Monday, September 05, 2005

Walk for the Children 2005

Friday, September 02, 2005

super-glue on her chair....

好久没 blog了。。。好忙。。。sudden influx o work。。。more projects parked with me...& i've 2 cover a lot o her work at e same time...i dunno if i'm stupid or not 2 cover 4 her...HS was so angry juz now at lunch...she complained abt L...i didnt know she was storing up all these frustrations...i tot i was e 1 who was not managing L well...i was stupid 2 do alot o e things when in fact it was L's work...i juz didnt 1 her 2 mess up things 4 me....& i dun 1 2 waste my time explaining things 2 her & in e end she does it wrongly again...she always tink abt all e irrelevant things...she always go ard in circles...ok in a gd way, she trying 2 tink o all e possible problems tt cld come up...but seriously, b4 u can care abt all e rest o e stuff, isnt it beta tt ur 份内的事以搞定???

haizzz...HS said if she left 1 day it must b cos o L...it was rather sad 2 hear tt...leaving bcos o sme1 so incompetent...i dunno...mayb if i can tolerate L no longer i might resort 2 tt 2...but at tis pt in time i've no wish 2 leave my job bcos o her...if i were 2 leave, it wld b tt i dun like my job annymore or tt i've found sme other beta work opportunity...not bcos o any1....i hope...

i was contemplating talking 2 L....trying 2 make her understd e problems tt we face when we work wif her....but everytime i c her, i juz cant control my emotions...i juz feel like "扁-ing" her!!!

juz cant seem 2 std her...dunno if S is doing anything or not...mayb it's like nee's x-boss : even though she knew A not competent but she still kp her...it's beta 2 kp a 烂的手 den 没有手...L has been wif e conference planning fr e start....quite a fair bit o things were parked wif her...at tis pt in time it'll b v bad if nd 2 train sme1 2 take over her job & every1 has a huge portfolio oredi...

it feels great 2 complain...it feels gd 2 know tt i'm not e only 1 suffering...it feels gd 2 know tt it's not cos o my own incompetence tt i'm not able 2 manage her...it feels great 2 c HN joke abt bashing her up, putting snake in her drawer, putting super-glue on her chair...hahahaaa....it's funny 2 c how frustrated she can make pple...at e same time i pity her...i dunno if she's doin all these things purposedly (so tt she can get away fr doing all e work while still remain employed...) or whether she's really like tt...HS say she's not gg 2 give her e benefit o e doubt cos she tinks L is doin it purposedly...L is in fact a PSC scholar...how dumb can she b??? she's oredi 30...it's not her 1st job...she shld b able 2 do alot more...

haiya...enough complaining o her....but she's a great topic o discussion anyway...

Friday, August 26, 2005

照一照。。。

去了3次的针灸。。。没有多大的改善。。。有点灰心。。。昨天的医师叫我去照一照,看看是否“压到神经。。。”

HAIZZZZ。。。

决定去照看看到底发生了什么事。。。快点好,好不好。。。

体温。。。

Fr Yollev...

"我只是觉得能握住自己心爱人的手, 感觉他的温度… 我就是觉得那是一种幸福… 我觉得那种感觉很美妙…"

说的很好。。。那就是他给我的感觉。。。那就是我想告诉他的。。。感觉你的体温。。。那是个很好的FEEL。。。一种不能解释的FEEL。。。=)

most interesting topic...

bad habits die hard i guess...i understd ur pts...but...i dun like it tt i nd 2 complain abt her...i hate it tt my topics only revolve ard her...i hate it tt she's making me feel angry, upset...i hate my gossiping...

but...i've no other topics 2 talk abt...my life is juz so empty...nth 2 do everyday other den work...den bf or else it's home...no activities 4 a mth oredi...he's busy...i dun 1 2 bother him...i cant do my usu activities...i dunno wat 2 do...there's nth 2 talk abt...

she's e most interesting topic i guess...& i guess i enjoy e fact tt i'm not e only 1 suffering...

y has life bec so pathetic 4 me??? i dun c my usu pple anymore cos i cant share in e activities...i dun get 2 do things i like...i can only gossip & complain...& e only pple i get 2 complain 2 r my colics, HN & JJ...& e only topic is her...

i hate it tt i'm not doin more...

i hate it tt i kp tinking abt e things i dun 've...i dun tink abt wat i've...

haizzz...

when can i get bk 2 things i 1 2 do...wat did i used 2 do b4 all e activities???i dun even rememb...

pathetic...

