thank you baby...

從來沒想過會對他動心，但他卻走進了我的心中…那是一種從未有過的心跳，就好像童話中所敘述的一樣，而我卻比別人幸運的遇見了幸福… (quoted from 花樣少年少女 )

toto...

uncle patrick..lucky toto no.s 4 u ah...zhong le ji de bao ke hong bao gai wo..hahhaa

2, 3, 4, 23, 24, 34, 42

fall in love...

never lose sight of why u fall in love in the 1st place....

thk u 4 e advice... i really needed tt...

4D。。。

给大家一个真字。。。我的手机号码。。。这几个星期一直有人打错电话。。。朋友啦、strangers 啦。。。都打到我的手机。。。大家买买看吧。。。中了记得请我吃饭啊。。。

稀不稀罕。。。

最后一天是23号。。。真的很希望快点到。。。可是RAs说这样很可惜。。。因为我的心血就快有回报了。。。我不该在这时候放弃。。。我并不觉得可惜。。。可是就如RA 说的，一定要给big potato看到我做的。。。我知道她一定会fight for my name 2 b on e end product。。。我现在正在考虑该不该多留一个月，present 2 EXCO。。。可能他们都不稀罕。。。

天涯海角。。。

梦想拥有天涯海角。。。可惜TOTO没有中。。。好像是个很难实现的梦想。。。真的要好好的计划一下。。。research 一下。。。这样就知道每个月该存多少钱。。。该朝这个梦想前进吧。。。

Slow Down Culture

Food for thought- Slow Down Culture

An interesting reflection : Slow Down Culture

It's been 18 years since I joined Volvo, a Swedish company. Working for them has proven to be an interesting experience. Any project here takes 2 years to be finalized, even if the idea is simple and brilliant. It's a rule.

Globalize processes have caused in us (all over the world) a general sense of searching for immediate results. Therefore, we have come to posses aneed to see immediate results. This contrasts greatly with the slow movements of the Swedish. They, on the other hand, debate, debate, debate, hold x quantity of meetings and work with a slowdown scheme. At the end, this always yields better results.

Said in another words:

1. Sweden is about the size of San Pablo, a state in Brazil.

2. Sweden has 2 million inhabitants.

3. Stockholm, has 500,000 people.

4. Volvo, Escania, Ericsson, Electrolux, Nokia are some of its renowned companies. Volvo supplies the NASA.

The first time I was in Sweden, one of my colleagues picked me up at the hotel every morning. It was September, bit cold and snowy. We would arrive early at the company and he would park far away from the entrance (2000 employees drive their car to work). The first day, I didn't say anything, either the second or third. One morning I asked, "Do you have a fixed parking space? I've noticed we park far from the entrance even when there are no other cars in the lot." To which he replied, "Since we're here early we'll have time to walk, and whoever gets in late will be late and need a place closer to the door. Don't you think? Imagine my face.

Nowadays, there's a movement in Europe name Slow Food. This movement establishes that people should eat and drink slowly, with enough time to taste their food, spend time with the family, friends, without rushing. Slow Food is against its counterpart: the spirit of Fast Food and what it stands for as a lifestyle. Slow Food is the basis for a bigger movement called Slow Europe, as mentioned by Business Week.

Basically, the movement questions the sense of "hurry" and "craziness" generated by globalization, fueled by the desire of "having in quantity" (life status) versus "having with quality", "life quality" or the "qualityof being". French people, even though they work 35 hours per week, are more productive than Americans or British. Germans have established 28.8 hour work weeks and have seen their productivity been driven up by 20%. This slow attitude has brought forth the US's attention, pupils of the fast and the "do it now!".

This no-rush attitude doesn't represent doing less or having a lower productivity. It means working and doing things with greater quality, productivity, perfection, with attention to detail and less stress. It means reestablishing family values, friends, free and leisure time. Taking the "now", present and concrete, versus the "global", undefined and anonymous. It means taking humans' essential values, the simplicity of living.

It stands for a less coercive work environment, more happy, lighter and more productive where humans enjoy doing what they know best how to do. It's time to stop and think on how companies need to develop serious quality with no-rush that will increase productivity and the quality of products and services, without losing the essence of spirit.

In the movie, Scent of a Woman, there's a scene where Al Pacino asks a girl to dance and she replies, "I can't, my boyfriend will be here any minute now". To which Al responds, "A life is lived in an instant". Then they dance to a tango.

Many of us live our lives running behind time, but we only reach it when we die of a heart attack or in a car accident rushing to be on time. Others are so anxious of living the future that they forget to live the present,which is the only time that truly exists. We all have equal time throughout the world. No one has more or less. The difference lies in how each one ofus does with our time. We need to live each moment. As John Lennon said,"Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans".

