losing yourself......

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i feel like losing myself.......i seriously have no idea wat i'm trying 2 do & wat i'm tinking o at all.....i've so many tots tt i dun know wat is wat....i cannot concentrate....i cannot function....i do not feel well....i feel i m suffocating.....i juz feel like losing myself fr everything, my responsiblities, my tots, my fears, my everything.......i feel like crying but i dun know wat i shld b crying abt.....my head is juz a numb......i can hardly feel myself living......m i living? do i exist at all.......fears abt everything juz keep creeping up on me....i cannot shake off anything...neither can i feel anything.....i dun 1 2 die but i dun 1 2 live as i m now....but wat m i doing.....i m doing but i m not doing.......wat e fuck m i doing.......wat e hell m i writing......i dun feel broken, neither do i feel whole....do i feel at all.....i seriously doubt tt.....do i feel lonesome....i tink so...but doesn't every1......i feel totally numb rite now....fr head 2 toes.......wat's wrong.....i 1 2 take a long long break....away fr everything, every1.....but can i afford 2.......fears again........wat e fuck m i writing..........................numb..............................................