e chance 2 tell him tt i've started on a new job...i rec news o his death on my 1st day o work...

tell me how i shld feel...

up close....

e chelidonura....



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e spotted hyselodoris, wif e zoom-in below...



obsolete chromodoris, wif a zoom-in shot...

features of magnificent..

tis is e magnificent chromodoris..notice e 1 below has retracted its gills..and e thing trailing is called the foot...

more common nudis..

these r e more common nudibranchs...however they r v diff...each 1 has their own unique color & pattern...

i tink tis is a variscose phyllidia...



these 3 are pustulose phyllidiella...





tis 1 look like e above..but also look like liz's phyllidiella...or mayb it's a baby pustulose phyllidiella..

jancy jancy

hey jan...

thks 4 e compliments 4 e pics...but my hm com cd reader sth wrong...alot o my pics in cds cant b read...when i get laptop fr hao nian den i'll try 2 send pics 2 u..;p

Nudis of AUR....

The most exciting pair of nudibranchs we saw...initially i tot it was such a big & long nudibranch!! haha..den HN pointed out tt it was actually 2...hahaha.. i read e bk, it says tt it's actually foreplay 4 nudibranchs..tailgating, b4 mating..=) tis pair o nudibranchs are called Tryon's Risbecia...



This is the magnificent chromodoris...quite a big fellow we've here...



this fellow here is also sth new...it's a lined nembrotha...



tis is much-desired flabellina...it's really v small..& perched rite on top a a rock/reef...



tis miniature thing, around 1.5-2cm long is a spotted hypselodoris..2 small, e macro feature in e camera cant take it so close-up...



obsolete chromodoris...i tink it's a baby..small little thing hiding under e reefs..



these 2 creatures r e most amazing things...they look really weird!! they r not actually nudibranchs...they r part o e family o optisbranch...they r sme sort o chelidonura...they're not featured in e nudibranch ID book tt HN has....

aur...

Back to Aur again..a different feeling...e place has bec more run-down...but still it was a haven for those wanting 2 escape from reality...

E sea was barren...a real pity...

but as always... E worst day diving is better den e best day working....

quite a reward in tis trip cos saw a lot o nudibranch...& there were 2 pairs 2gether..usu only singles...;p

& e camera-woman 4 e day was ME...haha...a lot o e pics were quite blur actually..haha...but e flabellina was a great shot...haha..lucky only la...haha...

my 2nd resignation tis yr....

i finally mademy decision....

$$$ is still more impt...

梦里能找到自己吧。。

为什么长大了烦恼会越来越多呢???懂得越多是不是烦恼就越多???很累了可是就是不想睡。。。头都麻痹了。。。看到大家都忙着很重要的事。。。我好像好浪费时间。。。

我有好多东西想讲。。。可是又不知要讲什么。。。终觉得自己会浪费人家的时间。。。我的时间好像一点价值都没有。。。要的只是别人的肯定。。。有那么难吗???有时真的好像自私一点。。。不要想那么多。。。对自己好一点。。。不要理会别人的看法。。。可是办不到。。。这就是自己。。。

终觉得自己被埋在深深的谎言里。。。一个自己编造出来的自己。。。到底自己跑去哪儿了。。。

觉得他应该会是个很不错的老板。。。可是我觉得我一定不会是个优秀的员工。。。

该睡了。。。可能在梦里能找到自己吧。。

遗忘了的梦。。。

去了一个应征。。。它唤醒了我遗忘了的梦。。。我挣扎了。。。我惶了。。。我不知道该怎么办。。。一个好久以前的梦。。。我是否该去追逐呢。。。我是否还是想实现那个梦想呢。。。

去争取一个机会。。。梦想会不会实现、想不想实现， 以后才想吧。。。=)

是否你以忘了该怎么去爱了。。。

最近每天都忙着应征。。。那天和她吃饭。。。我突然好想去背包。。。好想一个人。。。

其实突然想blog，是因为这一个game。。。http://www.miniclip.com/games/loves-arrow/en/。。。

它让我有很多感触。。。当你忙着射箭时，有好多你想救的人以伤心的离去。。。你明明是想把爱给的人却错过。。。而刚好经过的却把爱拾走了。。。本想射下多点时间。。。可却浪费了更多的时间。。。

当你忙着时，是否忘了你身边的家人、朋友、爱人。。。是否你以忘了该怎么去爱了。。。

除了我。。。

每个人都好像很忙。。。除了我。。。我好像很懒散。。。妈妈没有很催我。。。可是她还是有明示我该找份工作。。。

我想好好放下所有的东西，慢慢的找到我想要的。。。可是很可惜我却被自己搞的很乱。。根本没有在我休息的3个星期里做了什么。。。好听是责任。。可是是害怕吧。。。是自己很没有计划吧。。。可是我真的很累。。。一点想计划的心都没有。。。自己想什么真的很模糊。。。现在以没有刚刚离开时那么emotional。。。我想我会慢慢找到的。。。

很想到"Gone Fishing"，出来喝杯东西聊聊天。。。可是每个人都好忙。。。

在这里每个人的节奏都好快。。。在岛上，每个人都慢很多很多拍。。。

我想我喜欢 "花样少年少女"也可能是很怀念学生时期吧。。。不用想那么多，把功课搞好、考好，就是了。。。

真的是老了。。。

王菲、小虎队 的红蜻蜓、郭富成、林志颖 啦。。。我dl 了好多很久以前的歌。。。好怀念。。。哈哈哈。。。

Kapas...

bk fr pulau kapas..lots o mosquito bites...& i got tis terrible swollen toe/foot fr a ant bite..so itchy & swollen...haizzz...

