真的是很烦leh。。。她越来越小题大做。。。So bo liao。。。不懂是我没有看到
BIGGGGGGGG PICTUREEEEEEEE。。。很frustrating。。。你叫我act fast的， 当
然我就give watever he 1 loh。。。den 你又说不可以之给juz e figure。。。he
only ask 4 e figure mah。。。自己人， ok loh。。。我send loh。。。sent liao，
你又讲不要send。。。wah lau， wat u 1 me 2 do？？？every small little thing
i run 2 u， u say executive level oredi， u dun employ us 2 listen 2 instructions
only， nd 2 ‘ve initiative。。。do on my own， den u say i never c big
picture， shld go 2 u。。。WTF do u 1？？？更年期到了is it。。。really feel like slapping her left rite centre。。。
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
Thursday, October 12, 2006
海阔天空。。。
正当我觉得生活开始有点无趣时，我surf到了Hubble Telescope 的site。。。又让
我想起第一次看流星时。。。
第一次真正看到流星是在Bintan。。。真的是好漂亮。。。好亮、好长的尾巴。。。
哈哈，nee 还被我们尖叫声给吓到。。。哈哈哈。。。
后来在Aur，一阵停电，满天的星星。。。让我觉得自己好渺小。。。问题也变得没
那么大不了。。。
在Perhentian，要有两个人以上看到才算的流星。。。哈哈哈。。。每次都忘了要
喊“Whaleshark”。。。
有时就是要提醒自己没有什么是不能解决的。。。不要为了一点点东西就斤斤计较。。。
LIFE IS MORE THAN THAT。。。
好想去Bintan。。。好想去Aur。。。好想去Perhentian。。。我们几时去潜水？？？
我想起第一次看流星时。。。
第一次真正看到流星是在Bintan。。。真的是好漂亮。。。好亮、好长的尾巴。。。
哈哈，nee 还被我们尖叫声给吓到。。。哈哈哈。。。
后来在Aur，一阵停电，满天的星星。。。让我觉得自己好渺小。。。问题也变得没
那么大不了。。。
在Perhentian，要有两个人以上看到才算的流星。。。哈哈哈。。。每次都忘了要
喊“Whaleshark”。。。
有时就是要提醒自己没有什么是不能解决的。。。不要为了一点点东西就斤斤计较。。。
LIFE IS MORE THAN THAT。。。
好想去Bintan。。。好想去Aur。。。好想去Perhentian。。。我们几时去潜水？？？
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
grey-ing...
i love watching grey's anatomy...it's really graps me & makes me tink...but it airs on mon at 11pm...which means i can only get 2 bed at 12...
i resisted watching it 4 e last 2 wks..but last nite i decided 2 catch a glimpse...c if it has finished...
again i was griped & it made me tink alot...mayb cos e main character meredith is always caught in a dilemna...sth w i find myself trapped in ever since i'm wif him...1 thing tis show really highlights is tt there is no "right" std 4 falling 4 sme1...
u never know who u fall in love wif...but follow ur heart even though clouds (or haze these days) might cover ur eyes...hurdles abound but really follow ur heart...if u cant hear wat it says, try a bit harder...juz feel where u 1 2 go...there r no rite or wrong...dun tink o e rd u've travelled as a waste o time...cos there r no time wasted in anything...in everything u learn...
u never really know unless u try...dun give up juz becos u dunno e future...continue cos u wldnt know future...
life is ever so vulnerable...juz try 2 do watever it is...cry if u have 2...shout out all e Fs if u nd...life never stops 4 any1...so dun stop becos o fear...wat wld happen if u fail??? wat wld happen if ur choice is wrong??? u juz learn 2 accept it & move on...as long as u dun harm any1 intentionally, there is never gg 2 b a wrong...
i know it's hard 2 believe in tt...& even harder 2 really do it...but take a deep breathe & dive in...hold ur mask...do a giant leap or even a back flip...plunge in & c e bubbles...sign an ok sign...everything will b juz fine...we came bk in 1 pc fr europe didnt we??? our legs felt like they were gg 2 break didnt they??? but in e end they didnt, & we lost a pound or 2 rite??
i resisted watching it 4 e last 2 wks..but last nite i decided 2 catch a glimpse...c if it has finished...
again i was griped & it made me tink alot...mayb cos e main character meredith is always caught in a dilemna...sth w i find myself trapped in ever since i'm wif him...1 thing tis show really highlights is tt there is no "right" std 4 falling 4 sme1...
u never know who u fall in love wif...but follow ur heart even though clouds (or haze these days) might cover ur eyes...hurdles abound but really follow ur heart...if u cant hear wat it says, try a bit harder...juz feel where u 1 2 go...there r no rite or wrong...dun tink o e rd u've travelled as a waste o time...cos there r no time wasted in anything...in everything u learn...
u never really know unless u try...dun give up juz becos u dunno e future...continue cos u wldnt know future...
life is ever so vulnerable...juz try 2 do watever it is...cry if u have 2...shout out all e Fs if u nd...life never stops 4 any1...so dun stop becos o fear...wat wld happen if u fail??? wat wld happen if ur choice is wrong??? u juz learn 2 accept it & move on...as long as u dun harm any1 intentionally, there is never gg 2 b a wrong...
i know it's hard 2 believe in tt...& even harder 2 really do it...but take a deep breathe & dive in...hold ur mask...do a giant leap or even a back flip...plunge in & c e bubbles...sign an ok sign...everything will b juz fine...we came bk in 1 pc fr europe didnt we??? our legs felt like they were gg 2 break didnt they??? but in e end they didnt, & we lost a pound or 2 rite??
