working on sat at scs...

now in scs office.....have 2 work on alt sats.....sianzzzz....only 2 pple in office 2day, me & another colleague who came in 1 mth earlier than me.....super boring 2day....actually not in mood 2 work at all....juz had thosai...not very nice but smells really gd though.....

anyway, my new job here really sounds challenging.....i'm involved in research wif regards 2 child abuse & neglect, & my pri research wld b emotional & social well-being o children......i'm doing a lot o reading in e past wk tt i started work.....2 much reading....& there r a lot o formalities tt i need 2 follow......a lot o papaer work.....i know it's necessary but really troublesome......

got 2 know o n incident tt happened on my 3rd day o work......smething which i doubt i'm supposed discussed.....it's actually abt data, esp data which throws our c'try, e so called newly developed nation, into a bad light......1 researcher had data abt sexual abuse in s'pore & she was due 2 present e paper in an international conference but was called bk at e last min 2 sign a letter tt she's not supposed 2 say anything abt her data.....she's not a researcher in scs so scs cld not force her 2 present, even though scs paid 4 all her expenses 2 e international conference....& she got research grants fr scs.....it was really a last min thing cos she was due 2 fly on sat, we got e call fr her at 5.25pm (5mins b4 we knock off) on fri......i dun c e rationale o tis.....if we've data tt shows tt smething is happening, but it displays our c'try in a bad light, we've 2 sweep e data under e carpet??? every1 in my departmt & my boss was so angry & disappointed....& e nagging qn in every1's minds was do we always have 2 keep track o our research so we only present e gd side o everything??? my boss said we'll need 2 bring up e topic in e next meeting.....but she is certain tt as gd researchers, wat we need 2 do is 2 do a gd research, no matter wat e result might b....

another lesson i learn here is tt in work, we need 2 b very diplomatic.....we need 2 always powder up everything tt we say......e truth can only b uncovered by pple who happen 2 have gd make-up remover......

busy....

long long time never blog.....so busy.....new job at scs, & my tkd grading coming soon, so went 4 practise on every mon, wed & fri......i pulled my rite hamstring ytd....not very serious but i'm rather apprehensive....in my ntu office now actually...dl-ing e pow wow video into dvd....i tink i'll most prob have 2 stay till 10 2 finish everything.....dun tink i'll have any other times 2 do & HY needs it tis wk 2 claim all e money fr NYC....

i'm listening 2 perfect10 rite now....snow helped me burned a few cds & he 1ed 2 know if i 1ed all his other albums 2.....so i told him i actually prefer listening 2 e radio much more cos o e un-predictablity...u never know when u'll hear a song tt u love....or a song tt reminds u o so much past....i'll b so happy if i hear a song i love play on e radio.....


so bored & tired...i dunno how long i'm gg 2 stay here.....stupid me....my computer does not have dvd writer & i spent e last hr or more wasting my time....shit!!!


still stuck here in ntu.....i shld seriously go tak eup some IT classes...i'm totally IT ignorant....

shit...i'm cracking my brain 2 do something abt e video.....wat shld i do......

last day in ntu.....

2day's gg 2 b my last official day in ntu....tmr starting at s'pore children's society....dun feel excited or anything.....i still haven packed my office here.....i'll have 2 come bk every sat 2 clear e things....


i'm kind o scared now cos i'm gg 2 e chinese sinseh again.....e last time i went, i really cried....2 pain oredi.....feel so stupid & so pathetic....i was sick last fri....had a sore throat again & my whole body was aching....e kind o ache which u get when u r abt 2 fall sick......i was feeling so miserable but i still went 2 e sinseh cos i dun 1 2 drag my knee prob....i really cried.....i try 2 control but e tears juz flowed....thankfully i had waterproof mascara on else definitely look like panda....


a lot o things happened during e weekend....had e pow wow event on sat then dragonboating on sun where a few x-rowers came....then my nephew's 1st mth celebration.....

have tis charity event on tis coming sat.....i tink shld b along s'pore river.....but i'm also not sure cos there's no instructions at all...

haizzzz...sometimes i really hate it.....always having 2 get instructions fr other pple.....i dunno if i'm juz 2 impatient.....but i really cannot std it when pple keep delaying things....then i need 2 rush all e things like mad....hate it when i can't control things.....i'm not some control freak but at least dun leave me hanging in e air.....

anyways, if any o u free on sat, mayb can come down 2 s'pore river 2 support e event?

so painful!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wah lau, ytd went 2 e chinese sinseh 2 treat my knee.....super painful man!!!!!!!!!!! i almost cried!!!!! ytd was e 2nd time i went....e 1st time, last fri, as i was sitting outside e room, i cld hear e person inside screaming in pain....i was so terrified!!!! when it was my turn, i was so scared!!!!! but thankfully not 2 painfully, but still rather pain......e most scary part was when she twisted my knee here & there & there was a very lot cracking sound!!!! she said my bone was a little out o place....& there was a little inflammation.....cld bend my left knee beta after e treatment....then e sinseh asked me 2 go back ytd 2 have a follow-up......so i went loh cos haven really recovered.....wah lau......so painfully man....undescribable pain!!!!! she said e bone still not in rite place, & there was more inflammation inside, so used tis stick thing & started hitting e sides o e knee where she said it was inflamed.....wah lau super horrible looking bruise developed & i tell u 1 really 1 2 cry!!!! i keep telling myself tt it will b over soon but e hitting didn't cess......finally stopped then she started 2 do all e twisting & stuff!!!! so pain!!!!! finally end.....then when i went 2 get my medicine, she told me i'll hurt4 another 2 days!!!!! i was oredi hurting more then enough, 2 more days??????how 2 survive????? thank goodness, e pain was ok, it's juz a very frustrating numbing feeling on e bruises, like u r being attavhed 2 some electric devise, & it keeps buzzing on & off......a bit painful sometimes but other than tt still ok.....juz very ugly bruise & it hurts whenu rub it.....haizzzz i shld have been more careful when i did all my exercises....most prob cos i didn't do warm ups properly.....i didn't 1 e pain 2 continue so went 2 e sinseh.....e doc i went 2 at ntu, say there's nothing i can do abt it???????? stupid doc!!!!