Monday, August 22, 2005

真的很讨厌她。。。明明是她的工作为什么要我们做???OK, OFFICE 是大家的,BUT HOW MANY CALLS ARE FOR US??? EXCLUDING E SOCIAL WORKERS LAH。。

Thursday, August 18, 2005

她的太极拳打得太好了。。。我的也不赖。。。

Tuesday, August 16, 2005

沉脉。。。

脉位低沉,轻取不应指,重按始得的脉象。沉脉主里证。因病邪郁于里,气血内困,则脉沉而有力,为里实证;若脏腑虚弱,气血不充,脉气鼓动乏力,则脉沉而无力,为里虚证。沉脉须与近似脉伏脉相区别,沉脉与伏脉都位于皮下深部,需重按触及,但沉脉部位近于筋骨,在肌肉中部,跳动均匀,而伏脉必须推筋着骨始得。沉脉与浮脉为相反的脉象。临床上沉脉常同数、迟、滑、弦、虚、缓等脉兼见。

Monday, August 15, 2005

zhen jiu....
ST 14 Aug 2005

Take life as it comes, with its 'etc etc etc'
By Catherine Lim Suat Hong

WHEN she was 28, doctors told her she would not live to see her 30th birthday.

She's battled cancer three times. Just over a year ago, she gave birth to a baby girl with her, in her own words, 'handsome, younger Thai husband'. Marica is Australian and 41 years old.

Her family includes two children from her husband's previous marriage and her husband's 17-year-old nephew. He had turned up on their doorstep one day with nothing more than the clothes on his back.

About a month ago, her father- in-law was hospitalised and her mother-in-law came to live with them. He was carrying two jackfruits on his motorbike when he lost his balance and crashed. As
Marica recounts this story to me, she tells her smiling baby daughter: 'Yes, grandpapa has to stay in the hospital, maybe for a year.'

Life happens. There is a more colourful four-letter word that people use when bad things happen. But the word s*** does not convey the matter-of-fact tone that Marica uses when she tells me her life story.

She says that she moved to Thailand because it is a Buddhist country. More importantly, she had felt out of sync in Australia where life was, as she described it, compartmentalised into 'work, family and miscellaneous'.

There is no such demarcation in the life she leads now in Chiang Mai. Life is all encompassing; work is family.

Marica runs a cafe with her husband on a sidewalk leading to a well-known temple in Chiang Mai. It serves fruit juices that are said to promote mental and physical well-being.

The cafe also serves Thai-grown coffee and there is a tap where passers-by can help themselves to drinking water if they are thirsty.

The couple have another business in herbal and floral soaps and toiletries. They have a small sampling at the cafe.

They are not rich. They get by. The nephew helps out at the cafe. He is not book-smart, so they hope they can find him some vocational training which they can afford or maybe get him apprenticed into a trade. For the time being, he goes to a school at a temple where education is subsidised.

There is also a 20-something girl working at the cafe. She is an orphan. When they first decided to employ her, they had to pay her wages in advance so that she could pay for food and lodgings. Now, she is included in family celebrations. Marica's daughter adores her.

There is a homeless man who hangs out near the cafe. The family gives him fruits and he helps to carry the baskets of fruits and rubbish.

There is also an informal 'tuk tuk' terminal near the cafe where the drivers often gather. Marica seems to know them all.

Occasionally, she visits a home for abandoned infants which is run by Buddhist nuns. When I mention to her that I have visited a spa that is just a few doors away from her cafe, she says that she knows the owners. She tells me that if I had dropped in for coffee before the spa visit, she could have given me a 500-baht (S$20) discount voucher. 'Mai Pen Rai' or 'never mind', as the Thais would say.

