幸福很简单...

我不是要幸灾乐祸不过每次我听到人家的不幸我都觉得自己好幸福。。。很庆幸自己的幸运。。。很感谢让我一直都那么快乐的每一个人。。。我也希望每一个人都会幸福快乐。。。能应为一个美丽的早晨；一个搞笑的地铁乘客；或应为还能睁开眼睛看到这世界而快乐，我觉得那就足够了吧。。。我希望每个人都能那么想那这世界就会快乐许多。。。我可以做到我相信每个人都能。。。

still remember this pic????

Jerk It Out by The Caesars

Wind me up
Put me down
Start me off and watch me go
I'll be runnin' circles around you sooner than you know
A little off center
And I'm out of tune
Just kickin' this can along the avenue
But I'm alright

Cause it's easy once you know how it's done
You can't stop now
It's already begun
You feel it runnin' through your bones
And you jerk it out
And you jerk it out

Shut up
Hush your mouth
Can't you hear you talk too loud?
No can't hear nothin' 'cause I got my head up in the clouds
I bite off anything that I can chew
I'm chasing cars up and down the avenue
But that's ok

Cause it's easy once you know how it's done
You can't stop now
It's already begun
You feel it runnin' through your bones
And you jerk it out

Cause it's easy once you know how it's done
You can't stop now
It's already begun
You feel it runnin' through your bones
And you jerk it out
And you jerk it out

And you jerk it out
And you jerk it out
And you jerk it out
Oh baby don't you know you
Really gotta jerk it out

When you jerk it out
Oh baby don't you know you
Really gotta jerk it out
When you jerk it out
Oh baby don't you know you
Really gotta jerk it out

Dakota by the Stereophonics.....

e lyrics made me tink o different pple...


Thinking about thinking of you
Some of the time thinking it was due
Yeah thinking it was due.
Laying back, head on the grass
Children grown having some laughs
Yeah having some laughs.

Made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the one
The one
Made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the one
The one

Drinking back, drinking for two
Drinking with you
And drinking was new
Sleeping in the back of my car
Never went far
Needed to go far

Made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the one
The one
Made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the one
The one

I don’t know where we are going no
I don’t know where we are going no

Wake up for coffee and juice
Remembering you
What happened to you?
I wonder if we’ll meet again
Talk about us instead
Talk about why did it end

Made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the one
The one
Made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the one
The one

I don’t know where we are going no
I don’t know where we are going no

So take a look at me now

i dunno....

my mom sort o found out abt my new rs....she asked my sis 2 ask me if my bf was tt young....i didn't reaffirm....i asked my sis, 3T, who said it...den i found out tt 1 o my sis, J, saw us at west coast & told my mom tt he looked v young, younger den 3T....but i dun really buy tt story....i tink S probably told J, & she told mom....but i dun 1 2 pursue e matter...i juz told J 2 tell mom tt everything is still immature & i dun 1 2 talk abt it....

he told me 2 not get angry wif my sis & 2 talk 2 my mom when i told him tt my mom found out abt him...

i dunno if i'm angry actually...i tink i'm not...juz tt i dunno wat 2 say abt e rs...till now i still have no idea how i feel actually....everytime i go v quiet, he'll ask me wat i'm tinking....if i've anything 2 say 2 him....i know i dun tell him a lot abt my feelings....cos i dunno wat 2 say or how i feel or even wat i tink... seriously i dunno...i dun 1 2 tink...but smehow i still nd 2 tink...

y is it never easy....y is it always so confusing....y do i have 2 tink abt these????do u really 've 2 tink abt things????

i like it tt we do spontaneous things....we had no idea wat 2 do ytd....i 1ed 2 eat mos burger so we went 2 PS...after tt we decided 2 catch a movie but nothing was interesting & e shows were late....so he suggested gg 2 s'pore river 2 walk walk....as we walked 2 e mrt, i remembered fort canning park, where we had e wmd, so i suggested walking there...kind o tough walking cos we juz had dinner....e place was quiet & nice...away fr e hustle & bustle...it's a really nice place except 4 e occasional mosquito.....walk walk walk...i've no idea where 2 go....den we saw e g-max....