not exactly a v nice place at p. kapas...1st, e journey there took 10hrs by coach...den we dropped off at tis wu lu place when e sun was not out yet, ard 6am & e street lights were not working..it was complete darkness...we had 2 walk 500m 2 tis little village call marang....& we napped in a little pavilion until there was light...

e pple were really slack...6+ still no1 in sight...until 7+ den pple started work...we had a nice nasi ayam & teh...but e speedboat was still not opened...so i had a snooze in e pavilion...almost 845 den e boat was ready...e speedboat ride was fast...only 15mins....

there was construction gg on on e island...a new resort coming up...

we chked in & got 2 out chalet...it was not exactly v nice...cos e beds looked a bit dirty... e bedsheet had brown bloodstains..eeeeeeeeeee.....

e tv only had 1 channel...thk gdness e toilet looked ok...but as usu, no hot water....

e weather was gd..but i didnt get a v gd nite slp on e coach...so i had a nap b4 i got up...shld 've gone 4 a dive cos e current didnt look tt strong & e vis was reasonable gd...

we had a walk ard e island...there was hardly anybody ard...it was really v v quiet..

we walked bk 2 e resort & decided 2 go snorkel...there was a super big puffer & 2 smaller puffers...also quite a big o fishes...

not a lot o things 2 do at nite....& we had 2 wait 1 hr 4 our dinner...we walked alng e beach 1ing 2 c if we had any luck o seeing turtles comin up e shore 2 lay eggs...bot no luck...a lot o mosquitoes...so we went bk 2 e chalet & had e air-con on full blast...

e 2nd day was bad...after bfast, it rained...our diving trip was cancelled cos e water vis was low...we walked ard, suntanned...zo bo 4 a while...den we decided 2 go 4 sotong catching (we exchanged it wif our complimentary 2 snorkelling trip)...when we got 2 e counter, there was another family o 6 who were gg 2...& 1 o e lady say tt e sotong catching will end at 3am! it was barely 6pm...& we were gg out on a small fishing boat...i was terrified...they were gg 2 go out in open sea in a mini fishing boat...i wld never survive tt... we decided agst it....& instead we had our dinner & strolled 2 e jetty where we saw pple fishing & catchin sotong...

we retired early...it was pouring when we got bk 2 e chalet...heng we didnt go 4 e sotong catching...

e 3rd day we decided 2 go 4 our diving regardless o e vis...we went 2 e octopus reef...e current was so strong...e swells were scary...but i managed it...e vis wasnt spectacular...but it was ok...there wasnt a lot o things 2 c...most o e stuff were brown & dying...quite a few nudibranches we saw...& a new 1, e magnificent chromodoris...

& i saw tis super big parrotfish! which none o e rest saw...i guess they were busy looking 4 other things while e parrotfish swam by...& there was tis cute stonefish...still a baby i guess...but e camera didnt really capture it well...or rather it camouflaged itself really well...


we finished e dive...i 1ed 2 go 4 a 2nd 1...but e DM was rather not enthu...so we decided agst it...we had our lunch & slacked on e beach...we still haven used our 2 complimentary snorkelling trip so we exchanged it 4 kayaking...we kayaked 2 tt pte beach & HN went snorkelling while i made a sand turtle on e beach...hhaha...HN came bk & started 2 draw his "cute art" on e sand...hahha...gradually more pple came by wif their kayaks...& started 2 draw on e sand also...hahah...


we had a little swim b4 we kayaked bk 2 e resort...tis was e last nite at e resort...

we didnt venture out cos there were a lot o construction workers on e island..not v safe wif juz e 2 o us...& most o e places were quite dark & quiet...


we had 2 get up early in e morn also cos e bus bk 2 singapore leave at 9am fr e tregganu bus terminal...we had 2 pay extra RM50 4 e early morning speedboat & another RM30 4 e ride 2 e bus terminal...


anyway tis trip was badly planned...i was 2 impulsive in arranging e trip..shld have planned it beta..haizz...& i missed e chance 2 go redang...haizzz....2 late...anyway...will started planning 4 another trip soon...i'm gg 2 get ready...gg 4 interview ltr....

清醒的脑袋。。。

本来有很多要说。。。可是现在也不知道要写些什么。。。

再过几个小时我就要到Pulau Kapas。。。心里就是有点紧张。。。

终于递上了辞呈。。。是有点冲动吧。。。我现在真的很想安安静静的好好想想自己到底要什么。。。

我很少看连续剧。。。可是现在每个晚上都看花样少男少女。。。现在看第2遍。。。我不喜欢看结局。。。因为有了结局我就不能每天有期望收看每一集。。。就是不想有结局。。。一旦有了终点， 接下来又要去开始。。。

记得那时我看了3遍的Hana Yuri Dango aka 流星花园的卡通。。。看完了又看。。。就是不想有结局。。。

有时我只想停留。。。停留在那完美的那一刻，永远都不要走。。。

现在的心情是复杂的。。。

是不想改变还是。。。

我很久没有清醒的脑袋了。。。我很想静下来。。。我好累。。。真的好累。。。幸福我摸到了。。。可是我很想永远拥有它。。。可是我知道是因为他的很大的付出，我才有它。。。我不想只有他的付出。。。我也想好好的爱他。。。


喜欢花样少男少女里的泉。。。可能因为像他。。。我很想把他永远留在身边。。。是自私的吧。。。

thank you baby...

從來沒想過會對他動心，但他卻走進了我的心中…那是一種從未有過的心跳，就好像童話中所敘述的一樣，而我卻比別人幸運的遇見了幸福… (quoted from 花樣少年少女 )

toto...

uncle patrick..lucky toto no.s 4 u ah...zhong le ji de bao ke hong bao gai wo..hahhaa

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