So this is what Marica means by Work is Family is Miscellaneous or as the King in the King and I would say, 'etc etc etc'. Life is holistic, spiritual and compassionate.

I met Marica on my last day in Chiang Mai when I was killing time before leaving for the airport.
I chose her cafe because her husband had greeted me warmly when I passed by a few days earlier.

I don't think that Marica could have anticipated all that has happened to her since she left Australia for Thailand.

But when you have beaten death, isn't it a blessing that you are still alive and can deal with life and its 'etc etc etc'?

E-mail your comments to suathonglim@yahoo.com.sg

Wednesday, August 10, 2005

等了3天。。。

她一问我,眼泪就不听使唤的流。。。

“他的父母能接受MEH???”

“你要做好心理准备。。。”

很伤心。。。可能就是这样不想把你的身份公开给家人。。。还没真正了解,他们以下了定论。。。很DISAPPOINTED。。。

我有想过。。。是很难。。。是会很伤心。。。不过我也很快乐。。。很幸福。。。那不就够了吗???

我并不想为了证明而去爱。。。我直想因为爱你而爱你。。。不知道这样是不是很傻。。。

Monday, August 08, 2005

好慌张的他。。。

我第一次带他回家。。。他很犹豫。。。他好紧张。。。他好慌张。。。他流了满身汗。。。哈哈哈。。。第一次看到他那么不知所措。。。快到门口他又折回。。。

“TELL ME HOW MANY PPLE INSIDE。。。”哈哈哈。。。好像飞虎队。。。哈哈哈。。。一想到昨天我真的觉得好好笑。。。

我也不知道为什么会决定带你去。。。没什么大不了吧。。。可能是觉得很过意不去吧。。。

我觉得很不舒服 AFTER I SAID:“BECOS I CANT TELL THEM E PRESENT IS FROM YOU。。。”

你很大方的说没关系。。。可我不能。。。我觉得对你很不公平。。。可能就是这样,当你说你想去时,我犹豫了。。。SMS了姐姐想GET A CONFIRMATION FROM HER。。。可是等了很久她都没REPLY。。。所以我才一直看HP。。。最后在BUS上问你要不要去。。。

是开心吧。。。我很开心终于你能“见光”了。。。

Don't be dumb, be cerebrally unwilling.....

Aug 7, 2005 ST

Don't be dumb, be cerebrally unwilling
By David Grimes

A GROUP of British teachers has proposed banning the word 'fail' from the classroom and replacing it with 'deferred success' to avoid demoralising students.

I have always believed in protecting the delicate psyches of today's students as much as possible so that they will be emotionally ready to pursue careers in lawn-mowing, cheeseburger-wrapping or whatever other employment opportunity avails itself in tomorrow's economy.

I was never a particularly good student and I firmly believe it was the insensitive criticism I received from my teachers that steered me into my present dead-end job and a desk downwind from the newsroom refrigerator. For example, my high-school maths teacher wrote in my yearbook: 'Most likely to succeed in a job that does not involve numbers.'

This wouldn't have been too traumatic if my English teacher had not written: 'Most likely to succeed in a job that does not involve words.'

So you see that it's important to choose your words carefully when addressing underperforming students lest they end up in their underwear at home churning out nonsensical columns for obscure newspapers while their small, disobedient dogs helpfully befoul the living room carpet.

I agree with the British teachers that the word 'fail' has no place in modern classrooms, even if we are talking about students whose main academic credentials basically consist of initiating food fights in the school cafeteria. For example, you should not refer to such students as 'troublemakers' but as 'obedience-challenged'.

Students who routinely skip school so that they can drive around smoking pot with their friends should not be categorised as 'delinquents' but rather as 'alternatively occupied'.

Students who are too stupid - excuse me, 'distracted' - to remember to write their names at the top of their test papers should not be belittled.