Congratulations for reading till the end of this message. There are many who will have stopped in the middle so as not to waste time in this globalized world.

第一次丢信。。。

终于，letter写好了。。心里不知为什么会难过。。是应为长长的假期过了。。还是舍不得。。又或许是终于离开了comfort zone。。

我有想要怎么开口。。可是最终她不在。。Email了她，把信放在桌子。。想到她可能会training后pop back 2 office，是有点不知所措。。。

第一次丢信。。。真的不简单。。。

office 里没有人会想到我会丢吧。。。Or mayb they know？？？

HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR...

another new yr...so fast...it's oredi into march oredi...1/4 o e yr...tt's so fast...so scary....

我的期限是26 Feb。。。

可能是大家都应为她的离去，开始想死亡。。。或许是自己舍不得离开。。。又或许是刚刚开始读Mitch Albom 的Tuesdays wif Morrie。。。又或则是自己没有像以前那么健康了，开始担心。。。又可能是自己本来就是TTM 掌门人。。。

当我终于给自己一个期限时，我真的是觉得很开心。。。好像是终于可以解放似的。。。我可以了解为何G当时会在一夜之间做决定。。。她也是痛苦了廷久的吧。。。

我真的写得很烂吗？？？我从来都不觉得。。。可是这里让我觉得自己很烂。。。不止一次。。。我觉定不要再让人家为难自己，不要他们让自己觉一文不止。。。

我不知道是不是冲动。。。可能、或许、有可能。。。Anyway。。。我的期限是26 Feb。。。

music 4 e beach

we r gg bintan...like a long time never rest & relax...bum on e beach...

any1 got any songs/mp3 which is great 4 beach getaway??? i've got beach boys kokomo...any other songs ah???

dreams...

seriously i cant really rememb any...i know theoretically every1 will dream when they slp...but i dunno if i'm really tt tired...most o e nites i dun recall any dreams at alll...so i was really "surprised" tt jan cld have so many dreams...do u log down all ur dreams jan??

e result is out...

i went 2 e doc...waited 4 >2hrs... it kinda o stupid tt they fix appt 4 u, but they dun kp their time...when u r late 4 e appt, they qn u non-stop...WTF... if u fixed it at 415pm, jolly well let me c my doc at 415 la...y do i nd 2 wait till 630??? & it's a mere 10mins conversation wif e doc, smetimes it takes barely 5mins...nx time pls fix me appt at 630 den....

anyway, mri result was out...there was absolutely nth wrong wif my left hip joint..it was in perfect condition!!!!! shld i b happy??? at least i spend 400 bucks 2 know tt it's ok, despite e fact tt it has a dull ache 4 > 1 yr.... so i asked e doc y...

he said it definitely ruled out e suspicion tt he had earlier tt i had a tear in e skin o e ligament...it cld most prob b becos o my back which cld prob had been a slight slipped disc, pressing on sme nerves hence e dull ache...

it was all prob tis prob tt...i had tt speech fr e docs 4 >1 yr....

i told him i experience ache in my knee & my back also... he asked which was more serious...both were equally so...den he asked y i never associate e 2 prob as 1?

cos in e beginning, i didnt experience any pain in both areas....i only had tis dull ache tt doesnt go away in my left hip joint... tt was when i decided 2 go 2 e doc....& tt was when i decided 2 stop my tkd...& tt was also when i decided 2 relax a bit fr my dragonboat...

i had an x-ray done...nth was wrong wif e hip...but cos i had tis shoulder ache which comes on when i'm extremely tired 4 like countless years, since i'm doing e x-ray i might as well do it on my shoulder also...& tt is where they found tt my neck/spine has "degenerative" symptoms....watever tt means...

so i was referred 2 nuh...

as e hip joint wasnt serious, they concentrated on my shoulders, wif physio 4 my hip joint occasionally...

i was doing pretty ok...except e hip joint didnt heal...didnt get worse but was still there...

i went bk 2 e doc 4 review...e doc say it was ok, asked me 2 continue physio, which i didnt cos it was taking 2 much time...i was getting more & more inactive...except wif e occasion db race...

den i started 2 get tis numbness in my left knee when i start >20mins in e train...i wasnt particularly bothered cos i tot mayb i was juz standing 2 long...

den i got stiff back whenever i sat 2 long in off....& e knee prob got worse...i went bk 2 e doc (a new doc was seeing me now, they dun 've a fixed doc...whoever was e registrar will b e 1 u c) after they postponed it like 4 3mths...