i told him b4 tt i 1ed 2 try tt....so he said we shld go try....& we did....i did a whole load o screaming....although it wasn't as fun as skydiving....but i had fun....i didn't 1 e vcd cos i was so ugly but we got tt free & he kept it....

he keeps a lot o stuff...every little thing he keeps....he did ask me 2 keep but i told him i dun 1....i know he's v thoughtful & he treasures little little things...it's not tt i dun 1 2 treasure all these but i really dun 've e space 2 keep all these things...& i juz 1 2 keep e memory inside my small little brain...

it's sweet tt he does little acts 4 me...but i tink i never show him tt i appreciate it...serious, i dun tink i'm tt xi xin....i dun like soft toys, i dun like chocolates, i dun like little momentos....i wld rather keep everything in my heart & mind....he asked me abt my fav color etc...but i never bother 2 ask him....even when he mentions it i tink i probably 4got abt it...

my colics said tt they'll remember every little thing tt their partners say...ok so i'll try 2 make tt effort!!! i'm sorry dear....& i always poke fun at him....& i give him tt duh look everytime he say smething lame or stupid....ok i'm not tt great in my role as a gf....sorry.....

You Are 45% Normal (Somewhat Normal)

While some of your behavior is quite normal... Other things you do are downright strange You've got a little of your freak going on But you mostly keep your weirdness to yourself

How Normal Are You?

Your Brain is 46.67% Female, 53.33% Male

Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female You are both sensitive and savvy Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve

What Gender Is Your Brain?

You Will Die at Age 88

88 Congratulations! You take good care of yourself. You're poised to live a long, healthy life.

What Age Will You Die?

You Are 22 Years Old

22 Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

so excited....

every1 seem so excited & happy tt i've got sme1 special in my life.....every1 looked so excited!!!!it's as though i struck 4D......his friends were equally excited looking..... i find it a little amusing actually.....dunno if it's cos every1 ard me is so excited tt i dun feel tt much excitement.....we've decided 2 go buy 4D 2gather.....i'm such a bad influence, getting him 2 gamble!!!! hahhaahaa....hope i really strike 4D!!!!cross fingers, cross toes.....

我不知道

我也不知道我自己要什么。。。她说她感觉不到应有的兴奋。。。她问我是否准备好了。。。我真的不知道。。。说完后，我一直觉得头麻痹。。。一直无法清楚的想。。。事情发生得真的快了些。。。他也有同感。。。不过，我们决定想一起走走。。。我很高兴他很迁就我，很想知道我的看法。。。可能我真的没好好说出自己的想法吧。。。可能我自己到 现在都无法真的相信所有发生的事。。。他也无法相信。。。我的脑袋里一直空荡荡的。。。不知道是否是因为太累。。。我让他做主，无须我想。。。他让我觉得开心。。。可我会不知不觉的想到我们之间的不同。。。特别是在朋友群中。。。他很大方。。。我很欣赏这点。。。他会让我把不同忘了。。。让我觉得无须解释。。。我很想让他知道我很开心，不知道他是否感觉得到我和他在一起的快乐。。。快乐就好吧。。。不同只是自己和社会设定的吧。。。真的无须理会别人的看法。。。自己快乐真的才是最重要。。。不必TTM。。。我应该卸下TTMG President 的 position 4 a while....so VP pls take charge o e club while I 闭关修练 4 a while....

fell off my chair....

ε Θ )ß Yollev Torchic says:
THEN THEN THEN i tot it should be gone.. i mean fly out

...e tiredness o e physical overtook e eagerness o e mental.... says:
flew bk in?