Better to criticise the ones who do remember as 'overachievers'.

Students who pretend to be reading while they are face-down on their desks should not be called 'lazy' or 'dead to the world' but rather 'consciousness-averse'.

Of course, our new linguistic sensitivity should not apply to students only. For example, when our commander and chief says, 'Border relations between Canada and Mexico have never been better,' we should not refer to him as someone who has the geography skills of warm tapioca but rather as someone who is 'border-diffused'.

We'll all be just as dumb - excuse me, 'cerebrally unwilling' - as before, but we'll sound a lot smarter. \-- New York Times

Friday, August 05, 2005

hao ke ai de gui gui...
yao shang lu le....na guai zhang...
da zhuo...xiu xi xiu xi....
crawling....so much work how 2 finish???
Gui Gui & Mr Incredible....
Gui Gui & Westlife Bear....
Gui Gui's 1st day at work...
HS bday celebration...
wah seh not bad pose...
chimneying KJ...
KL trip...at sheraton...
lovely2....
lovely...

Thursday, August 04, 2005

nice....

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

stop....

i've stop all my activities.....bored......dunno wat 2 do after work each day.....it's been only 1 week....haizzz.....i keep 4getting 2 take e medication & applying e gel.....dunno when i'll recover fully....really dunno wat 2 do.....haizzzz

当你孤单你会想起谁 - 张栋梁

你的心情总在飞
什么事都要去追
想抓住一点安慰
你总是喜欢在人群中徘徊
你最害怕孤单的滋味
你的心那么脆,一碰就会碎
经不起一点风吹
你的身边总是要许多人陪
你最害怕每天的天黑
但是天总会黑,人总要离别
谁也不能永远陪谁
而孤单的滋味,谁都要面对
不只是你我会感觉到疲惫
当你孤单你会想起谁
你想不想找个人来陪
你的快乐伤悲只有我能体会
让我再陪你走一回
music
你的心情总在飞,什么事都要去追
想抓住一点安慰,你总是喜欢在人群中徘徊
你最害怕孤单的滋味
你的心那么脆,一碰就会碎
经不起一点风吹
你的身边总是要许多人陪
你最害怕每天的天黑
但是天总会黑,人总要离别,
谁也不能永远陪谁
而孤单的滋味,谁都要面对,
不只是你我会感觉到疲惫
当你孤单你会想起谁
你想不想找个人来陪
你的快乐伤悲,只有我能体会
让我再陪你走一回

listening 2 tis song i smetimes wonder if i'm such a person 2....afraid 2 b alone...finding all sorts o activities 2 keep myself occupied....i tink so....sounds really pathetic.....

如何打動妳的心???

http://www.min.com.tw/wish/test/view.asp?messageid=88

心測主題 : 如何打動妳的心?

心測問題 :
有一天,妳有一個機會回到伊甸園,拯救了差點嚐到毒果的夏娃,夏娃為了感謝妳的救命之恩,慷慨送妳一種動物作為紀念,妳會選哪一種?

鹿 , 馬 , 牛 , 狗 , 蛇 , 獅子................
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你的選擇結果:

鹿 : 如果對方能夠真誠深情的對待妳,默默的對妳表示出關心與體貼,就是最能打動妳的方式。

馬 : 想要追求妳的人,除了能夠對妳表達愛意之外,若還能夠在某一方面表現出特別的才華或是成就,或是在團體之中相當突出,會令妳傾心不已。

牛 : 若對方能夠對妳有耐心,一直堅持而不放棄的追求妳,成功對他來說是一件輕而易舉的事。

狗 : 如果對方可以像朋友一樣的讓妳信任,沒有防備,不論是妳傷心或快樂時都能夠陪伴著妳,做最佳聽眾,讓妳可以自在的對他傾吐心事,很有可能贏得妳的心哦!

蛇 : 對方若對妳忽冷忽熱,若即若離,讓妳捉摸不清他真正的心意,會讓妳無法抗拒他的追求,使妳身陷情網。

獅子 : 妳希望要追求妳的人能夠大膽而熱情,直接熱烈的對妳表白,甚至是在公開的場合送上一大束玫瑰,可會令妳無法拒絕哦!