Monday, October 02, 2006
wake up ladies & smell e coffee...
STI Oct 2, 2006
Guys who can't commit
If your date admits to being one of them, you would do well to listen
By Girl Talk, Jill Alphonso
A FRIEND of someone I know recently dated a guy who turned out to be a complete jerk.
Some of you more world-weary girls out there might say: So what's new. (Sorry, guys.)
He seemed sweet at first, but went on to blow hot and cold with her in the most extreme ways.
He would take her out and kiss her good-night on one date, and would practically say goodbye with a handshake on the next.
Once, he even took along another girl on their date.
To be fair, he had warned my friend's friend on the first date that he wasn't exactly Prince Charming material.
'You have to be careful with me,' he apparently said. 'I can be a jerk.'
On the second date, he managed to bring this topic up again, adding that he had been called commitment-phobic by his ex-girlfriends.
And he said so again on the third date.
In fact, he seemed to take pride in being Mr Not-So-Nice.
Why did she persist with this useless dude?
Why do women - despite all their academic qualifications and career achievements - persist with guys who are on a different wave-length? You know, the type who clearly signal they want a fun time, not a long time?
Truth is, they overlook this blatantly basic lack of compatibility in the hope that he will be The One.
Women cling to their own expectations of a relationship, no matter what a guy says to them.
Some relationship experts say this is due to a Cinderella complex, aptly described by writer Colette Dowling as 'women... still waiting for something external to transform their lives'.
And that something is often the idea of a perfect relationship in which that figurative white knight appears and sweeps a woman off her feet.
Men, however, tend to be burdened with less on the expectation front - a concept women often seem unable to grasp.
I've been there myself. Guys have told me after the first two weeks of dating that while they liked spending time with me, they weren't ready for a relationship.
Yet because they were still keen on seeing me, I hoped that time spent together having fun would turn into something more.
When those relationships ended, I would find myself resentful.
The turning point came with one particularly upfront boyfriend who told me several times that previous girlfriends had said that he had commitment issues.
He even agreed that he had a problem.
But ever hopeful, I concluded that if he could admit to a commitment problem in the past, perhaps it meant he was now willing to commit to me.
It didn't take a psychic to predict what happened. We broke up six months later because he couldn't commit.
I was angry at first. But eventually I realised he had in fact given me something valuable at the start - honesty, guy-style. No rose-tinted Prince Charming stuff.
And though he told me that I was the kind of girl he wanted to eventually spend the rest of his life with, the fact was that he simply wasn't ready for that at the time.
Breaking up may always be harder for the girl. So many of us continually hope that someone will come along and rescue us - from what, I'm not sure. Perhaps it's because we've been biologically primed over thousands of years to find someone who'll take care of us.
Surviving Mr Commitment-Phobe - and realising there was nothing to beat myself up about - proved empowering.
I am now in a relationship where we are on the same page about where we want it to go - to a happy future.
So much hurt comes from messages being lost in translation and by women refusing to face reality.
It was a painful lesson I learnt. I can only hope that something clicks for my friend's friend on this issue, so that one day, she'll be ready to click with someone who is right for her.
jilla@sph.com.sg
Guys who can't commit
If your date admits to being one of them, you would do well to listen
By Girl Talk, Jill Alphonso
A FRIEND of someone I know recently dated a guy who turned out to be a complete jerk.
Some of you more world-weary girls out there might say: So what's new. (Sorry, guys.)
He seemed sweet at first, but went on to blow hot and cold with her in the most extreme ways.
He would take her out and kiss her good-night on one date, and would practically say goodbye with a handshake on the next.
Once, he even took along another girl on their date.
To be fair, he had warned my friend's friend on the first date that he wasn't exactly Prince Charming material.
'You have to be careful with me,' he apparently said. 'I can be a jerk.'
On the second date, he managed to bring this topic up again, adding that he had been called commitment-phobic by his ex-girlfriends.
And he said so again on the third date.
In fact, he seemed to take pride in being Mr Not-So-Nice.
Why did she persist with this useless dude?
Why do women - despite all their academic qualifications and career achievements - persist with guys who are on a different wave-length? You know, the type who clearly signal they want a fun time, not a long time?
Truth is, they overlook this blatantly basic lack of compatibility in the hope that he will be The One.
Women cling to their own expectations of a relationship, no matter what a guy says to them.
Some relationship experts say this is due to a Cinderella complex, aptly described by writer Colette Dowling as 'women... still waiting for something external to transform their lives'.
And that something is often the idea of a perfect relationship in which that figurative white knight appears and sweeps a woman off her feet.
Men, however, tend to be burdened with less on the expectation front - a concept women often seem unable to grasp.
I've been there myself. Guys have told me after the first two weeks of dating that while they liked spending time with me, they weren't ready for a relationship.
Yet because they were still keen on seeing me, I hoped that time spent together having fun would turn into something more.
When those relationships ended, I would find myself resentful.
The turning point came with one particularly upfront boyfriend who told me several times that previous girlfriends had said that he had commitment issues.
He even agreed that he had a problem.
But ever hopeful, I concluded that if he could admit to a commitment problem in the past, perhaps it meant he was now willing to commit to me.
It didn't take a psychic to predict what happened. We broke up six months later because he couldn't commit.
I was angry at first. But eventually I realised he had in fact given me something valuable at the start - honesty, guy-style. No rose-tinted Prince Charming stuff.
And though he told me that I was the kind of girl he wanted to eventually spend the rest of his life with, the fact was that he simply wasn't ready for that at the time.
