haizzz....life is really a dilemma 4 me....been pretty free 4 e past few weeks cos some o my classes had ended n some had a little break...so i wasn't as packed....i dun really know if i like being slightly more free....
when i was totally packed, everytime i go home, after shower, rest & relax in front o e tv 4 a while, then off i head 2 my bed, n once my head touch e pillow, i'm off 2 lalaland...but now when i'm home early, after shower, rest & relax in front o tv, i'm tired physically, but i juz can't fall asleep...i'll toss & turn in bed tinking abt wat i shld b doing....i know i shld have done e tinking a long time ago....but mayb i've been pushing away 4 2 long but i juz dun 1 2 tink abt it actually.....now when i've e time 2 tink....e more i dun know wat i 1.....haizzz....the classes r starting again & i'll have less time 2 tink again....do i 1 less time 2 tink.....i dun tink so.....
ytd was tinking abt him again cos snow asked me abt him on fri......i can't even remember how he looks like.....i was tinking really really hard how he looks like but i juz cannot remember......i dun even really remember e feelings..... i guess i really have a very bad memory.....
talking abt memory i remember the movie by drew barrymore & adam sandler, 50 1st dates, if i dun have long term memory(LTM), how wld it b like??? wanted to catch e movie by jim carey, endless sunshine of the spotless mind, but never got a chance to.....really a wonder wat our brain does 2 us.....
it's really amazing how our brain functions.....how the neurons r firing non-stop, wif ur every tot every action.....i'm actually comtemplating taking bio-psy instead o social psy rite tis very moment....
actually, i'm actually comtemplating on working on a cruise ship...or go on a trainee programme in USA......have actually found these 2 outlets but there is always a fee & i'm not sure if they r trustworthy...it's not cheap 2 apply 4 visa & such & i need 2 pay e company all e administrative charges & such.....shld i juz b a gd girl n find a proper job......i was tinking o my sf trip....was so free over there.....no1 knows me there was no responsibilty & juz go wherever i 1................haizzzz...digressing again.....better got back 2 transcription....i tink mayb i shld go grab a coffee 1st.......
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