how m i feeling now......

i dun know if i shld b happy or sad.....glad tt he called.....but really sad 2 know tt he's been thro' so much.......sort o glad tt e reason he was MIA 4 so long was not becos he was busy, it was cos o some much stuff happening......was really shocked when i saw him.....tot he had a stroke or something.....he had a viral infection in his 7th nerve or something like tt, thus half o his face is now motionless....he had a surgery & i guess e whole thing must have been rather dramatic, cos he said everything happened very fast......1st he cldn't taste anything, then he cldn't close his eyes, then half o his face cldn't moved......e worst period, he cldn't even close his eyes when he sleep.......i didn't really know how 2 react actually......i juz asked him wat happened, he told me wat i juz wrote.......then i started blabbling off abt wat i had been doing......saying how basically i was enjoying myself & complaining abt life when he was suffering......i feel so stupid........i really dun know wat i shld say or do......getting all confused rite now.....

m at e je lib rite now.....juz had my x-ray done, nothing else 2 do so i juz pop into tis super nice newly renovated lib 2 blog cos i really need 2 get my feelings into writing else i tink i might explode anytime......dun know how i'm feeling rite now......1ed 2 go chill at e pool but went 2 e chinese sinsei, & he told me 2 rest 4 a few days.......i'm gg 2 b a pig & not exercise or do anything tis wk...........

ok, i've another 13 mins 2 blog or surf e net 4 free at e lib.....after 30mins need 2 pay.....dun really mind paying cos it's juz 3cents per min & e connection is pretty fast.......but juz all e hassle cos i still need 2 top up e cash card & stuff but i seldom use e cash card, dun 1 2 waste money topping it up......i tink i'll juz go down 2 e cafe (yes, there's a cafe inside e lib) & read a book.....have HY's book called "gift from the sea", philosophical book......or i'll juz grab any booko later 2 read......

feeling really numb rite now......it is cos o e early morning or is it cos o e x-ray.........i tink i need 2 grab a coffee 2 calm my nerves & 2 warm myself up......