responsibilities.....

i know as u grow older, u've more & more responsibilities....i know it's inevitable....but really...i really dun 1 it.....tt's y i tink i'll never b a gd daughter, girlfriend or a mother.....i know i run whenever i sense committment.....e past few days made me tink more...even though i was in a concussed state most o e time......i'm irresponsible & i admit.....but i'm not doing anything abt it.....i dun 1 2 do anything abt it.....i 1 others 2 b responsible 4 me but at e same time i'm afraid when pple respond 2 gd 2 me cos i know i need 2 b responsible 2 them.....

i was disappointed then cos i really dunno y u acted tt way.....i tot every1 1ed 2 've fun 2gather....i tot it was gg 2 b a great time 4 u as well as 4 me....i know pple change....i dun blame them & i dun 've a choice anyway....i change 2....there had been many time b4 when i felt disappointed....i must admit.....but i know tt not everything comes as wat ur heart 1s....so i learn 2 accept it & i grew tired......i went 2 other pastures but i found tt i still long 4 e same pasture more.....although e pasture may not b wat it used 2 b, i still cherish it at least up till tis very moment.....many things r inevitable, but how do u get used 2 it???? y must u get used 2 it???? do we always have 2 follow convention???? i dun 1 2 but i didn't put in effort 2 change anything.....e only excuse i can give is tt i'm tired & i'm lazy......

i dunno if i'm making any sense now cos i'm still concussed at tis moment.....my brain's a total blank & i'm juz typing away without much tot......i dunno if i'll offend any1 whether it'll change anything if at all.......

last conclusion.....e person i never say hi 2, i tink i'll never muster up e courage 2 say hi even if i meet him.....i dunno y but i know i wldn't.....i hope he says hi 1st cos i dun tink i'll unless he does it.....but y doesn't he say hi when he saw me???? i 1 2 know but i'm not doing anything......

problem wif me: i only tink i never do.....

concussed totally.....sleepy totally......lazy totally....