...e tiredness o e physical overtook e eagerness o e mental.... says:
ahhahaa

ε Θ )ß Yollev Torchic says:
THEN THEN 2 days later i found it dead lying outside my store room hahaha

ε Θ )ß Yollev Torchic says:
i dunno why dead haha

...e tiredness o e physical overtook e eagerness o e mental.... says:
how u know it's e same?

ε Θ )ß Yollev Torchic says:
i wan to ask my family did they kill the cockroach

ε Θ )ß Yollev Torchic says:
haha that's a good question

...e tiredness o e physical overtook e eagerness o e mental.... says:
hahhahaa

ε Θ )ß Yollev Torchic says:
i always tot it's the same one cos of the size haha....

...e tiredness o e physical overtook e eagerness o e mental.... says:
i fall off chair!

...e tiredness o e physical overtook e eagerness o e mental.... says:
_ _

...e tiredness o e physical overtook e eagerness o e mental.... says:
i dunno wat 2 say......

...e tiredness o e physical overtook e eagerness o e mental.... says:
_ _

ε Θ )ß Yollev Torchic says:
fine

...e tiredness o e physical overtook e eagerness o e mental.... says:
ahahhaaaa....


ε Θ )ß Yollev Torchic says:
i still rem the cockroach so i tot it mite be it

April 18, 2005
UPFRONT
US child sex criminals getting away with it
By Paul Zach
Straits Times US Bureau

CLEVELAND (OHIO) - LITTLE Jessica Lunsford was a picture of happy innocence.

A photograph of the nine-year-old smiling under a fuzzy pink hat was broadcast repeatedly on TV across the United States after she disappeared from her bed one night in late February.

All the publicity raised hopes that Jessica would quickly be found. But as the days passed, the optimism turned to dread.

Singaporeans experienced the same feelings last year after seeing pictures of Huang Na, the
eight-year-old from China who disappeared. Hope turned to horror when her tiny body was found crammed into a cardboard box at Telok Blangah Hill Park.

Police here in the US dug up Jessica's body too, behind a neighbour's house just 150m from her bedroom in Homossasa, Florida.

Not only is she believed to have been sexually assaulted, but she may have been buried alive, CNN and Fox News said.

Such crimes against children happen all too often in the US.

Last week, 13-year-old Sarah Lunde was reported missing from home, not far from where Jessica disappeared. Police say a body found in a pond at an abandoned fishing camp on Saturday is almost certainly hers.

Each week the National Centre For Missing & Exploited Children sends cards bearing photos of children who have vanished to 79 million homes across the country each week.

It reports that in 1999, the latest year studied, 58,200 children were abducted by non-family members. It also said that one in five girls and one in 10 boys in this country are exploited sexually, and less than 35 per cent of those assaults are reported.

Another study reported by the centre revealed that about 100 children who go missing are found dead each year.

In fact, as Florida police were digging up Jessica's body, 10-year-old Jetseta Gage was kidnapped from her home in Cedar Rapids, Iowa. Her body was found the next day in a mobile home.

In Massillon, Ohio, a predator has tried to abduct nine children since February.

In one case, the man pulled his car into a driveway where a six-year-old boy was playing alone and held out a bag of sweets. The boy's father came to the rescue, but the man sped away.

In the same city in the 1980s, two little girls were raped and murdered. In one of those cases, a neighbour was sentenced to death for killing seven-year-old Marie Hendershot. But the Governor of Ohio commuted the sentence to life in prison.

And there's the rub.

Few would disagree with the view that the American penal and legal system is increasingly weighted in favour of criminals at the expense of victims, even when they are children.

Court rulings have made it difficult for prosecutors to win convictions, and even those who are convicted are soon on the streets again.

Investigators say a convicted sex offender, John Evander Couey, 46, has confessed to abducting and killing Jessica.

The drifter had already been arrested 24 times, including on a 1991 charge of fondling a child.