anyway, i'm so bored at e sas...no ppts 4 e past 2 days....doing data entry so boring!!!!! i'm 2 lazy 2 go out manually 2 invite e ppts i tink i'll juz target 4 another 10 more 4 e next 3 days then i'll pack up & go....hopefully there'll b some......haizzz......

anyway sign lang test 2day....didn't really study tt well.....really tired......haven have lunch yet....actually i did, i had m&ms.....tt's wat i had lunch 4 most parts o e day when i'm at sas...... i tink i'll grab a bit here at causeway pt b4 i go 4 my sign lang.....

irritating pain in my knee............

special friendship.....

i was on my way 2 go 2 e chinese sinseh ytd (didn't make it in time though...) after i read e blog by snow & jancy on our intellect sparring on sat, & a lot o tots came 2 my mind....

it's a really special friendship among e 3 o us.....we got 2 know 1 another at gartner advisory last yr....i juz graduated then, so was jancy, snow i tink juz finished his job at cpf(???); & we all coincidentally got e part-time job at gartner.....my 1st impression o snow wasn't much....didn't tink he was much o a person, i.e. shallow.....jancy, friendly but looked kind o stern....we were sitted beside each other in a row during e job, jancy rite inside, snow then me.......there were many other friend i made at e job, jeri; allie; karen; LWK; jac; val; etc etc.....i got a long pretty well wif every1 there, & after i found e job at ntu, we dun really get 2 get in touch.....however, i dunno how but me & jancy always get a kick out o putting down snow.....all e tongue lashing.....intellectual debate.....snow's not as shallow as i tot initially!!!!

it's strange tt i can talk abt so many stuff wif these 2 persons who i've only known 4 barely a yr!!!! it's amazing e synergy tt transients among e 3 o us.....snow dun get offended by us putting him down, jancy has her own priciples & tots, but always willing 2 hear my tots.....i really had a gd time on sat, although i was sick.....i cld 've stayed longer, not 4 e fact tt it was late & i was really beated.....we shld do it again.....

another grp which i had tis amazing friendship wif is my jc friends....there used 2 b 8 o us, but now it's always juz 4 or 5 o us.....it's a even more "nan de" 4 tis friendship......we dun quarrel although we may have different opinions....i dun know how 2 describe e grp but i really appreciate every1 o them & they indeed enriched my life a lot more!!!! but now, every1's working & every1's schedule is so different tt we've not really met up as a grp & had a chat...really miss all those days in jc, uni, when we had talks/gossips.....everytime we talked, i always do a lot o reflection & it makes me get in touch wif my inner self......

now i hardly even have e time or energy 2 tink abt anything.....wat a pity......i really hope tt someday, this grp o 8 cld get 2gether & have a wonderful time.....i'll try 2 arrange it!!!! hope ling is doing fine now.....wonder how she is.....haven contacted her 4 very long......

i'm very tired & very cold in here.....i tink i've written enough o an essay 4 2day......

3 cheers 2 friendship!!!! hip hip hurray!!! hip hip hurray!!!! hip hip HURRAY!!!!!

how stupid can i get????

So very stupid o me.....i came back 2 office 2day, intending 2 check email cos i finish e sessions early at SAS. when i got 2 my office, then i remember tt i took my keyboard 2 SAS 4 e expts....shit...... so i'm here at e free access labs, checking mails & blogging....actually ytd managed 2 check mail 2...was at e woodlands lib, had 2 pay 2 use e internet....very cheap though, $1 4 approx 30mins.....was actually writing an entry 4 my blog when e screen juz went off cos there was no value left.....shit......

anyway, kind o boring collecting data at SAS.....although e pple there r really nice, esp e high sch principal, Mr Chmelik!!! thank you sir!!!! he was always looking out 4 me, asking me if i needed help, if i had my lunch, if i had problems recruiting ppts, asking if e students r giving me problems...etc etc....Boni, his secretary, always had 2 bother her abt e key....& e many others who had helped me!!!! but really boring cos no internet, e computers dun have any games or anything, so i'm basically stuck wif playing minesweeper & e likes....kind o nostaglic though.....

hopefully everything wld proceed faster, more ppts pls....then i can end tis faster.....i'm so sick.....really sick.....flu, nose stuck, now much beta, ytd can only breath thro' my mouth....hope i get well so, else i can't train 4 my race.....

2day very stupid day.....got caught in e rain.....was walking 2 e mrt station & i was trying my best 2 brisk walk there but i didn't make it in time, & e rain juz poured!!!! i had umbrella but it was no use, i was totally drenched, so i u-turned back home 2 get changed out.....getting sicker & sicker....haven studied 4 my sign lang test on e coming tue.....so tired & sick....

anyway, my usu complaining.....i'm gg 2 write another blog entry abt a very special friendship....