when it's time 2 go...

i always try 2 tink tt e person who passed away will b gg 2 a beta place...they've finished their work on earth...& they've gone 2 rest...gone 2 a beta place...

it's never easy 2 face death...i hate it...but inevitably we have 2 face it...

wif it we always face remorse...remorse at y we haven spent more time wif them...

i still cant handle death well..no matter how many times i've faced e issue...

it takes time 2 get over pain...alot o time...but u'll never 4get...

Tioman trip video...

Nudi in action...

dedication 2 J...

was randomly looking at my old blog posts when i came 2 a post on a song lyrics tt i posted almost 3 yrs ago...

read e lyrics & i juz 1ed 2 dedicate e song 2 J...

no matter how e ending might b...at least u've felt love urself...=)

http://try2bbionic.blogspot.com/2004/12/dreamzfmshould-i-stay.html

new job...

i'm at my new job...

sth i learn here is really juz 2 shut up & act blur...

actually we observe more when we shut up...

tis unit tt i work in start ard a yr ago..there r 2 bosses, 1 proj coordinator/logistics person, 2 psychologists...they started tis new prog under which i m employed approx 2.5 mths ago. there r 6 o us in e office. recently they juz employed 2 more. but e office is v small, can acc only e 6 o us..so e rest r in another office in another block..

so far tis is e analysis i've o e 5 pple tt i work wif..

1st o cos is V...

she is 1 loud mouth..so can observe a lot o things...1 thing i can conclude is tt she is 1 person who has low self-esteem..she nds 2 verbally let eveyr1 know abt her accomplishments...& she does so in a rather loud voice most o e time...

1 o e most funny episodes:

Scenario: conference rm waiting 2 give presentation 2 big pple..V seated in e middle o me & colic D.
V 2 D: aiyo y u so kan cheong...no nd 2 rehearse la..

D ignores her. i wasnt doin much stuff juz waiting 4 big pple 2 arrive
V 2 me abt sth which i dun rememb...

V 2 me: i'm lecturing 2nite..
me 2 V: oh..where u lecturing?
V 2 me: i'm teaching research methods at XXX..
me 2 V: wah...

Scene 2: time for presentation
V---mouth dry, face flushed, hands trembling badly during presentation....

In my mind: i tot V said she lecture in XXX? y e nervousness when she presented???


there r many many funny episodes o her...which juz makes me wonder if she knows tt silence is golden...she is also extremely self-centered...v inconsiderate alot o times...& she is over-enthu in trying 2 b sporty...her 2 buddies at lunch fasting now, so she also skip lunch, go gym wif them instead..in e end, she had fainting spells & had 2 go 2 e doc...ahhaha...



2nd colic, X..

she is e youngest in e grp...5 yrs my jnr..i'm 1 o e oldest in my grp..

she is 1 person who must chap ji ka (CJK) everytime...e only time she dun cjk is when colic AL is talking...

her cubicle is way inside e off & she can appear in .05s when there r >1 person talking.. regardless o e topic tt is being discussed...

she is 1 immature person who nds 2 show tt she is mature enough & knows a lot o things...over-zealous most o e time...


3rd colic, D..

v typical girls' sch girl...can b extremely loud...but i guess cos she has counselling bkgrd, so i tink she tone down a bit...


4th colic, AL..

pregnant colic who is abt 2 deliver soon...EDD nx wk...

she is originally fr C...but married a M, now is Spore citizen...smetimes she can get a little irritating..cos dunno y she cannot get e thigns pple r talking abt..dunno is it cos beign pregnant really makes pple a little slower... i tink V dun like her much...cos V always never seem 2 've much conversation wif her...


5th colic, L...

he's a daddy, got married when he was juz 23.. he is sme1 who can bland wif every1...mr nice guy...but who dunno how 2 say no...

he is 1 determined guy...but who also knows how 2 eat snake...



all o them not bad pple la...juz tt i'm writing abt e more interesting & funny things which smetimes i get irritated abt...

save the world..haha..

tis is a lot o fun...but at e same time, really lets u know e limitations of govt..

http://www.stopdisastersgame.org/

different strategies 4 e diff disasters..

seem like a long long time since i last blogged..

after e aur trip..lang was nx...was quite apprehensive cos there wasnt v gd review abt it..

personally, i tink it's juz a v unexplored place...

imagine us juz reef walking @ nite & we found 10 or so o octopuses...& junvenile scorpionfish...& e leaf slug..2 o them...& these 2 tiny tiny nembrotha lookalike...

& tonnes o other things there...

even snorkelling also got black tip shark...loads o things really...juz tt e DM is quite new(he has only been diving there 4 barely 3 wks...)

diving was ok...saw tis big big kingfish...my heart stopped 4 3s when i saw them actually..

continue another time..gg lunch =)

ttm club revived...

i tot u said tt we shldnt ttm so much??? reading ur blogs...e 1 tot i have is tt u r ttming...

i dunno if i'm really tt fortunate...at least i tink i m la... or rather there can b many things tt i can choose 2 complain abt...but everytime i complain e words tt u said were tt we shld learn 2 take it or else change it...if tt is e advise u can give 2 others...y not use it 4 urself?

learning 2 b contented is not easy...but learning 2 appreciate things can start fr anywhere...if u r not happy...accept it or else change it...or juz complain abt it...things will resolve sooner or ltr...

ttm club members...things will turn out well...jia u...