He had absconded more than once and, at the time of Jessica's disappearance, was wanted for a parole violation.

Jetseta's body was found in a mobile home with Roger Bentley, 37, police said, and he has been charged with her murder. He had already served two years in prison for abusing another child.

In the case of Sarah's disappearance, police are interviewing yet another sex offender - one of 24 who lived in her neighbourhood.

Jessica's father Mark, and Roy Brown, whose 7-year-old daughter, Amanda, was killed by a convicted child molester in 1997, had both joined the search for Sarah.

It took an earlier case involving a little girl before many Americans were even allowed to know that such sex offenders roamed freely in their midst.

In 1995, Megan Kanka, a seven-year-old New Jersey girl, was raped and murdered by a convicted child molester who lived across the street.

Her parents did not know he was there: nothing in the law protected Megan, but a law shielded the murderer, preventing police from releasing sex-offender information on him.

A public outcry led to Megan's Law. It now allows public access to such information, including on the Internet.

Just a year later, however, nine-year-old Amber Hagerman was riding her bike near her home in Arlington, Texas, singing America The Beautiful, when a man in a truck snatched her.

Four days later, her body was found in a ditch, her throat cut.

Concerned citizens again responded, helping set up the Amber Alert, in which Americans nationwide are informed over TV and radio whenever a child is abducted.

The system has helped recover 198 children since it was established, according to Mr Jim Libonati of the National Centre For Missing & Exploited Children.

Still, neither effort saved Jessica or Jetseta, and many Americans are now taking a harder look at their legal system.

An alert on the Congress.org website noted that while Jessica and Jetseta were being murdered, most politicians were focused on the case of the court-ordered removal of a feeding tube from the brain-damaged Mrs Terri Schiavo.

It pointed out that, unlike in the Schiavo case, there had been no special legislative sessions or emergency convening of Congress or state politicians for either girl. It urged Congress: 'Please strongly consider immediately discussing legislation that will allow for stricter sentencing guidelines, and monitoring of sexual offenders.'

Congressman Ginny Brown-Waite presented a proposal last week for new federal sex offender legislation named for yet another victim, the Jessica Lunsford Act. Yet what's still not getting enough attention is making sure that justice is done right from the start.

That was highlighted recently here in Cleveland.

Despite considerable evidence against him, a jury acquitted Mr Daniel Hines, 26, of the rape, murder and dismemberment of 11-year-old Shakira Johnson.

After three days of deliberations the jury asked the judge for a definition of 'reasonable doubt' - American juries are told by courts they cannot convict a person if they have such a doubt.

Last month, he was put on trial again, this time for trying to rape his 13-year-old cousin. The court heard that when her brother and a friend, Marine Private Brandon Sloan, tried to stop him, he attacked them.

Pte Sloan confirmed all that in court. But after 12 hours of deliberations, the judge declared a hung jury.

Mr Hines was cleared again.

幸福

幸福原来那么简单....e tiredness o e physical overtook e eagerness o e mental....

Dakota by the Stereophonics.....

Thinking about thinking of you
Some of the time thinking it was due
Yeah thinking it was due.
Laying back, head on the grass
Children grown having some laughs
Yeah having some laughs.

Made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the one
The one
Made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the one
The one

Drinking back, drinking for two
Drinking with you
And drinking was new
Sleeping in the back of my car
Never went far
Needed to go far

Made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the one
The one
Made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the one
The one

I don’t know where we are going no
I don’t know where we are going no

Wake up for coffee and juice
Remembering you
What happened to you?
I wonder if we’ll meet again
Talk about us instead
Talk about why did it end

Made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the one
The one
Made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the one
The one

I don’t know where we are going no
I don’t know where we are going no

So take a look at me now

i dunno y....

