bintan 05.04.03 - 05.04.05

i 1ed 2 write tis blog entry in chinese actually but i'm in nie now...dunno how 2 use chinese here....didn't have time 2 blog ytd.....

i cried in e showers again ytd....i remembered very clearly e other time i did tt was in jc....after jj lost e volleyball game.....i wrote in my journal my feelings & torchic read it....she said she dun understd y i cried.....i was tinking abt it & i tink it's cos i felt bad.....or mayb i was very touched by e whole event & e more i tink abt it while i was in e showers, i cried....tt was probably it....

anyway bk 2 e bintan story.....i was walking home after tkd.....along e way i started 2 tink abt wat i shld b blogging....tinking as i walked....i felt e urge 2 cry.....as i passed by shuqun pri sch, i lifted my head 2 look at e stars....wah........there was a lot!!!!!!! but i've no idea wat constellation they belonged 2......

I cried…..we didn’t get 2 c stars at bintan, but tis trip I discovered smething more….a friendship tt I know I’m so fortunate 2 have…..

I cried at bintan….at e beach….not fr laughter….but a sense o contentment….a sense o being so fortunate……we didn’t c e stars but we saw more……e sometimes snow-like spectacle, & most times e most magical feel….i was mesmerized by e whole thing…..it looked like millions & millions o shooting stars….i made a wish….tt every1 wld b幸福.....cos I felt so幸福.....e rain started 2 get bigger….we decided 2 leave…..but we stopped at e shelter…..there…..it was more spectacular….every1 stood there 2gather…..i cld feel e body heat….warming not juz my body….but my heart…..i cried at tt pt….& I’m crying as I re-live tt moment…..

I dunno y but I’m so high during e 3 days……we didn’t do much things but I discovered smething much more…..i discovered tt 幸福原来是那么简单.....i didn’t hold any expectations b4 e trip…..i only 1ed 2 slack & do nothing…& I discovered tt I got more in return…..

I kept asking myself tis qn….y I’m so fortunate 2 have tis bunch o friends….i must have done a lot o gd deeds in my previous life!!!! & they r all here 2 return e favor in tis lifetime!!!!

Yes I’m gg 2 use my tagline: I’m not ugly, I’ve a gd family, I’ve a gd job, I dun ‘ve much 2 worry abt, I’ve a bunch o such gd friends, I’m really very 幸福......

Tis bunch o gals who in spite o my eye rolling reflex (& not 2 nice smelling s***), continue 2 make me laugh & feel happy, & make me cry…..thks gals!!!! I really appreciate it……u gals mean more than friends 2 me…..