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

指纹算命。。。

http://www.min.com.tw/freefate/finger/index.asp

属性类型
樂觀進取型


个性分析
1. 聰明樂觀,崇高的道德觀念。
2. 對於藝術.美學有粉好的鑑賞能力。
3. 心胸開闊,花錢慷慨大方。
4. 有良好的社交,但有時仍感寂寞。
5. 對性有強烈的慾望。
 

运势解析 
1. 你是個長壽的人唷。
2. 遇挫折常逢凶化吉。
3. 少年時儘量遠離家鄉奮鬥。
4. 工作常常變動。
5. 與孩子的緣份薄。
   

婚姻解析 
1. 你的性關係不錯,但為了避免離婚儘量晚婚較好。
2. 適合經由向親找為來的一半,成功的機率會比較高,婚姻也比較美滿。
 

您适合的职业 
1. 會計人員。
2. 文字工作者。
3. 財務.稅務人員。
4. 高價值的珠寶事業。
5. 體育.建築業。  
 

健康上,应多注意的部位 
1. 血液循環器官
2. 腎臟.眼睛.心臟.肝臟
 

运势结论 
你適合做一位幕僚人員,沒有能力做領導階級的職位。 喜歡與眾多的異性來往,如此一來會使你的性關係較複雜。

三天两夜吉隆坡游。。。

5年后不知道会怎样。。。谢谢你所说的一切。。。不想想。。。

我只感觉到你的温暖。。。只感觉到自己心跳得很特别。。。

I’M ALWAYS HAPPY WIF U ARD。。。重点不是地方,是人。。。=)

刚开始有点听不懂你们说的话!!! 哈哈哈。。。到了后来我讲话被你们影响,都有点马来西亚腔了!!!

哈哈哈。。。NONO 表哥还真好笑。。。阿拉伯王子顺利也很搞笑!!!谢谢你们!!! =)
remanents...yeeeeeeeeee....
HAPPY BDAY MS YEE....
sea o blue...
1st attempt!!! miracle!!! hahaha

人不为己,天诛地灭

i know i'm bad....but seriously i'm v afraid!!! she's been coughing non-stop 4 at least 3mths oredi!!! & e ventilation in my office is terrible!!! e germs, virus, bacteria, watever things, fly ard & get trapped inside tis small office!!!i'm so afraid o catching it!!!! i juz recovered leh!!! i dun 1 2 fall down under again!!!! pls pls cld u get well or else cld u juz take leave/mc 2 rest??? pls get well & dun pass anything 2 me!!!!PLS LAH!!!!!!!!! i beg u!!!!!

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

心疼。。。

本来MONDAY AFTER CLIMBING,跟 SWING 谈了之后有点消气了。。。隔天早上5点看到他的简讯,心有点软。。。SMS 了他。。。可是又不知道为什么又生气。。。一直没睡。。。我真的好生气好生气。。。昨天早上还骂了他。。。到了OFFICE,要做PRESENTATION,没时间想。。。忙了一早到了下午他都没SMS 我。。。我想他大概是生我的气因为我用F 来骂他。。。心情很不好不过有WORK 忙。。。气一直都没消。。。

不知怎么的,我们谈到了和他QUARREL 的事。。。和她们谈了谈。。。气消了。。。是自己冲动了点。。。

545。。。下班了。。。我收拾了桌子。。。电话响。。。HK COLIC。。。

“陶吉吉在外面等你。。。”

我有点不知道怎么做。。。关了电脑。。。走到玻璃门。。。他坐在对面。。。手里拿了束花。。。他晒得有点CHAO TA。。。剪了头发。。。他看到我马上站了起来。。。他有点犹豫。。。不敢上前。。。

看到他那很伤心的表情。。。眼眶红红的。。。我好心疼。。。

他把花递给我。。。

“SORRY ANNIE。。。我知道错了。。。”

“哇!!!你CHAO TA 了LEH!!!”