i dunno y but i seriously dislike her!!!! every little thing she does i find it irritating....i try my v best not 2 show my feelings but still i get frustrated wif her....shoot.....does it help tt i know others r equally frustrated wif her??? no it doesn't actually....i feel a little pang o sympathy 4 her but still i cannot help myself fr disliking her......& wondering always y she does e things she does....y y y.....it doesn't make me feel any beta tt others show their displeasure more explicitly than me.....still i hope she can buck up!!!!! pls!!!! 4 ur own sake & 4 every1 working wif u pls pls pls pull up ur socks!!!!!

many many things happened....

many many things happened during e past few days & i'm not even begining 2 comprehend wat is gg on....

my tkd grading was over....butterflies in e stomach as usu b4 e grading....but in e end all was well....results shld b known in 2 wks time.....

i held his hand 1st cos he was obviously shy 2 do it.....so i held his hand.....i bet he was shocked!!! i didn't know y i held his hand.....juz felt like it i guess.....

we talked abt little little things....but obviously he wasn't warmed up after e movie where i sprung a surprise attack on his hand....but gradually as we shopped ard he started 2 b more relaxed.....

he knew i was nervous abt my grading.....he offered 2 accompany me 2 e stadium e next day....i didn't 1 him 2 watch me do my grading so i tok him not 2....he insisted tt he was gg there 2 return sme stuff 2 a friend who was there 2 do grading 2.....so we made e trip 2gather....sweet o him....

i made him leave e stadium once i reached & he had returned his stuff 2 his friend....but yes he didn't go....i didn't know abt it until much later in e day.....

went 4 my dragonboat trg after my grading....been a long long time since i've last went 4 trg.....still aching now....

when i reached home, i was so tired....but he sms me tt he had smething 2 say 2 me once i reached home....so i smsed him....

his sms read: "i luv u....."

i was really stunned & speechlesss.....i dunno how 2 reply.....it was seriously a little 2 fast ain't it??? when i didn't reply, he smsed me:"so do u have anything 2 say 2 me???"

i was seriously speechless & totally numb....not sure if it's cos i was so stoned after a full day o activity.....

i dun remember e exact msg tt i smsed him....but i told him tt it was sweet & tt i was totally numb.....

after a few smses later, i smsed him:" is it weird tt i feel like seeing u now?".....

cos i seriously 1ed 2 look at him when he said wat he said....

a few other smses later, i was really tired & told him tt i was gg 2 bed....he was oredi on his way 2 my place!!! so i waited 4 him.....

when i met him....e 1st thing he said was:"i dunno y i'm here....but i'm here....".... i sort o melted at tt moment....he was blushing, i'm not sure if it was cos he rushed 2 my place or cos he was shy....it was probably a combination o both.....

e worst part o e mtg was my sis saw us.....& knowing her KP character, every1 in my family know tt i was holding sme guy's hand......i cant say my family's not close, but i've yet 2 make head & tail out o tis whole situation so i didn't 1 2 announce 2 e world tt there's tis cute young boy tt i'm c-ing.....

& i seriously dun tink they wld understd y i wld c sme1 so much younger than me....much younger than my youngest sis even!!!

anyway, i tink i'll start tinking abt it when he comes bk fr m'sia & when he has finished his exams.....4 now....i know tt i like him.....tt's abt wat i can say.....

2 our friendship/sisterhood

surfboarding....my next passion...

we r beautiful

gal power...

Bliss.....

Bintan Lagoon Resort

TTMG Club logo

bintan 05.04.03 - 05.04.05

i 1ed 2 write tis blog entry in chinese actually but i'm in nie now...dunno how 2 use chinese here....didn't have time 2 blog ytd.....

i cried in e showers again ytd....i remembered very clearly e other time i did tt was in jc....after jj lost e volleyball game.....i wrote in my journal my feelings & torchic read it....she said she dun understd y i cried.....i was tinking abt it & i tink it's cos i felt bad.....or mayb i was very touched by e whole event & e more i tink abt it while i was in e showers, i cried....tt was probably it....

anyway bk 2 e bintan story.....i was walking home after tkd.....along e way i started 2 tink abt wat i shld b blogging....tinking as i walked....i felt e urge 2 cry.....as i passed by shuqun pri sch, i lifted my head 2 look at e stars....wah........there was a lot!!!!!!! but i've no idea wat constellation they belonged 2......

