read somebody's blog juz now....she was commenting on how she sometimes feel tt she 1s 2 b hearing instead o not.....she wished her hearing friends cld use sign lang in front o her & other deaf pple, instead o juz shooting our mouths away w/o a care 4 them....
i can never know how it feels like 2 b deaf, so i cannot critise them or pretend tt i know how it feels like 2 b deaf....she put on her blog tt 2 experience deafness, we shld put ear-plugs in our ears 4 a week 2 get a feel. i really intend 2 do it, but i'm scared....n so i respect them 4 e courage 2 stay in our cruel hearing s'pore....
ever since i started to learn SEE 2 (Signing Exact English), i've more contact wif deaf pple than i used to. i respect them for who they are and in turn i tink they shld respect us for who we are. it's not tt we dun give a damn when we talk in front of them....signing is not easy & it does not come easily 2 us juz as talking does not come easily 4 them. i know it is rude 2 be talking none stop in front o them, but as human, we always have e tendancy 2 b lazy, talking is easier than signing, so we juz talk....
sign lang is juz like any other lang. u need 2 practise in order 2 b gd at it. i admit i totally suck at sign lang! i know i dun put 100% in it but i'm trying as hard as i can manange now.....
e 1st time tt i met my friend's bf fr UK, i was so used 2 speaking 2 my friend in Chinese tt i totally 4got abt using english in front o him.....but now, as i've more interaction wif him, i do use more english then i used 2 wif my friend. however, sometimes i still revert 2 using chinese. this is similar 2 speaking in front o deaf pple i guess.....i've been so used 2 speaking tt i juz use spoken lang instead o signed lang....n i'm very clumsy wif using signed lang.....
i hope tt if there r any deaf pple who's reading my blog, pls dun get offended when hearing pple talk none stop in front o u. juz as u wld use sign lang among ur deaf friends in front o hearing ppple, we use spoken lang among our hearing friends in front o u....
lastly 2 every1 esp 2 hearing pple, pls do respect e deaf! deaf pple r still human & they can achieve anything & do anything (except hear but some can still hear a little). in our ever short-sighted society, e least tt any1 can do is 2 respect pple 4 who they r. i dun tink i'm perfect, & no1 in e world is, so try 2 exercise tolerance & a little patience. smile no matter how lousy u feel. i 4got which psychology theory tt is, but when u do e physical action o an emotion (eg, emotion=happy, action=smile), u'll actually experience tt emotion! so when u frown, u'll feel sad/angry. so y not juz smile??? it takes less muscle 2 do & u'll b living a longer life then!
dear dear i'm running really late 4 my tkd class!!! got 2 stop....
Wednesday, June 30, 2004
sore throat.....
having a sore throat rite now....& aching all over after mon's hardworking kickboxing....feeling terrible....missed lunch wif snow, sorry snow!!! a bit caught up wif some work.....do lunch again another time??? sms me when u'll b free!
drinking coke wif salt 2 ease my throat....this has always helped, hopefully will work wonders again tis time.....
btw last nite's blackout, i didn't really get 2 experience it....was passing by nicole highway when e lights there suddenly went out! i tot must have got something 2 do wif e nicole highway reconstruction.....got 2 lavender mrt, there was lights so didn't tink much but my mum called & told me tt there was a blackout at my home in jurong west also...was wondering wat happened, 1st tot tt went across my mind was terrorist attack....
was in e mrt & all was lights...even when e mrt was abovegrd, there was still lights...so i tot e extent wasn't 2 bad....swing sms me & told me tt her place in clementi blacked out also....by e time tt i reach clementi, there was light....only when i got 2 chinese garden then i saw all e blocks w/o lights....got off at lakeside, went 2 cheers 2 get lozenges 4 my sis, by e time i got out, e lights were back on oredi! but the traffic lights were faulty at e road junction....didn't have much trouble crossing e roads....so i didn't get 2 expereince e blackout at all....haizzzz....
drinking coke wif salt 2 ease my throat....this has always helped, hopefully will work wonders again tis time.....
btw last nite's blackout, i didn't really get 2 experience it....was passing by nicole highway when e lights there suddenly went out! i tot must have got something 2 do wif e nicole highway reconstruction.....got 2 lavender mrt, there was lights so didn't tink much but my mum called & told me tt there was a blackout at my home in jurong west also...was wondering wat happened, 1st tot tt went across my mind was terrorist attack....
was in e mrt & all was lights...even when e mrt was abovegrd, there was still lights...so i tot e extent wasn't 2 bad....swing sms me & told me tt her place in clementi blacked out also....by e time tt i reach clementi, there was light....only when i got 2 chinese garden then i saw all e blocks w/o lights....got off at lakeside, went 2 cheers 2 get lozenges 4 my sis, by e time i got out, e lights were back on oredi! but the traffic lights were faulty at e road junction....didn't have much trouble crossing e roads....so i didn't get 2 expereince e blackout at all....haizzzz....