Breaking up may always be harder for the girl. So many of us continually hope that someone will come along and rescue us - from what, I'm not sure. Perhaps it's because we've been biologically primed over thousands of years to find someone who'll take care of us.
Surviving Mr Commitment-Phobe - and realising there was nothing to beat myself up about - proved empowering.
I am now in a relationship where we are on the same page about where we want it to go - to a happy future.
So much hurt comes from messages being lost in translation and by women refusing to face reality.
It was a painful lesson I learnt. I can only hope that something clicks for my friend's friend on this issue, so that one day, she'll be ready to click with someone who is right for her.
jilla@sph.com.sg
Thursday, September 28, 2006
欧洲游后记 - II
看着照片很后悔没有try“绑紧跳”。。。应该很难有机会try吧。。。可是当时是有
点害怕，没有勇气尝试。。。也挺遗憾没有try paragliding。。。是挺贵的。。。
CHF290，大概是新币365。。。不到半个钟头就花掉S$365，有点舍不得。。。可是
回到新加坡，你愿意花S$400都不能做到。。。不只是舍不得，也可能是因为会担心
安全吗。。。会想到可能会危险，所以就没再多想。。。现在后悔来不及了。。。
下一次，我一定要去para-glide，也要去坐hot air balloon！！！难得有机会，我
一定不要再错过！！！
点害怕，没有勇气尝试。。。也挺遗憾没有try paragliding。。。是挺贵的。。。
CHF290，大概是新币365。。。不到半个钟头就花掉S$365，有点舍不得。。。可是
回到新加坡，你愿意花S$400都不能做到。。。不只是舍不得，也可能是因为会担心
安全吗。。。会想到可能会危险，所以就没再多想。。。现在后悔来不及了。。。
下一次，我一定要去para-glide，也要去坐hot air balloon！！！难得有机会，我
一定不要再错过！！！
欧洲游后记 - I
旅行回来的感觉总是怪怪的。。。Jet-lag 是one thing。。。Another 是心情。。。不管旅行再怎么累、怎么cock-up，也比蹲在Singapore有趣。。。就好像Perhentian的名言：“The worst day diving is better then the best day working” similarly，“The worst day travelling is better then the best day working”。。。哈哈。。。 这次有点不同。。。因为很想念一个人。。。很想和他分享每天的点点滴滴。。。在欧洲时一边想着假期不要这么快过、另一边想着他。。。想早点回新加坡。。。回来后，我并没有她们那么想念欧洲。。。可能这不是第一次到欧洲吧。。。怀念的是无须烦恼工作的每一天。。。怀念的是度假的心情。。。回来后没有时间休息也让我更怀念度假的每一天。。。一到办公室我特别想再放假。。。那也许是为什么我会对你发脾气。。。因为说好了要一起旅行的，后来又不能。。。不是你的错，可是我还是很upset。。。希望很快能再放假。。。能松懈身心。。。真的需要RECHARGE。。。我好累啊。。。
Monday, September 25, 2006
九月二日
登上飞机，踏上第二次欧洲之旅。。。坐在我旁边的是个有口臭的洋人。。。还好
我以好累不然不知道该怎么过。。。QF 真的好挤。。。看了两部戏。。。终于到达
伦敦的Heathrow 机场。。。T4在装修，要搭shuttle bus到tube stn 转tube 到 Kings
Cross (45 mins)，den 火车到York (2hrs)。。。
到了酒店，不能chk in，三点才能。。。把重重的背包放下，上了厕所， 我们便到
处走走。。。雨开始下。。。很冷。。。走到了York Minister，其他的人想去别的
地方，剩下我和bj。。。在里面很温暖就决定留下。。。刚好有人在那举行婚礼，
入门费打折。。。
和很多欧洲的其他教堂一样，York Minister became another addition 2 my collection
of cathedrals。。。比较有趣的是它的Undercroft。。它其实是建在很久以前的建
筑。。。有Roman、Norman 和 Vikings 的遗迹。。。有audio-guide不过听到很闷。。。
YM 比其他的cathedrals大。。。这回我没有象以前那么enthu，爬上 tower。。。
Anyway，那个salesperson dun recommend gg up 因为天气不好，很朦。。。
走完了YM，走undercroft。。。bj 说她要晕了。。。她好饿又累。。。于是我们就
去找lunch。。。雨下的好大。。。风也好冷、好强。。。找到一家有set lunch的
hotel restaurant。。。2 course meal 9。90英镑 (大概新币30)。。。好好吃的
炸蘑菇。。。外面脆脆，里面多汁又热呼呼。。。好吃！！！可是吃了那碟炸蘑菇，
结下来的beef stew wif yorkshire pudding & potatoes吃不完。。。Yorkshire
pudding 其实不是pudding。。。是一个空的pastry上面淋了sauce。。。Doggy-bagged
了beef stew，本来想晚上可以吃。。。可是hotel rm 没有microwave。。。
吃了lunch，开始往hotel走去。。。可是有点lost。。。Anyway，很巧的经过了一
间“One pound” shop。。。bj 买了水，我们re-orientate，往hotel回去因为说
好3点大家一起chk in。。。回到hotel，其他人都还没回， 我们就先回去wash up。。。
一整天没有刷牙冲凉了。。。wash up 后好舒服。。。好累。。。可是如果睡觉一
定jet-lag。。。开电视看，可是都是很无聊的戏。。。其他的人也chk in。。。约
好7点dinner。。。在床上laze了 一下。。。准备出去吃饭。。。很多店都关了。。。
5点它们都打烊了。。。好无聊。。。终于找到一家在brochure里有advert的一家餐
馆。。。不是很饿。。。决定‘ve kids meal不过必须below 12years old。。。侍
应生问我：“Are you below 12？” _ _||| Obviously。。。可是她还是问了她的
经理，so i got e kids meal。。。
