MRI...

i'm gg 4 my MRI tmr... a bit apprehensive...a few days ago den i found out tt nd 2 have intravenous injection b4 e scan... all in all it'll take ard 2hrs 4 everything... haizzz...consoling myself tt i'll finally get 2 know wat is happening...

but still...i wldnt know e results cos my nx appt is in jan, only den wld e doc tell me wat is wrong...so i'm still in e unknown....haizzz....

慢慢自杀。。。

这几个星期来， 心情都不是很好。。。可能是因为生病， 而且不知道是不是吃了antibiotics， 脸和劲部有很多一粒一粒的。。。到现在还有。。。很 烦。。。一点心情都没有。。。

昨天，回去复诊。。。As usual，医生说没什么大挨。。。需要continue physio。。。haizzz。。。一年 了，原因还是不确定。。。因为back 没有好， doc 说 最好照 脊椎x-ray。。。ok，照了。。。我问他为什么我的hip joint 一直没有好。。。 他也不知道。。。说了说，最后他说做MRI scan，maybe 可以find out if the skin o e ligament is torn。。。it was e most probable cause o e constant dull ache in my hip joint。。。haizzz。。。我好伤心。。。OK， juz go 4 e scan 2 find out loh。。。

走出医院，我好伤心。。。有一种不想再做任何事，让“病情”恶化到死掉算了。。。爽快的死了好过想这样。。。so super annoying。。。

当时只想回家。。。一到家，一个人也不在。。。突然很想哭。。。



我现在了解为什么人会自杀。。。

shld i go 2 e doc if i kp getting dizzy spells??? is it work & lack o slp???

=))

i finally changed my blog appearance...after more den 2 yrs....ahhahaa...blogging is no longer e same nowadays...at least compared 2 2 yrs ago...mayb i've changed...

did i mention tt i met my insurance agent b4 i left 4 europe??? i haven seen him 4 almost a yr or 2...e 1 thing i rememb most abt tt mtg was tt he mentioned tt i'm no longer e little girl he used 2 know...i'm no longer e carefree person who always tot o e best o everything...is it bad???

i really dunno where tt self o me had gone 2...i really miss it...i dunno...i really really miss tt...

i 1 2 go out 2nite...2 vent my frustrations away at e machines...

i guess DYM coming...mood in e dumps...