Monday, June 28, 2004
my dinner....
eating cereal 4 dinner again.....actually i kind o miss my mum's home-cooked food...but dun have e time 2 go home & eat b4 gg 4 all my activities...i guess i'm pretty lucky tt my mum cooks every nite but not appreciative enough 2 go home & eat....how unfilial can i get.....haizzz....anyway juz complaining anyway, tt's wat i do best i guess....haizzz.....
getting old???
haizzzz....another friend getting married soon....how come pple r getting married so young these days??? i tot e govt was worried abt e late marriage age & e ever increasing singlehood??? seems tt pple r getting married younger & younger.....cld tis b y there is an increase in divorce???
i guess i'm kind o a committment-freak.....i dun tink i can settle down rite now.....some1 did asked me if i'm easily bored...i tink i m....i juz cannot std doing something 4 e rest o my life but at e same time i fear change 2....wat a dilemma.....
i really cannot imagine myself getting married....or mayb i haven met e rite person....haizzzz.....i also hope i can meet some1 who will cherish me & me 4 him....but i tink i'll most prob not b 2 faithful....how do u love some1 4ever??? i guess u can, esp 2 ur family......dilemma again...
y m i always in a dilemma???? m i juz 2 free.....haizzzz.....dun tink so much la....concentrate on work...boss is back but i haven contacted her & she haven contacted me....i guess she must b still in her honeymoon mood.......oh yeah, my boss also juz got married.....c, every1 ard me getting married.....& my mum keeps buzzing ard my ear telling me 2 find some1 soon......haizzzz......mums.........
e other time, my grp o friends were doing a mini-poll amongst ourselves. we were polling on who among us wld get married 1st & who will b e last...no prizes 4 guessing, i'm voted e last.....& in a online quiz on marriage age, i got e result tt i'll remain a spinster or will marry at a very very late age....i tink i'm fated 2 remain single......
i guess i'm kind o a committment-freak.....i dun tink i can settle down rite now.....some1 did asked me if i'm easily bored...i tink i m....i juz cannot std doing something 4 e rest o my life but at e same time i fear change 2....wat a dilemma.....
i really cannot imagine myself getting married....or mayb i haven met e rite person....haizzzz.....i also hope i can meet some1 who will cherish me & me 4 him....but i tink i'll most prob not b 2 faithful....how do u love some1 4ever??? i guess u can, esp 2 ur family......dilemma again...
y m i always in a dilemma???? m i juz 2 free.....haizzzz.....dun tink so much la....concentrate on work...boss is back but i haven contacted her & she haven contacted me....i guess she must b still in her honeymoon mood.......oh yeah, my boss also juz got married.....c, every1 ard me getting married.....& my mum keeps buzzing ard my ear telling me 2 find some1 soon......haizzzz......mums.........
e other time, my grp o friends were doing a mini-poll amongst ourselves. we were polling on who among us wld get married 1st & who will b e last...no prizes 4 guessing, i'm voted e last.....& in a online quiz on marriage age, i got e result tt i'll remain a spinster or will marry at a very very late age....i tink i'm fated 2 remain single......