After dinner，走了走，看了看。。。回到hotel。。。bj 很快的睡着了。。。我
很累，可是还是managed 2 写了一点“travel diary”、看了点电视。。。Nites。。。
登上飞机，踏上第二次欧洲之旅。。。坐在我旁边的是个有口臭的洋人。。。还好
我以好累不然不知道该怎么过。。。QF 真的好挤。。。看了两部戏。。。终于到达
伦敦的Heathrow 机场。。。T4在装修，要搭shuttle bus到tube stn 转tube 到 Kings
Cross (45 mins)，den 火车到York (2hrs)。。。
到了酒店，不能chk in，三点才能。。。把重重的背包放下，上了厕所， 我们便到
处走走。。。雨开始下。。。很冷。。。走到了York Minister，其他的人想去别的
地方，剩下我和bj。。。在里面很温暖就决定留下。。。刚好有人在那举行婚礼，
入门费打折。。。
和很多欧洲的其他教堂一样，York Minister became another addition 2 my collection
of cathedrals。。。比较有趣的是它的Undercroft。。它其实是建在很久以前的建
筑。。。有Roman、Norman 和 Vikings 的遗迹。。。有audio-guide不过听到很闷。。。
YM 比其他的cathedrals大。。。这回我没有象以前那么enthu，爬上 tower。。。
Anyway，那个salesperson dun recommend gg up 因为天气不好，很朦。。。
走完了YM，走undercroft。。。bj 说她要晕了。。。她好饿又累。。。于是我们就
去找lunch。。。雨下的好大。。。风也好冷、好强。。。找到一家有set lunch的
hotel restaurant。。。2 course meal 9。90英镑 (大概新币30)。。。好好吃的
炸蘑菇。。。外面脆脆，里面多汁又热呼呼。。。好吃！！！可是吃了那碟炸蘑菇，
结下来的beef stew wif yorkshire pudding & potatoes吃不完。。。Yorkshire
pudding 其实不是pudding。。。是一个空的pastry上面淋了sauce。。。Doggy-bagged
了beef stew，本来想晚上可以吃。。。可是hotel rm 没有microwave。。。
吃了lunch，开始往hotel走去。。。可是有点lost。。。Anyway，很巧的经过了一
间“One pound” shop。。。bj 买了水，我们re-orientate，往hotel回去因为说
好3点大家一起chk in。。。回到hotel，其他人都还没回， 我们就先回去wash up。。。
一整天没有刷牙冲凉了。。。wash up 后好舒服。。。好累。。。可是如果睡觉一
定jet-lag。。。开电视看，可是都是很无聊的戏。。。其他的人也chk in。。。约
好7点dinner。。。在床上laze了 一下。。。准备出去吃饭。。。很多店都关了。。。
5点它们都打烊了。。。好无聊。。。终于找到一家在brochure里有advert的一家餐
馆。。。不是很饿。。。决定‘ve kids meal不过必须below 12years old。。。侍
应生问我：“Are you below 12？” _ _||| Obviously。。。可是她还是问了她的
经理，so i got e kids meal。。。
After dinner，走了走，看了看。。。回到hotel。。。bj 很快的睡着了。。。我
很累，可是还是managed 2 写了一点“travel diary”、看了点电视。。。Nites。。。
Friday, September 22, 2006
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Wednesday, September 20, 2006
"every ending is a new beginning..."
tt was on her blackboard...
"when i need u e most, when i'm all alone, & u r not there, i know u dun love me tt much..."
tt was on her blog...
"In e end Chiang Mai will b visited by me alone.."
tt was on her blog...
2 wks...i wonder wat went wrong...
dun try 2 b strong...it only makes urself weaker...lousier...it wldnt make u any stronger...
dun try 2 b rational...cos there is no nd 2 b rational...
dun....
no matter wat it is....things will eventually b alrite...it doesnt seem so now...but it will b...sme1 above promise...
it's alrite 2 b tired...it's alrite 2 ignore pple...it's alrite 2 ask pple 2 fuck off...it's alrite 2 juz slp...cos slping really makes ur soul stronger...cos emotions nd not b rein in...
slp it off....everything will b alrite...
tt was on her blackboard...
"when i need u e most, when i'm all alone, & u r not there, i know u dun love me tt much..."
tt was on her blog...
"In e end Chiang Mai will b visited by me alone.."
tt was on her blog...
2 wks...i wonder wat went wrong...
dun try 2 b strong...it only makes urself weaker...lousier...it wldnt make u any stronger...
dun try 2 b rational...cos there is no nd 2 b rational...
dun....
no matter wat it is....things will eventually b alrite...it doesnt seem so now...but it will b...sme1 above promise...
it's alrite 2 b tired...it's alrite 2 ignore pple...it's alrite 2 ask pple 2 fuck off...it's alrite 2 juz slp...cos slping really makes ur soul stronger...cos emotions nd not b rein in...
slp it off....everything will b alrite...
九月一日...