I cried…..we didn’t get 2 c stars at bintan, but tis trip I discovered smething more….a friendship tt I know I’m so fortunate 2 have…..

I cried at bintan….at e beach….not fr laughter….but a sense o contentment….a sense o being so fortunate……we didn’t c e stars but we saw more……e sometimes snow-like spectacle, & most times e most magical feel….i was mesmerized by e whole thing…..it looked like millions & millions o shooting stars….i made a wish….tt every1 wld b幸福.....cos I felt so幸福.....e rain started 2 get bigger….we decided 2 leave…..but we stopped at e shelter…..there…..it was more spectacular….every1 stood there 2gather…..i cld feel e body heat….warming not juz my body….but my heart…..i cried at tt pt….& I’m crying as I re-live tt moment…..

I dunno y but I’m so high during e 3 days……we didn’t do much things but I discovered smething much more…..i discovered tt 幸福原来是那么简单.....i didn’t hold any expectations b4 e trip…..i only 1ed 2 slack & do nothing…& I discovered tt I got more in return…..

I kept asking myself tis qn….y I’m so fortunate 2 have tis bunch o friends….i must have done a lot o gd deeds in my previous life!!!! & they r all here 2 return e favor in tis lifetime!!!!

Yes I’m gg 2 use my tagline: I’m not ugly, I’ve a gd family, I’ve a gd job, I dun ‘ve much 2 worry abt, I’ve a bunch o such gd friends, I’m really very 幸福......

Tis bunch o gals who in spite o my eye rolling reflex (& not 2 nice smelling s***), continue 2 make me laugh & feel happy, & make me cry…..thks gals!!!! I really appreciate it……u gals mean more than friends 2 me…..

Official Award Letter

Dear Zhen,

This is to officially inform you that you've been awarded the life-long membership to the exclusive club, Club TTMG. You do not need to reply to this letter unless you wish to revoke your position. In the latter case, the President of the Club will look into the case personally.

With many happy regards,
Bionicgal
President, Club TTMG

Official Appointment Letter

Dear Juan,

This is to officially inform you that you've been appointed the Treasurer of the exclusive club, Club TTMG. You do not need to reply to this letter unless you wish to revoke your position. In the latter case, the President of the Club will look into the case personally.

With many happy regards,
Bionicgal
President, Club TTMG

i'm so dense...

i was still wondering y he never asked me out.....how weird tt things developed via sms only....i spoke 2 him only twice after our dive....juz morning calls.....& i knew he must have practised a speech b4 he called me....hahahaa...he was so nervous....

i'm so dense!!!! until my dear colic mas enlightened me ytd....hahahaha....i'm so laughing at myself!!!!!he did dropped hints but i never caught them....hahahaa....ok so now i get how tis whole game o love works!!!!at least how e initial part is like.....hahhaaaa....we're gg out 4 movie on sat.....i dunno if i'm excited abt it.....i'm actually more worried tt we've nothing 2 say actually......

haizzzz....c how it goes la.....

seawater is gd 4 cough!!!!

amazingly my cough is getting so much beta!!!!dunno if it's cos i drank so much seawater or is it becos i'm so happy.....hahhahaaa...anyway.....i'm so so so happy.....indulging myself again.....hahhahaa....3 cheers 2 our TTMG club!!!! hip hip hurray...hip hip hurray...hip hip HURRAY!!!!!!! ;P

幸福是那么简单。。。

幸福原来是那么简单。。。我好高兴。。。真的非常高兴。。。真的感到很幸福。。。谢谢你们。。。