Friday, June 25, 2004
tt some1....
actually i've been tinking abt y i miss him so much then....i guess it was cos o e period tt i met him.....
actually i dun know him at all....not even his name.....he was working in NUS while i was still studying then....i always go 2 tis particular bench 2 study, & he always passed by e bench 2 get 2 e lift 2 go 2 e general office. almost everyday i see him.....i dun even know if he knew i was there....
there was once when i was in e lift wif him.... i got into e lift at e last min & he was a little stunned when i got in...mayb it was juz cos i dashed into e lift 2 suddenly...i was gg 2 go 2 e 3rd floor while he was gg 2 e 4th. i was standing in front o him, & when e lift door open at e 3rd floor, he actually walked out 2gather wif me, then he realised he was on e wrong floor, & walked back 2 e lift, a little flushed....hahaha....shldn't tink 2 much into it, pple always have tis tendancy anywayz.....
that was my undergrad life....how i miss it actually.....working really is becoming really mundane......
actually i dun know him at all....not even his name.....he was working in NUS while i was still studying then....i always go 2 tis particular bench 2 study, & he always passed by e bench 2 get 2 e lift 2 go 2 e general office. almost everyday i see him.....i dun even know if he knew i was there....
there was once when i was in e lift wif him.... i got into e lift at e last min & he was a little stunned when i got in...mayb it was juz cos i dashed into e lift 2 suddenly...i was gg 2 go 2 e 3rd floor while he was gg 2 e 4th. i was standing in front o him, & when e lift door open at e 3rd floor, he actually walked out 2gather wif me, then he realised he was on e wrong floor, & walked back 2 e lift, a little flushed....hahaha....shldn't tink 2 much into it, pple always have tis tendancy anywayz.....
that was my undergrad life....how i miss it actually.....working really is becoming really mundane......
Thursday, June 24, 2004
have u ever miss some1 so much....
as i was walking ard ntu 2day, a feeling came over me...ntu is very deserted now cos o e holidays & e weather 2day....makes me very emotional....
i remember e very 1st time when i had a hell o a lot o trouble when i 1st start on my job in ntu....my computer crashed & all my data was not saved! i was all alone wif no1 2 turn 2 cos it was over working hours & i cld not get any1 2 come down 2 help.....i was so down & out.....then i decided i shld juz go home & rest & worry abt it e next day instead.....as i was walking 2 e bus-stop....i saw some1 walking towards me, 4 a split sec i tot he was him......but i knew it cld never be him.....suddenly the song "Miss u finally" by trademark started 2 play in my head then.....i really really miss him......i didn't realise i actually miss him.....y m i missing him.....i really dun know.....i dun even know where he is rite now....i guess he must b overseas rite now...dun know if he's back......2 many dun knows......i guess i shld juz 4get abt him.....no pt in missing some1 who dun even know ur existence....mayb he does.......mayb..............
i remember e very 1st time when i had a hell o a lot o trouble when i 1st start on my job in ntu....my computer crashed & all my data was not saved! i was all alone wif no1 2 turn 2 cos it was over working hours & i cld not get any1 2 come down 2 help.....i was so down & out.....then i decided i shld juz go home & rest & worry abt it e next day instead.....as i was walking 2 e bus-stop....i saw some1 walking towards me, 4 a split sec i tot he was him......but i knew it cld never be him.....suddenly the song "Miss u finally" by trademark started 2 play in my head then.....i really really miss him......i didn't realise i actually miss him.....y m i missing him.....i really dun know.....i dun even know where he is rite now....i guess he must b overseas rite now...dun know if he's back......2 many dun knows......i guess i shld juz 4get abt him.....no pt in missing some1 who dun even know ur existence....mayb he does.......mayb..............
something 2 cry abt...
Read joyce's blog juz now.....her grandpa juz passed away.....i get very emotional whenever i tink abt my own ah kong.....he passed away some 10 yrs ago when i was in secondary school....he died of cancer....i didn't visit him as regularly as i shld....mayb i was afraid o looking at him.....so weak, so painful 2 c him.....i remember i visited him a week b4 he passed away....by tt time, he cld hardly recognise any1 but strangely he remembered me then....during e whole o e funeral i didn't cry much until e last day when he was 2 b buried, tears juz keep flowing & they juz wldn't stop.....mayb it was a relief 2 him & those taking care o him tt he went away.....
now whenever i feel sad & need 2 cry, i'll tink abt my ah kong & e tears will juz flow....
something creepy 2 tell every1....u know how pple always say tt pple come back on e 7th day after their death??? i tink my ah kong came back 2....4 my own personal experience, he came back on e 5th day, e day ttt he was buried. after he was buried, i was really really tired, & i went 2 bed immediately after all e things were completed. so in e middle o e nite, i woke up but i didn't open my eyes cos i felt some1 look over me & my sisters (my sisters & i share the same room).....e feeling was so intense! but in my heart, i felt it was my ah kong, so i told him in my heart tt i'm gg 2 open my eyes & pls dun scare me......thank gdness there wasn't any1 ard but tt feeling is something i can never 4get....
on the 7th day, i didn't expereince anything but my brother & my relatives did....my bro heard e sound o chains outside our front door, & in e morning when my mom opened e rice bin, she saw a palm print on e rice.....weird????