和平常一样做工。。。坐在电脑前发呆。。。在过几个钟头就要飞到地球的另一边。。。Print 了一些York的map。。。做最后的准备。。。十二点半，收拾好回家。。。Dear supposed 2 meet me but long queue @ ICA。。。自己先回去。。。
到家，吃了午餐，看了点电视。。。有点累。。。拿了本杂志，躺在床上。。。睡了半个小时。。。又开始re-pack backpack。。。Dear 终于来了。。。好不容易pack 好。。。Showered。。。吃了dinner。。。是时候去机场。。。妈妈送我出门。。。有点舍不得。。。不是第一次出远门。。。可是还是有点舍不得。。。
计程车很快就截到。。。常常坐德士都会晕，这次也不例外。。。握着Dear 的手在沉默中接近我们将分离的地点。。。这是我们交往500多天以来第二次分开那么久。。。第一次是他到Penang attachment， 一个月没见面。。。这次只是16天。。。很快的吧。。。希望。。。
大约花了一个钟头才到机场。。。Chked in。。。还有两个多小时才要进去。。。不长也不短。。。
我们走到viewing gallery。。。他将会一个人在这看飞机。。。
忘了带lipbalm。。。跑到T2去买。。。顺便吃了Mac。。。
很快的时间到了。。。我们又回到viewing gallery。。。最后一个拥抱。。。不舍的心情。。。不听话的泪水。。。不想分开。。。红红的眼睛。。。很快回来的。。。很快。。。
到家，吃了午餐，看了点电视。。。有点累。。。拿了本杂志，躺在床上。。。睡了半个小时。。。又开始re-pack backpack。。。Dear 终于来了。。。好不容易pack 好。。。Showered。。。吃了dinner。。。是时候去机场。。。妈妈送我出门。。。有点舍不得。。。不是第一次出远门。。。可是还是有点舍不得。。。
计程车很快就截到。。。常常坐德士都会晕，这次也不例外。。。握着Dear 的手在沉默中接近我们将分离的地点。。。这是我们交往500多天以来第二次分开那么久。。。第一次是他到Penang attachment， 一个月没见面。。。这次只是16天。。。很快的吧。。。希望。。。
大约花了一个钟头才到机场。。。Chked in。。。还有两个多小时才要进去。。。不长也不短。。。
我们走到viewing gallery。。。他将会一个人在这看飞机。。。
忘了带lipbalm。。。跑到T2去买。。。顺便吃了Mac。。。
很快的时间到了。。。我们又回到viewing gallery。。。最后一个拥抱。。。不舍的心情。。。不听话的泪水。。。不想分开。。。红红的眼睛。。。很快回来的。。。很快。。。
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
haizzz...smetimes i wonder if i'm juz a perfectionist...
i kp emphasizing...i'm e most junior o e lot...& i've 2 do e most work...& i dun understd y i nd 2 spell things out so clearly...
i tink my "yu qi" wasnt tt gd...but really...u r a grown up loh...e word is "fed-up"....
i know u r under a lot o stress....but stilll....m i not under e same stress???? but my rank is lower...u cant really expect me 2 teach u how 2 speak rite??? wah lau...really loh...i shld deserve sme additional monetary reward isnt it...
i kp emphasizing...i'm e most junior o e lot...& i've 2 do e most work...& i dun understd y i nd 2 spell things out so clearly...
i tink my "yu qi" wasnt tt gd...but really...u r a grown up loh...e word is "fed-up"....
i know u r under a lot o stress....but stilll....m i not under e same stress???? but my rank is lower...u cant really expect me 2 teach u how 2 speak rite??? wah lau...really loh...i shld deserve sme additional monetary reward isnt it...
europe 01092006-17092006 part 1...
1st Sept - 17th Sept 2006
i flew on e 1st...rc london on 2nd early morn ard 5+...took e tube 2 king's cross, den e train 2 york...cab 2 hotel, dumped our luggage & walked ard...
i was @ e york minister most o e time...& walked ard a little...got bk 2 hotel 2 chk in..showered..rest...dinner...most o e places close @ 5...so bored...bj serious jet-lag...she said she was gg 2 faint...my god...(shake head)...she didnt really make an effort 2 get rid o e jet-lag..i feel...
after dinner..went bk hotel, slpt...
3rd
early morn...had master class...lost our way...had 2 walked wif heels...argh...
we left after lunch cos it was so boring...bj still jet-lag...she was slping most o e time during e master class...
we walked ard e city centre...bj was hungry again...s 1ed 2 put her conquest in her rm..while ct was mtg his prof...rh was long gone..half way thro' e master class he went off...he went 2 meet his friends...& got wasted there...
so i went alone walking ard e castle walls...took pics...when i got bk bj was in e shower...i went out 2 've dinner wif s, bj 1ed 2 rehearse her presentation so we left...
when i came bk, bj was sound aslp...she was really not making an effort 2 "cure" her jet-lag...
4th
1st day o congress official...went 4 e early morning session which starts @ 730am!!!!!!who e hell tot o putting tis time slot???anyway, both speakers were v gd...1 talked abt e reliability o a child's memory, e other talked abt sexual abuse by staff in institutions...