Juvenile scorpionfish...

big bro...

i kpt tinking last wk if he cld 've avoided tt accident if certain things changed...

den i saw nee's blog on gg bk in time & changing things...i wldnt b who i m rite now if things had changed...

things happen 4 a reason...& smehow we've juz got 2 learn & appreciate wat we've now...

i wld miss him...a big bro...thk u...

i'm feeling much beta now...i tink i pretty much sorted out my thoughts & feelings...

i still feel sad tt he's gone...but like every1 says he's probably in a beta place rite now...

may u rest in peace...

he passsed away.. so sudden.. i dun even know how i felt when i rec e sms.. he's sme1 not unfamiliar.. but neither sme1 i'm v close wif... but i knew abt his family.. i rememb e words o encouragement.. i remembered him as a big bro 2 me.. i didnt attend his wake...partly cos i dunno any1 else...i only know him.. & also cos i know i wld not b able 2 hold bk tears... his funeral is 2day...

i had e urge 2 sms him...2 juz make sure tt all these were not dreams or juz sme mistakes...

he was part o my life during my 1st yr o work...

when he was not making any contacts i tot he was not doin his job & i had plans 2 change agent...den i found out tt he was actually down wif sme life-threatening illness during e time he went "missing"...

tis time...i haven even had e chance 2 tell him tt i've started on a new job...i rec news o his death on my 1st day o work...

tell me how i shld feel...

up close....

e chelidonura....



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e spotted hyselodoris, wif e zoom-in below...



obsolete chromodoris, wif a zoom-in shot...

features of magnificent..

tis is e magnificent chromodoris..notice e 1 below has retracted its gills..and e thing trailing is called the foot...

more common nudis..

these r e more common nudibranchs...however they r v diff...each 1 has their own unique color & pattern...

i tink tis is a variscose phyllidia...



these 3 are pustulose phyllidiella...





tis 1 look like e above..but also look like liz's phyllidiella...or mayb it's a baby pustulose phyllidiella..

jancy jancy

hey jan...

thks 4 e compliments 4 e pics...but my hm com cd reader sth wrong...alot o my pics in cds cant b read...when i get laptop fr hao nian den i'll try 2 send pics 2 u..;p

Nudis of AUR....

The most exciting pair of nudibranchs we saw...initially i tot it was such a big & long nudibranch!! haha..den HN pointed out tt it was actually 2...hahaha.. i read e bk, it says tt it's actually foreplay 4 nudibranchs..tailgating, b4 mating..=) tis pair o nudibranchs are called Tryon's Risbecia...



This is the magnificent chromodoris...quite a big fellow we've here...



this fellow here is also sth new...it's a lined nembrotha...



tis is much-desired flabellina...it's really v small..& perched rite on top a a rock/reef...



tis miniature thing, around 1.5-2cm long is a spotted hypselodoris..2 small, e macro feature in e camera cant take it so close-up...



obsolete chromodoris...i tink it's a baby..small little thing hiding under e reefs..



these 2 creatures r e most amazing things...they look really weird!! they r not actually nudibranchs...they r part o e family o optisbranch...they r sme sort o chelidonura...they're not featured in e nudibranch ID book tt HN has....

aur...

Back to Aur again..a different feeling...e place has bec more run-down...but still it was a haven for those wanting 2 escape from reality...

E sea was barren...a real pity...

but as always... E worst day diving is better den e best day working....

quite a reward in tis trip cos saw a lot o nudibranch...& there were 2 pairs 2gether..usu only singles...;p

& e camera-woman 4 e day was ME...haha...a lot o e pics were quite blur actually..haha...but e flabellina was a great shot...haha..lucky only la...haha...

my 2nd resignation tis yr....

i finally mademy decision....

$$$ is still more impt...

梦里能找到自己吧。。

为什么长大了烦恼会越来越多呢???懂得越多是不是烦恼就越多???很累了可是就是不想睡。。。头都麻痹了。。。看到大家都忙着很重要的事。。。我好像好浪费时间。。。

我有好多东西想讲。。。可是又不知要讲什么。。。终觉得自己会浪费人家的时间。。。我的时间好像一点价值都没有。。。要的只是别人的肯定。。。有那么难吗???有时真的好像自私一点。。。不要想那么多。。。对自己好一点。。。不要理会别人的看法。。。可是办不到。。。这就是自己。。。

终觉得自己被埋在深深的谎言里。。。一个自己编造出来的自己。。。到底自己跑去哪儿了。。。

觉得他应该会是个很不错的老板。。。可是我觉得我一定不会是个优秀的员工。。。

该睡了。。。可能在梦里能找到自己吧。。

遗忘了的梦。。。

去了一个应征。。。它唤醒了我遗忘了的梦。。。我挣扎了。。。我惶了。。。我不知道该怎么办。。。一个好久以前的梦。。。我是否该去追逐呢。。。我是否还是想实现那个梦想呢。。。

去争取一个机会。。。梦想会不会实现、想不想实现， 以后才想吧。。。=)

是否你以忘了该怎么去爱了。。。

最近每天都忙着应征。。。那天和她吃饭。。。我突然好想去背包。。。好想一个人。。。

其实突然想blog，是因为这一个game。。。http://www.miniclip.com/games/loves-arrow/en/。。。

它让我有很多感触。。。当你忙着射箭时，有好多你想救的人以伤心的离去。。。你明明是想把爱给的人却错过。。。而刚好经过的却把爱拾走了。。。本想射下多点时间。。。可却浪费了更多的时间。。。

当你忙着时，是否忘了你身边的家人、朋友、爱人。。。是否你以忘了该怎么去爱了。。。