摸了摸他的脸。。。我微微的笑。。。他心头的石头放下了吧。。。

“DEAR。。。”

他抱着我。。。

我们走到BUS STOP。。。上了BUS。。。

握着手。。。我看到他的BRUISED KNUCKLES。。。

“WAT DID U DO???HOW COME LIKE TT???”

“CAN I DUN SAY???”

“CANNOT。。。”

应该很痛吧。。。摸着他受伤的手。。。听到他有点哽咽。。。我真的好心疼。。。

Tuesday, July 26, 2005

五月天 - 听不到

夜黑夜寂寞的夜里
气生气对自己生气
软弱的电话又打给你
想听你那边的空气有什麽精采的话题
你还是温柔给我婉转的距离
我的声音在笑泪在飙电话那头的你可知道
世界若是那麽大为何我要忘你无处逃
我的声音在笑泪在飙电话那头的你可知道
世界若是那麽小为何我的真心你听不到
会很会伪装我自己
你不该背我的秘密
沉重都给我微笑给你
奔狂奔空旷的感情
走暴走暴走的伤心
透明的叹息最後还是我的秘密
我的声音在笑泪在飙电话那头的你可知道
世界若是那麽大为何我要忘你无处逃
我的声音在笑泪在飙电话那头的你可知道
世界若是那麽小为何我的真心你听不到
听不到听不到我的执着扑通扑通一直在跳
直到你有一天能够明了我做得到我做得到
我的声音在笑泪在飙电话那头的你可知道
世界若是那麽大为何我要忘你无处逃
我的声音在笑泪在飙电话那头的你可知道
世界若是那麽小为何我的真心你听不到

Monday, July 25, 2005

不想为什么。。。

是不是我从来都不发脾气,你就能得寸进尺???我没有发脾气不代表我没事。。。我发脾气,你是否很开心???为什么要到我发脾气你才会反省???面对开心的我很闷吗???为什么要让我发脾气???正当我开心的时候,为什么要让我发脾气???我HIGH 的时候不可以让我HIGH 吗???

很不想想。。。越想越气。。。让我本来安排好的WORK都没心情做。。。

矛盾。。。很想你回答。。。可是又不想。。。气死我了。。。

本来。。。

踏进办公室我的心情本来是很 好的。。。因为过了一个虽然有点STRESS 不过很开心的周末。。。很久都没跟家人聊的那么开心了。。。我真的很开心。。。TKD GRADING 也过了。。。本来想跟你分享这份喜悦。。。可你却把我的心情给搞砸了。。。是自己搞砸的吧。。。HAIZZZZZ。。。本来想写篇很快乐的BLOG ENTRY ON TIS WEEKEND。。。

高高的。。。我好痛。。。

我最讨厌的就是不讲信用。。。尤其是把你的希望和期望捧的高高的,然后再把你丢下。。。我很讨厌。。。我知道有时有临时的事。。。可能那件事真的很重要,那你就不要说你会101%做到你答应我的事。。。

我很讨厌。。。不要只是说说而已。。。你让我对你的信心减到我都不想的程度。。。请问你答应真的做的到吗???

HAVE I EVER GIVEN U FASLE HOPE B4???WLD I PROMISE U ANYTHING IF I’VE NO CONFIDENCE TT I CAN DO IT???U KEEP SAYING SORRY。。。& I TOLD U MANY TIMES, SORRY DOESNT MEAN ANYTHING。。。WHEN U’VE STABBED SME1, PULLING OUT E KNIFE OR NOT DOESNT MATTER ANYMORE。。。E WOUND IS THERE。。。THERE’S NTH U CAN DO ABT IT。。。M I UNREASONABLE???I JUZ 1 SMETHING V SIMPLE。。。DUN PROMISE ME ANYTHING WHICH U CANT KEEP。。。