1ed 2 go 4 a talk on child homicide..but e place was quite far...dunno y e organisations put e talks in all e different places...how m i supposed 2 walk >500m in my heels???? & w/n 15mins or less...so stupid...anyway, i went 2 listen 2 1 which was related 2 my study...young pple's view on a "good childhood"...i was really comforted after hearing e study...cos i realise i'm not e only person having problems measuring "well-being"...& i tink i'm doing a pretty fine job...hahha...
had a short coffee break...btw english coffee really dun taste v well...they r 2 bland 4 my taste...their expresso taste like a mild version o our kopi-o, juz imagine their daily brew...it's coffee-flavored hot water...& we only had cookies & coffee 4 e break...
den i attended another few presentations on internet child abuse...quite interesting..& i'm rather surprised tt e indians & pakistan talked so readily abt e problems they face...
e lunch workshop was really gd...but 1 o e presentation, on post traumatic disorder 4 children, they played an actual call made by a 7 or 8 yr old child 2 911...my hair was on their ends all e time when i was listening...my god...it was so nerve-racking...i was pretty disturbed hearing tt...i juz cannot imagine e trauma e child had 2 go thro'...i'm only listening & i felt so much fear...imagine e child...witness her father violently attacking her mother...
e rest o e sessions were really boring...& i was so tired...met rh & we decided 2 go bk 2 e hotel earlier 2 wash up, cos there was a congress dinner, & it was pretty near e hotel...
dinner was @ e rail museum...
i was almost dying o thirst, & guess wat, they charge 2.50 pound 4 a bottle o water!!!!!!!!! @ e congress dinner leh!!!! they dun serve plain water!!!!!either u have orange juice or wine...damn stupid...
anyway, i took loads o pic o e trains & had a look @ e royal carriages...e dinner ended v late...11pm...so we decided 2 skip e breakfast session presentation e nx morn...
5th
attened a session on how 2 handle toddler tantrums..quite funny..wonder if it really works...got e dvd (4 free) will pass 2 my sis c if e technique works...
den i rushed off 2 attend my poster presentation...there was hardly any1 who looked @ e posters...i spent damned fucking how many nites trying 2 get e poster out...there were less den 10 pple who looked @ e poster while i was standing there...& only 3 who asked any qns...
anyway, cos i stayed later...i went 2 e nearest rm 4 e nx session..e rm was full!!!! no chairs...& e rm was so stuffy...1 o e presentation was fr spore...& fr tt ministry...my god...i really felt like digging a hole & hide my face...she was like selling s'pore...telling e whole world how gd a job spore had done...but she never tell us wat she had done...duh...stupid...waste o my time..
i went 4 1 o e lunch workshop again...& again it was a v gd presentation...both talked abt how doctors shld b aware o e signs o child sexual abuse...& how e doctors cld aid in e diagnosis o CSA...
2 lazy 2 move...i sat in e same rm...& i was glad i was tt lazy...e 1st presentation was by a lady who survived CSA...it was a really powerful presentation...it clearly illustrates e gap btw victims & those who r helping...y victims do not disclose...& e vicious cycle tt follows...it was a gd presentation..
again i skipped e other sessions...cos i haven really toured york & i wld b leaving tmr...so i took down my poster & went bk...put my things down & changed into my comfortable trainers...bj came bk wif me...she said she 1ed 2 practise cos her presentation was e nx morn...
i walked ard e city...walked across e musuem gardens...walked...walked walked...went 2 e shambles...e shops there were closed but i had a look thro' their windows...& they were all so nice...i basically covered e whole o york city centre on feet...
went bk 2 hotel 2 meet bj 2 go 2 e castle museum where we a reception....
walked ard...& spent at least 2 hrs there...picked up a few gifts...den we left 2 get dinner...most shops were closed & we had subway...
6th
last day o conf...both rh & bj were presenting in e 730 slot...we had 2 get up @ 530...
there was a pathetic no o pple who turned up...there was only bj, rh, s, ct, me, & e other 2 presentors...rh went 1st...his presentation was kind o boring...i expected more fr him...bj was nx 2 present, & there were more pple turning up...surprisingly bj presented really well...i wld say i was really proud o her & o cos myself...cos i prepared e presentation...
i went 2 e nx session on fabricated & induced illness...again i was smacked wif a horrific video clip...a father was smothering a baby...e baby's legs were fratically kicking...it was really hard 2 swallow...really scary...
i decided 2 go off after tis session as there was an accident @ e train stn & there were delays...i was supposed 2 go 2 paris 2 meet e rest...so i took a cab wif sme other delegates who were also leaving...
thk gdness e train 2 london was not affected...rc in time 4 eurostar 2 paris...
& by tis time, e weather was starting 2 turn rather warm...it was freezing when i 1st got in london...
rc paris ard 7+pm...met tcc, swing & cl...went bk 2 e hostel...e shower was e most interesting..will post it when tcc comes bk wif her camera...
e rm was so noisy...cos juz outside e window was a cross jn...e other 3 were wasted...cos they had a 16hr flight all e way fr spore...my nite was long....
i flew on e 1st...rc london on 2nd early morn ard 5+...took e tube 2 king's cross, den e train 2 york...cab 2 hotel, dumped our luggage & walked ard...
i was @ e york minister most o e time...& walked ard a little...got bk 2 hotel 2 chk in..showered..rest...dinner...most o e places close @ 5...so bored...bj serious jet-lag...she said she was gg 2 faint...my god...(shake head)...she didnt really make an effort 2 get rid o e jet-lag..i feel...
after dinner..went bk hotel, slpt...
3rd
early morn...had master class...lost our way...had 2 walked wif heels...argh...
we left after lunch cos it was so boring...bj still jet-lag...she was slping most o e time during e master class...
we walked ard e city centre...bj was hungry again...s 1ed 2 put her conquest in her rm..while ct was mtg his prof...rh was long gone..half way thro' e master class he went off...he went 2 meet his friends...& got wasted there...
so i went alone walking ard e castle walls...took pics...when i got bk bj was in e shower...i went out 2 've dinner wif s, bj 1ed 2 rehearse her presentation so we left...
when i came bk, bj was sound aslp...she was really not making an effort 2 "cure" her jet-lag...
4th
1st day o congress official...went 4 e early morning session which starts @ 730am!!!!!!who e hell tot o putting tis time slot???anyway, both speakers were v gd...1 talked abt e reliability o a child's memory, e other talked abt sexual abuse by staff in institutions...