4 my relatives, they all squeezed into my ah kong's home & slept over 4 e nite on e 7th nite. my aunt said she heard some1 making e coffee in e kitchen (my ah kong loves coffee). she tried peeking into e kitchen but there was nothing....there was all kinds o different sound tt nite but they didn't c anything.....
i guess fr a psychological perspective, it's in our subconscious tt we expect something 2 happen, & e noises tt we heard may juz b some lizard or cockroach creeping ard.....as 4 e palm print, i guess it cld have been left behind when my mom use the rice e day b4......
but anyhow, joyce, hope u r taking it well. no doubt u'll b sad, i'm still sad more than 10yrs, but do take care o urself!
i guess it's really hard 2 let some1 go esp if they r never gg 2 come back....but they'll always stay in ur heart.....do cherish everyday & every1 u never know when they might leave u.....
now whenever i feel sad & need 2 cry, i'll tink abt my ah kong & e tears will juz flow....
something creepy 2 tell every1....u know how pple always say tt pple come back on e 7th day after their death??? i tink my ah kong came back 2....4 my own personal experience, he came back on e 5th day, e day ttt he was buried. after he was buried, i was really really tired, & i went 2 bed immediately after all e things were completed. so in e middle o e nite, i woke up but i didn't open my eyes cos i felt some1 look over me & my sisters (my sisters & i share the same room).....e feeling was so intense! but in my heart, i felt it was my ah kong, so i told him in my heart tt i'm gg 2 open my eyes & pls dun scare me......thank gdness there wasn't any1 ard but tt feeling is something i can never 4get....
on the 7th day, i didn't expereince anything but my brother & my relatives did....my bro heard e sound o chains outside our front door, & in e morning when my mom opened e rice bin, she saw a palm print on e rice.....weird????
4 my relatives, they all squeezed into my ah kong's home & slept over 4 e nite on e 7th nite. my aunt said she heard some1 making e coffee in e kitchen (my ah kong loves coffee). she tried peeking into e kitchen but there was nothing....there was all kinds o different sound tt nite but they didn't c anything.....
i guess fr a psychological perspective, it's in our subconscious tt we expect something 2 happen, & e noises tt we heard may juz b some lizard or cockroach creeping ard.....as 4 e palm print, i guess it cld have been left behind when my mom use the rice e day b4......
but anyhow, joyce, hope u r taking it well. no doubt u'll b sad, i'm still sad more than 10yrs, but do take care o urself!
i guess it's really hard 2 let some1 go esp if they r never gg 2 come back....but they'll always stay in ur heart.....do cherish everyday & every1 u never know when they might leave u.....
Wednesday, June 23, 2004
constant tot on my mind....
everyday i come into my office, staring at e computer i've only 1 tot on my mind...WAT E HELL M I DOING WIF MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
same tot now as i write my blog.....
some1 once suggested tt i shld go get a bf, then life wld not b as how i see now....it's not tt i dun 1 2 get a bf but where is he??? i dun disagree tt i'm choosy but there juz doesn't seem 2 b any1 ard....pls god, pls send me some1 soon!!!!
same tot now as i write my blog.....
some1 once suggested tt i shld go get a bf, then life wld not b as how i see now....it's not tt i dun 1 2 get a bf but where is he??? i dun disagree tt i'm choosy but there juz doesn't seem 2 b any1 ard....pls god, pls send me some1 soon!!!!
