suddenly i'm swarmed wif so much stuff.....transcriptions looks like it ain't gonna end anytime soon...i've 2 start planning/scheduling 4 my social loafing study/mood & decision study...hopefully e response wld b gd then i can do them all at 1 go instead o having 2 run so many different sessions.....then i'm still negotiating wif e polys on if they can help me recruit/disseminate info 2 students regarding e studies....y do pple dun give a damn when u email them???? can't they juz email back & say they've receive the email & will look into it??? then have 2 schedule wif e singapore american school....hopefully they can do it in aug.....i've not decided on wat i'm gg 2 do when my contract end in aug....my boss asked me if i cld work 4 n additional mth...i said as long as e project needs me then i tink i'll stay...but i'm really tired o this job...my boss' friend is coming 2 spore 2 work in smu, she has asked if i 1ed 2 work wif her...my boss' colleague, another lecturer also asked if i 1 2 continue my job as RA....but working as ra...really quite boring cos no1 2 talk 2...no colleagues...get quite boring sometimes....(but gd in e sense tt i can do watever i 1 & dun really have 2 tink abt backstabbing or anything...) gg 4 n interview tmr....research officer.....
suddenly have 2 make so many decisions 2 make....dn know if i shld sign up 4 another 12 sessions o kickboxing....cardio-mix also...dun know if i shld sign up...sign lang....e next level is intermediate 1, a bit worried cos i really suck at sign lang....if i continue, e next level is IS2, dun know can continue then or not cos by then my contract ends, i dun know where i'll b.....
it's juz 2 difficult 2 make any decisions when i dun know where i'm headed....
my bro's gg 2 vietnam on a backpacking trip....really kind o envy him....feel like juz disappearing 4 sometime 2 but somehow things r pulling me back...r they juz imaginary ???
ytd snow told me a story....
there was tis puppy who was kept in a cage. & rite in e cage is a nail sticking out fr e grd, which cld not b taken out. everytime e puppy sits down, e nail will poke e puppy, & he wld yelp painfully...everytime when he yelps in pain, e owner wld come & stroke it & e puppy will stop...
pt o e story, i'm juz like e puppy, talking/complaining abt all e stuff tt i'm facing but never doing anything abt....after complaining, i juz let e matter go....shld i juz keep sitting on e nail or shld i do something 2 remove e nail??? since e nail can't b move, shldn't i juz move myself???? shld i venture out o e cage & take a look at e world outside? e nail is only in e confines o e cage, if i dun step out i wld never know.....
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