1ed 2 go 4 a talk on child homicide..but e place was quite far...dunno y e organisations put e talks in all e different places...how m i supposed 2 walk >500m in my heels???? & w/n 15mins or less...so stupid...anyway, i went 2 listen 2 1 which was related 2 my study...young pple's view on a "good childhood"...i was really comforted after hearing e study...cos i realise i'm not e only person having problems measuring "well-being"...& i tink i'm doing a pretty fine job...hahha...
had a short coffee break...btw english coffee really dun taste v well...they r 2 bland 4 my taste...their expresso taste like a mild version o our kopi-o, juz imagine their daily brew...it's coffee-flavored hot water...& we only had cookies & coffee 4 e break...
den i attended another few presentations on internet child abuse...quite interesting..& i'm rather surprised tt e indians & pakistan talked so readily abt e problems they face...
e lunch workshop was really gd...but 1 o e presentation, on post traumatic disorder 4 children, they played an actual call made by a 7 or 8 yr old child 2 911...my hair was on their ends all e time when i was listening...my god...it was so nerve-racking...i was pretty disturbed hearing tt...i juz cannot imagine e trauma e child had 2 go thro'...i'm only listening & i felt so much fear...imagine e child...witness her father violently attacking her mother...
e rest o e sessions were really boring...& i was so tired...met rh & we decided 2 go bk 2 e hotel earlier 2 wash up, cos there was a congress dinner, & it was pretty near e hotel...
dinner was @ e rail museum...
i was almost dying o thirst, & guess wat, they charge 2.50 pound 4 a bottle o water!!!!!!!!! @ e congress dinner leh!!!! they dun serve plain water!!!!!either u have orange juice or wine...damn stupid...anyway, i took loads o pic o e trains & had a look @ e royal carriages...e dinner ended v late...11pm...so we decided 2 skip e breakfast session presentation e nx morn...
5th
attened a session on how 2 handle toddler tantrums..quite funny..wonder if it really works...got e dvd (4 free) will pass 2 my sis c if e technique works...
den i rushed off 2 attend my poster presentation...there was hardly any1 who looked @ e posters...i spent damned fucking how many nites trying 2 get e poster out...there were less den 10 pple who looked @ e poster while i was standing there...& only 3 who asked any qns...
anyway, cos i stayed later...i went 2 e nearest rm 4 e nx session..e rm was full!!!! no chairs...& e rm was so stuffy...1 o e presentation was fr spore...& fr tt ministry...my god...i really felt like digging a hole & hide my face...she was like selling s'pore...telling e whole world how gd a job spore had done...but she never tell us wat she had done...duh...stupid...waste o my time..
i went 4 1 o e lunch workshop again...& again it was a v gd presentation...both talked abt how doctors shld b aware o e signs o child sexual abuse...& how e doctors cld aid in e diagnosis o CSA...
2 lazy 2 move...i sat in e same rm...& i was glad i was tt lazy...e 1st presentation was by a lady who survived CSA...it was a really powerful presentation...it clearly illustrates e gap btw victims & those who r helping...y victims do not disclose...& e vicious cycle tt follows...it was a gd presentation..
again i skipped e other sessions...cos i haven really toured york & i wld b leaving tmr...so i took down my poster & went bk...put my things down & changed into my comfortable trainers...bj came bk wif me...she said she 1ed 2 practise cos her presentation was e nx morn...
i walked ard e city...walked across e musuem gardens...walked...walked walked...went 2 e shambles...e shops there were closed but i had a look thro' their windows...& they were all so nice...i basically covered e whole o york city centre on feet...
went bk 2 hotel 2 meet bj 2 go 2 e castle museum where we a reception....
walked ard...& spent at least 2 hrs there...picked up a few gifts...den we left 2 get dinner...most shops were closed & we had subway...
6th
last day o conf...both rh & bj were presenting in e 730 slot...we had 2 get up @ 530...
there was a pathetic no o pple who turned up...there was only bj, rh, s, ct, me, & e other 2 presentors...rh went 1st...his presentation was kind o boring...i expected more fr him...bj was nx 2 present, & there were more pple turning up...surprisingly bj presented really well...i wld say i was really proud o her & o cos myself...cos i prepared e presentation...
i went 2 e nx session on fabricated & induced illness...again i was smacked wif a horrific video clip...a father was smothering a baby...e baby's legs were fratically kicking...it was really hard 2 swallow...really scary...
i decided 2 go off after tis session as there was an accident @ e train stn & there were delays...i was supposed 2 go 2 paris 2 meet e rest...so i took a cab wif sme other delegates who were also leaving...
thk gdness e train 2 london was not affected...rc in time 4 eurostar 2 paris...
& by tis time, e weather was starting 2 turn rather warm...it was freezing when i 1st got in london...
rc paris ard 7+pm...met tcc, swing & cl...went bk 2 e hostel...e shower was e most interesting..will post it when tcc comes bk wif her camera...
e rm was so noisy...cos juz outside e window was a cross jn...e other 3 were wasted...cos they had a 16hr flight all e way fr spore...my nite was long....
hello...
it's been a long long time since i've blogged..
busy busy busy...wif 2 projects on hand & e York Congress...finally congress over...& i spent 10 days touring western europe...i walked alot...saw a lot o things...
juz came bk on sun evening..
not much jet-lag...but still a little spaced out smetimes...
started work immediately...i'm still stuck wif e 2 projects...i tot i cld wash my hands clean o 1 o them cos they employing another RO...but in e end i got stuck 2 do e report...haizzz...
so many things 2 b completed by end o e mth...
i haven really started my engine after coming bk...
busy busy busy...wif 2 projects on hand & e York Congress...finally congress over...& i spent 10 days touring western europe...i walked alot...saw a lot o things...
juz came bk on sun evening..
not much jet-lag...but still a little spaced out smetimes...
started work immediately...i'm still stuck wif e 2 projects...i tot i cld wash my hands clean o 1 o them cos they employing another RO...but in e end i got stuck 2 do e report...haizzz...
so many things 2 b completed by end o e mth...
i haven really started my engine after coming bk...
