Monday, February 28, 2005

spinning.....

stayed up 4 e nite again.....getting old.....cannot take e strain o it.....my head's sort o spinning now....can't really concentrate on wat i'm supposed 2 b doing.....headache.....cough came bk again....e slightest flu also.....y.......

i'm feeling all sad again.....i dunno wat 2 do......i dun 1 2 do anything actually.....i dun 1......i hate it....feel like crying......hormonal changes i guess.......shit......

my boss asked me y i lacked confidence.....i told her i set 2 high a goal 4 myself all e time.....she said e journey is more impt than e end.....o cos i know.....i try 2 appreciate e process.....

i took time 2 tink.....i didn't get much reflection....or i dunno wat 2 tink actually i dunno wat i shld know....i dunno anything anymore.......things dun seem as bad as i tink.....

e feeling o sad juz envelopes me.....pls go away.....dust it away.....dun ever come near me.....i dun 1 u.....

i 1 2 do so much more....but i'm only tinking, never doing......can i ever have e courage or strength......i 1 so much more.....

pls stop asking y......stop asking e qn......stop tormenting urself.......stop it.....when can e brain speak 2 e brain?????when can we talk 2 ourselves......how do i make myself understd myself????when u dunno wat u r tinking abt..........

spinning spinning spinning......stop pls.....stop.............

can u pls talk 2 me????

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