dreams...

seriously i cant really rememb any...i know theoretically every1 will dream when they slp...but i dunno if i'm really tt tired...most o e nites i dun recall any dreams at alll...so i was really "surprised" tt jan cld have so many dreams...do u log down all ur dreams jan??

e result is out...

i went 2 e doc...waited 4 >2hrs... it kinda o stupid tt they fix appt 4 u, but they dun kp their time...when u r late 4 e appt, they qn u non-stop...WTF... if u fixed it at 415pm, jolly well let me c my doc at 415 la...y do i nd 2 wait till 630??? & it's a mere 10mins conversation wif e doc, smetimes it takes barely 5mins...nx time pls fix me appt at 630 den....

anyway, mri result was out...there was absolutely nth wrong wif my left hip joint..it was in perfect condition!!!!! shld i b happy??? at least i spend 400 bucks 2 know tt it's ok, despite e fact tt it has a dull ache 4 > 1 yr.... so i asked e doc y...

he said it definitely ruled out e suspicion tt he had earlier tt i had a tear in e skin o e ligament...it cld most prob b becos o my back which cld prob had been a slight slipped disc, pressing on sme nerves hence e dull ache...

it was all prob tis prob tt...i had tt speech fr e docs 4 >1 yr....

i told him i experience ache in my knee & my back also... he asked which was more serious...both were equally so...den he asked y i never associate e 2 prob as 1?

cos in e beginning, i didnt experience any pain in both areas....i only had tis dull ache tt doesnt go away in my left hip joint... tt was when i decided 2 go 2 e doc....& tt was when i decided 2 stop my tkd...& tt was also when i decided 2 relax a bit fr my dragonboat...

i had an x-ray done...nth was wrong wif e hip...but cos i had tis shoulder ache which comes on when i'm extremely tired 4 like countless years, since i'm doing e x-ray i might as well do it on my shoulder also...& tt is where they found tt my neck/spine has "degenerative" symptoms....watever tt means...

so i was referred 2 nuh...

as e hip joint wasnt serious, they concentrated on my shoulders, wif physio 4 my hip joint occasionally...

i was doing pretty ok...except e hip joint didnt heal...didnt get worse but was still there...

i went bk 2 e doc 4 review...e doc say it was ok, asked me 2 continue physio, which i didnt cos it was taking 2 much time...i was getting more & more inactive...except wif e occasion db race...

den i started 2 get tis numbness in my left knee when i start >20mins in e train...i wasnt particularly bothered cos i tot mayb i was juz standing 2 long...

den i got stiff back whenever i sat 2 long in off....& e knee prob got worse...i went bk 2 e doc (a new doc was seeing me now, they dun 've a fixed doc...whoever was e registrar will b e 1 u c) after they postponed it like 4 3mths...

i was so caught up wif work tt i didnt really bother tt e appt was postponed 4 so long...i juz endured e pain & did stretching (which didnt help much..)...hip joint prob was again ignored... concentration was put on e back which was giving quite a lot o trouble...

physio again....started 2 get beta....den i missed 1 physio cos i was sick...e stupid phone was always engaged when i tried 2 fix another appt 4 my physio...so i gave up....since i was getting a bit beta, i decided 2 exercise on my own...& e therapist suggested tt i do my pilates/yoga 2 strengthed my back...i went jogging...twice in tt wk...which was a mistake....my backache became so bad...& since i was gg 2 c e doc i decided 2 give myself a break...

bk 2 e doc...a new doc again... he asked how i was... back still aches & it was really bad when i jog...so he asked me 2 go bk 4 my physio...he asked me 2 go 4 a bk x-ray 1st & he was gg 2 refer me 2 e spinal dept...i complained 2 him abt my hip joint....& tt was when i had 2 go 4 my mri...

1 more appt wif e spinal dept in feb...if they still dunno wat is wrong...i'm really not sure wat i'm gg 2 do... i'm getting really fed-up...