Thursday, August 03, 2006
mole...
there's an interesting article regarding moles on e body...
http://www.wofs.com/fsw.php?load=arcview&article=756&c=miscellaneous
http://www.wofs.com/fsw.php?load=arcview&article=756&c=miscellaneous
Friday, July 14, 2006
i dunno la...really...haizzz...
smetimes i really pity her...but tt doesnt mean tt i agree tt she shld stay on...i tink e boss had been giving her way 2 much chance...ok she's not as bad as L...but...she's a bigger muddlehead den any o us...& tt cld really get on e nerves o every1...
& i really 1ed 2 jump on her once...e only gd tt she cld redeem herself is her IT knowledge...but currently e connection here sucks & nth much cld b done & it sort o diminish her role even more given tt she cant solve e problem...
i dunno if she's given 2 much things 2 do or not...
like me, when i've 2 many things 2 handle i miss out details...
i really dunno...she always say she knows, she will do it...etc...but in e end things not done...& others r fretting over it...& when e boss tells her she say she'll improve...haizz..it's been once 2 many times oredi loh...
e 2 yrs tt i've been here...she has not handled things as well as wat she's supposed 2...i cant say she sucks but she's not doing e best o jobs...i wonder if she realises it...
i really hope tt she look 4 sth else...cos it's really not her forte here...
i can understd their hostility...& e gossiping...i did e same when L was such a pain in my ass...
i dunno la...i tink it's really time she look 4 sth else...i hope e boss had done sth...else it's putting a strain on others...
when i heard tt e boss wld b giving both her & me an extra half/1 day off cos o our involvemt in special proj, i smehow felt tt e measuremt yardstick was broken...
she worked hard....but it's cos she was not organised enough 2 complete e things...i worked hard cos there was so much 2 do...i dunno mayb i dunno wat she had done...
althought e extra time-off can never compensate 4 e amt o time tt i put in, it sort o gave recognition 2 e work tt i've done....it's supposed 2 b reflected in e appraisal, & appraisal is linked 2 wage increment!!!
i hope i get due recognition...
smetimes i really pity her...but tt doesnt mean tt i agree tt she shld stay on...i tink e boss had been giving her way 2 much chance...ok she's not as bad as L...but...she's a bigger muddlehead den any o us...& tt cld really get on e nerves o every1...
& i really 1ed 2 jump on her once...e only gd tt she cld redeem herself is her IT knowledge...but currently e connection here sucks & nth much cld b done & it sort o diminish her role even more given tt she cant solve e problem...
i dunno if she's given 2 much things 2 do or not...
like me, when i've 2 many things 2 handle i miss out details...
i really dunno...she always say she knows, she will do it...etc...but in e end things not done...& others r fretting over it...& when e boss tells her she say she'll improve...haizz..it's been once 2 many times oredi loh...
e 2 yrs tt i've been here...she has not handled things as well as wat she's supposed 2...i cant say she sucks but she's not doing e best o jobs...i wonder if she realises it...
i really hope tt she look 4 sth else...cos it's really not her forte here...
i can understd their hostility...& e gossiping...i did e same when L was such a pain in my ass...
i dunno la...i tink it's really time she look 4 sth else...i hope e boss had done sth...else it's putting a strain on others...
when i heard tt e boss wld b giving both her & me an extra half/1 day off cos o our involvemt in special proj, i smehow felt tt e measuremt yardstick was broken...
she worked hard....but it's cos she was not organised enough 2 complete e things...i worked hard cos there was so much 2 do...i dunno mayb i dunno wat she had done...
althought e extra time-off can never compensate 4 e amt o time tt i put in, it sort o gave recognition 2 e work tt i've done....it's supposed 2 b reflected in e appraisal, & appraisal is linked 2 wage increment!!!
i hope i get due recognition...
felt e tremours on wed...kind o scary...& we knew smrt was doing sme constructions...1st tot nichol highway...e trembling lasted 4 quite sme time...felt it again ytd...e ans tt e management gave:
"LTA engineer has clarify that the vibration comes from the vibration roller from the National Library as they are carrying out some road works over at our carpark entrance.
There is no need for any evacuation.
In any case of emergency that requires a total evacuation, our building fire alarm bell will sound continues. Upon hearing that then an evacuation is require.
We will follow up closely with our surrounding contractors on their activities."
i'm feeling e tremblings now again...but e roller machine is not moving at all.....hmmm...
i dun 1 2 die ah....not cos o sme stupid construction...
"LTA engineer has clarify that the vibration comes from the vibration roller from the National Library as they are carrying out some road works over at our carpark entrance.
There is no need for any evacuation.
In any case of emergency that requires a total evacuation, our building fire alarm bell will sound continues. Upon hearing that then an evacuation is require.
We will follow up closely with our surrounding contractors on their activities."
i'm feeling e tremblings now again...but e roller machine is not moving at all.....hmmm...
i dun 1 2 die ah....not cos o sme stupid construction...
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