Tuesday, June 22, 2004
blood donation
Has any1 donated blood b4? is it very painful??? i'm tinking o donating blood but kind o scared.......
shang heng lei lei
if u guys c me these few days dun b surprised by all e bruises & cuts tt i've got....during e dragonboat race last sat, i slipped & got cuts & bruises all over!!! e bruises didn't show up until ytd & 2day they look much much worse!!!
here's a description: i've a cut on my left palm, a small indentation where e flesh came off, the whole wound is approx 2cm long...but healed oredi but painfully if u press it...2 big bruises on my left leg, 1 3cm*3cm big wif little scratches, e other 5cm*3cm....2 small but very painfully bruises on my right leg....scratches on my right foot but no blood cos e heel's skin 2 thick....but my left heel very bad..super disgusting, e skin still intact cos i dun dare 2 cut it away...my left big toe, got a bruise & e 1/3 nail half broken but still attached, blood inside....thank goodness i'm pretty tan, so e bruises dun know tt prominent....pple must tink i was in some kind o fight.....
hopefully recover soon else difficult 2 go 4 all o my lessons.....
btw snow can u dun decribe me as some1 who always threaten 2 stab u wif pilot v5??? else pple will start tinking o me as some kind o pervert or soemthing......
here's a description: i've a cut on my left palm, a small indentation where e flesh came off, the whole wound is approx 2cm long...but healed oredi but painfully if u press it...2 big bruises on my left leg, 1 3cm*3cm big wif little scratches, e other 5cm*3cm....2 small but very painfully bruises on my right leg....scratches on my right foot but no blood cos e heel's skin 2 thick....but my left heel very bad..super disgusting, e skin still intact cos i dun dare 2 cut it away...my left big toe, got a bruise & e 1/3 nail half broken but still attached, blood inside....thank goodness i'm pretty tan, so e bruises dun know tt prominent....pple must tink i was in some kind o fight.....
hopefully recover soon else difficult 2 go 4 all o my lessons.....
btw snow can u dun decribe me as some1 who always threaten 2 stab u wif pilot v5??? else pple will start tinking o me as some kind o pervert or soemthing......
say something nice....
juz read a friend's blog....it was abt e book called The Five People You Meet in Heaven....moral o e story, never tink tt u r not impt...
e other day at snow's bday party, jancy told me tt i inspired her, i never knew tt i cld, & tt made me very happy.....i told jancy tt my sign lang instructor also inspired me a lot, i shld make it a pt 2 tell him also....e little act o telling some1 tt u appreciate wat they did is something which mayb may mean nothing 2 u but it may mean e world 2 them....so take e opportunity 2 tell them so b4 it's 2 late!
e other day at snow's bday party, jancy told me tt i inspired her, i never knew tt i cld, & tt made me very happy.....i told jancy tt my sign lang instructor also inspired me a lot, i shld make it a pt 2 tell him also....e little act o telling some1 tt u appreciate wat they did is something which mayb may mean nothing 2 u but it may mean e world 2 them....so take e opportunity 2 tell them so b4 it's 2 late!
Monday, June 21, 2004
wat e hell m i doing wif my life.....
Hi snow & jancy!!!! finally got my own blog up.....2 damned bored & fed-up wif life in my miserable little office wif no windows, so decided 2 create e blog thing tt both o u have been encouragin gme 2 do.....
dun know wat 2 write now.....
ok, i'll explain how my nick came abt....
Snow's e 1 who gave me e nick o bionic woman cos i exercise more than 5 times a week....i've kickboxing lessons, taekwondo, pilates, cardiomix, swimming, & dragonboat trainings...so tt's y he gave me e nick....but i felt tt i'm not yet a woman so i decided 2 put it as bionic girl instead...
wonder y i've so many activities??? it's cos life is really boring & time really flies...if i dun do anything, i feel like i'm wasting my life away...i've oredi wasted so much time & i dun 1 2 falter my life away anymore.....but somehow, i'm still wasting my life away now.........
shld stop writing now, havem done serious work ever since my boss went on leave 3 weeks ago...she's coming back next week, betta get some work done else cannot answer......
dun know wat 2 write now.....
ok, i'll explain how my nick came abt....
Snow's e 1 who gave me e nick o bionic woman cos i exercise more than 5 times a week....i've kickboxing lessons, taekwondo, pilates, cardiomix, swimming, & dragonboat trainings...so tt's y he gave me e nick....but i felt tt i'm not yet a woman so i decided 2 put it as bionic girl instead...
wonder y i've so many activities??? it's cos life is really boring & time really flies...if i dun do anything, i feel like i'm wasting my life away...i've oredi wasted so much time & i dun 1 2 falter my life away anymore.....but somehow, i'm still wasting my life away now.........
shld stop writing now, havem done serious work ever since my boss went on leave 3 weeks ago...she's coming back next week, betta get some work done else cannot answer......
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