I WAS THERE VIDEOING E WHOLE SOLEMNIZATION。。。E WORDS: DO U PROMISE 2 ALWAYS B THERE 4 HIM/HER NO MATTER IF HE/SHE IS SICK ETC。。。THEY SAID:“我会。。。”

FOR SME REASONS I WAS REALLY TOUCHED。。。COS I CANNOT SAY TT WORD 2 ANY1 AS YET。。。COS I CANT PROMISE。。。PROMISE IS 4 REAL。。。U’VE 2 B ABLE 2 DO IT。。。ELSE DUN PROMISE COS OTHERWISE IT’S NOT A PROMISE ANYMORE。。。。

M I JUZ BEING RASH??? I’M NOT SURE。。。I DUNNO Y I’VE 2 QUARREL & 发脾气SO MUCH。。。I DUN UNDERSTD。。。I SERIOUSLY HATE IT。。。

我的心好痛。。。我好 难过。。。我好讨厌这样的自己。。。平平淡淡的生活不好吗???为什么要让自己那么不快乐。。。我有那么难伺候吗???我有要求很多吗???
我又发脾气了。。。好好的一天又被我搞砸了。。。SHIT。。。
38 tables in total....
solemization...
dang dang dang dang....
bro's wedding....
prince ambrose baby...

Friday, July 22, 2005

e yellow rose event....

会累吗???

我真的有那么累吗???

我真的有太多ACTIVITIES 吗???

昨天妹妹忽然问我:“你每天那么迟睡不会累啊???”

这以不是第一次有人这样问我了。。。我真的太多东西了吗???我当然会累。。。不过不做东西我真的会全身不自在。。。

大概每两个星期妈妈就会问我:“你不可以待在家里MEH???要每天都这么晚回的MEH???”
我每次都是回答:“上课MAH。。。” 不然就是静静什么都不说,然后转开话题。。。

我大概每晚都是午夜后才睡。。。大概一个月有一个晚上会午夜前睡。。。WEEKDAY 早上大概都是七八点起来。。。WEEKEND 大概都是两点后睡。。。每个周末都有节目。。。好像每三个月才有一次待在家里。。。想一想在家里的时间扣掉睡觉、冲凉, 真正坐下来谈天,一天应该少过十分钟。。。在家里吃饭也少了。。。妈妈大概天天都有煮,我一个月可以用一只手算我有几次回家吃。。。好像把家里当HOTEL 了。。。

好像找不到什么空闲的时间。。。

可是 NX WK 以后不可以了。。。要去看医生。。。HIP JOINT 大概超过三个月还在痛。。。真的要去看医生了。。。应该不可以常常去 CLIMB 、TKD。。。有一点不想看医生。。。可是又怕。。。还是去看看比较好吧。。。

Thursday, July 21, 2005

幼稚吧。。。

我又感动的流泪。。。有时我会想他说的话是不是说说而已。。。因为我看到,听到的例子,他们都只是说说而已。。。说好容易。。。做真的不简单。。。可是看到他的简讯。。。我哭了。。。因为我相信他所说的。。。而他真的有行动。。。想想他们还真的没什么创意。。。说的都一样。。。常常会让我半信半疑。。。让我不敢放进100 分的感情。。。可我又会很讨厌这样的我。。。

可能我并不会很细心。。。有时忽略了你的感受。。。有时觉得自己会无理取闹。。。有时搞不清自己的想法和感觉。。。

下个星期要见家长。。。我有点不知所措。。。不是很担心。。。也不是很害怕。。。也不是很紧张。。。不是不想去。。。也不是很想去。。。不上。。。也不下。。。又不是中间。。。不是不开心。。。也不是很快乐。。。不是伤心。。。也不是高兴。。。

我们吵架了。。。也不算吵架啦。。。我应该是赌气吧。。。他明明说他不想去。。。忽然又说想。。。我不知道 他的CONCLUSION 是什么, 所以我就问LOH。。。当我说我也不想他去时,伤了他吧。。。看到他。。。感觉不对劲。。。问他他又说没事。。。走了他才SMS。。。让我觉得内疚。。。让我第一次在MRT STN 上哭。。。一方面赌气,一方面不知所措,我决定不接他的电话, 也不回他的简讯。。。