i was so caught up wif work tt i didnt really bother tt e appt was postponed 4 so long...i juz endured e pain & did stretching (which didnt help much..)...hip joint prob was again ignored... concentration was put on e back which was giving quite a lot o trouble...

physio again....started 2 get beta....den i missed 1 physio cos i was sick...e stupid phone was always engaged when i tried 2 fix another appt 4 my physio...so i gave up....since i was getting a bit beta, i decided 2 exercise on my own...& e therapist suggested tt i do my pilates/yoga 2 strengthed my back...i went jogging...twice in tt wk...which was a mistake....my backache became so bad...& since i was gg 2 c e doc i decided 2 give myself a break...

bk 2 e doc...a new doc again... he asked how i was... back still aches & it was really bad when i jog...so he asked me 2 go bk 4 my physio...he asked me 2 go 4 a bk x-ray 1st & he was gg 2 refer me 2 e spinal dept...i complained 2 him abt my hip joint....& tt was when i had 2 go 4 my mri...

1 more appt wif e spinal dept in feb...if they still dunno wat is wrong...i'm really not sure wat i'm gg 2 do... i'm getting really fed-up...

MRI...

i'm gg 4 my MRI tmr... a bit apprehensive...a few days ago den i found out tt nd 2 have intravenous injection b4 e scan... all in all it'll take ard 2hrs 4 everything... haizzz...consoling myself tt i'll finally get 2 know wat is happening...

but still...i wldnt know e results cos my nx appt is in jan, only den wld e doc tell me wat is wrong...so i'm still in e unknown....haizzz....

慢慢自杀。。。

这几个星期来， 心情都不是很好。。。可能是因为生病， 而且不知道是不是吃了antibiotics， 脸和劲部有很多一粒一粒的。。。到现在还有。。。很 烦。。。一点心情都没有。。。

昨天，回去复诊。。。As usual，医生说没什么大挨。。。需要continue physio。。。haizzz。。。一年 了，原因还是不确定。。。因为back 没有好， doc 说 最好照 脊椎x-ray。。。ok，照了。。。我问他为什么我的hip joint 一直没有好。。。 他也不知道。。。说了说，最后他说做MRI scan，maybe 可以find out if the skin o e ligament is torn。。。it was e most probable cause o e constant dull ache in my hip joint。。。haizzz。。。我好伤心。。。OK， juz go 4 e scan 2 find out loh。。。

走出医院，我好伤心。。。有一种不想再做任何事，让“病情”恶化到死掉算了。。。爽快的死了好过想这样。。。so super annoying。。。

当时只想回家。。。一到家，一个人也不在。。。突然很想哭。。。



我现在了解为什么人会自杀。。。

shld i go 2 e doc if i kp getting dizzy spells??? is it work & lack o slp???

=))

i finally changed my blog appearance...after more den 2 yrs....ahhahaa...blogging is no longer e same nowadays...at least compared 2 2 yrs ago...mayb i've changed...

did i mention tt i met my insurance agent b4 i left 4 europe??? i haven seen him 4 almost a yr or 2...e 1 thing i rememb most abt tt mtg was tt he mentioned tt i'm no longer e little girl he used 2 know...i'm no longer e carefree person who always tot o e best o everything...is it bad???

i really dunno where tt self o me had gone 2...i really miss it...i dunno...i really really miss tt...

i 1 2 go out 2nite...2 vent my frustrations away at e machines...

i guess DYM coming...mood in e dumps...

New Year Resolutions

long time never update my blog...busy wif my new venture...sth which i've always 1ed 2 do..but never got down 2 doing..mayb we can really do sth...a lot o time wasted on discussion & watching tv...hahah...but i tink we r really gg places...even though we r not earning much profit...but i tink we will soon...

1ed 2 start my exercise regime but really no time 2...evenings r filled wif dinners, venture discussions & sourcing 4 ideas & stuff...& also mtg wif financial planner..my finances r in a mess...3 yrs o working, i haven even save much...i really nd 2 start sth...or else how 2 sustain my travelling passion & my new venture if i really decide 2 quit...

another thing which has been popping up these few mths is my mom's incessant hints o getting a flat..hmmm...

i'm barely 26..crossing tt in a few days, but really it's a bit premature...dunno la...it's not sth tt has not cross my mind b4, but not w/n these few yrs..

& my colic's constant reminder tt it's always beta 2 have sme1 2 wake up 2...she's a v nice colic..who looks out 4 me, & constantly reminding me tt he is a really nice guy...

we'll get things done 1 by 1 ok???

resolution 4 e nx yr..2 get my advance in diving...2 mayb get my driving license???2 finally plan sth 4 my further studies...& properly my new venture 2 prosper...

a little 2 early 4 resolution???it's never 2 early 2 dream 1 guess....

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