最后我不忍心。。。想想他会担心,又有 TEST。。。我SMS 他。。。他打电话。。。“REJECT”。。。“DEAR I KNOW U DUN 1 2 TALK BUT CAN U ANS MY CALL, I’LL TALK U JUZ LISTEN K?”。。。听到他的声音。。。他的解释。。。他的担忧。。。他的道歉。。。我很内疚。。。第二天,我买了朵黄玫瑰,向他道歉。。。

有点幼稚吧。。。不过雨过天晴了。。。

Monday, July 18, 2005

我决定放弃。。。对不起。。。

pls solve it...

i've been so troubled & worried 4 e past wk.....losing slp over it....i'm so tired now....i feel so silly crying over it....it cld b solved easily but i chose 2 wait....been unable 2 conc on anything.....i'm finally gg 2 eradicate e problem hopefully ltr 2day.....hopefully there's nth serious....hopefully it's juz my own fear....pls dun ask me.....i'll tell u when it's over....4 now i dun 1 any1 2 worry....

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

3 MTHS。。。圣陶沙 UNDERWATER WORLD。。。

我们的3 MTHS。。。去了圣陶沙 UNDERWATER WORLD。。。好久都没到那里了。。。好几年了吧。。。这次去,鱼好像少了。。。不过我们在那个 CONVEYOR BELT 兜了好几圈。。。最好玩的是那个 TOUCH POOL!!! 有 PUFFER, STINGRAY, BABY SHARK, AND OTHERS。。。好好摸。。。哈哈哈。。。玩 到衣服都湿湿了。。。。哈哈哈。。。
touch pool creatures....
trophy grouper???hahaha...
unicorn fish???
huge fish....
我失声了。。。I TINK I BETA ZIP。。。

Wednesday, July 06, 2005

argh...

fever coming bk....my cough getting worse....may 've 2 skip tkd again....3rd week in a row....argh...
my family...=)
great effort!!!
after e great race!!!
juz b4 e race...
HI-Raleigh S'pore Dragonboat Festival 2005.07.02
HI-Raleigh BBQ 2005.07.03
yes i can buy flat so wat???
bei hou you ling????
so which direction is it???
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cheeky pic 1

Monday, July 04, 2005

1 yr & counting...

my 2nd time at s'pore dragonboat race...had fun!!! wasn't as nervour as last yr....& i tink we did pretty well tis time rd....e coordination was much beta despite e fact tt we hardly train as often as we shld....again e race was over in <5mins....e waves were a little stronger & b4 e race even start, i saw a few capsized boats....e 2 new rowers, hao & ho, were quite encouraging thro'out e race!!! they were shouting at e top o their lungs & it pretty much made e coordination beta....=) thks guys!!! i was also shouting quite a fair bit...which is probably y i'm having a sore throat now (+ e fact tt we had a post race bbq....)....dear was there 2 support & 2 help look after e bags...thks dear!!!! =) he was supposed 2 go up 2 aur but he stayed 2 watch e race & attend e bbq (he said e main reason he's not gg up aur is cos he had oredi made up his mind not 2 go diving 4 tis sem...anywayz, i'm really glad tt u came along!!! =) )

ok got 2 go bk yishun....colic finally came out!!!! =)

Friday, July 01, 2005

oh my, did u get ur pants burnt??? hehehe...
Ambrose baby...=)

westmall 大团圆。。。

大家那晚都那么累了可是都不想回。。。我很感动。。。看着大家疲惫的身躯,硬着头皮的撑着。。。我真的无法形容我心中那感觉。。。谢谢大家。。。

有说不完的话题。。。我们还真厉害讲话。。。哈哈哈。。。

八个人好久都没聚在一起了。。。都忘了是多久了。。。今年是我们第九年的 SISTERHOOD 了!!! 对吗???

=)
beatiful 8 after so many yrs...
beautiful 8